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Next day "left over"

I agree with a lot thats been posted, that being said i'll try not to repeat too much.

Back in my using days i always liked the thought of saving some for the next day. Withdrawals weren't really the reason because i was rarely sick right away in the morning. Just the fear of not having any was enough incentive to save a just a little bit. I hated waking up thinking "shit, how/where/when am i going to get more?" I tried to rationalize saving that extra by telling myself things like "ehh i'm already high, that little bit more probably won't add to it much." But then again the addiction would always be saying "You know you want it, its just a little bit more why not?" It takes a lot of willpower to save it but it was very comforting to go to bed knowing it was there, and waking up always felt like christmas morning when i was able to do it.
 
This thread has brought back some horrible memories..

KinderFeld said:
when you crawl out of bed with your eyes & nose running all over the place, knees bended and back humped... not risking to go to take that critical morning piss coz it might just bring along a painful long constipated dump too....
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Then you realise you have no money, no phone credit, the heating is broken. You are ice cold w/d'ing hard. You manage to just about get out of bed, put on a load of dirty clothes, scrape 40p together for the phonebox, you make the call and it goes straight to voicemail losing your 40p. Wander over to your friends house, hoping he's miraculously got some stuff which he will share. He answers the door as desperate as you and you try to come up with a plan. Down the to pawn shop it is, with a quick stop over on the way to a department store. Finally get the money together and put credit on your phone, make the call.. "Yeah mate, I'll be 2 hours". Your heart sinks, you know that his 2 hours is more like 4. Eventually at 7pm you pick up some gear. You suddenly get some energy out of nowhere and literally run home, jump over to the area you prepare the shots, sruggle to open the ridiculously wraped bag (how the hell do they tie a knot this small??) fingers are ice cold, eventually manage to open it, pour more than normal into the spoon, cook it up and get the shot ready. Now cos your so cold you cant find a vein, it's getting beyond a joke, why do i live like this, eventually hit one "Halleyluyah!" do the shot and suddenly everything is fine. Your body is fully repaired in an instant, nothing matters anymore. Proceed to work through the 3 bags and then go to sleep ready for the whole thing all over again tomorow.
 
oliphill said:
T"Yeah mate, I'll be 2 hours". Your heart sinks, you know that his 2 hours is more like 4.
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Dude, so goddamn true. I can't relate to all the little details but you nailed what it was like, for me anyways, at the height of my addiction. Guess all that shit comes with the territory huh?

Maybe this thread will be useful to people just getting into this kinda shit. Kind of a warning but also good advice to save a morning hit to avoid waking up and having to deal with that kind of stuff right away. Not a good way to start the day :p
 
When I just sniffed dope it seemed that it was easy to save at least half a bag for the morning.... and I would be thankful ever time. But when I started shooting not only did it get harder to save any for the morning but when I didnt save any (almost every night) I would get sick at 6-7:30 am instead of 10-noon when just sniffing. The w/d always hit faster while using it IV, thankfully I have only touched heroin 20 or so times in the last 4 years.
 
I have a prescription and have to take mine daily or else the pain is so excrutiating that I cannot move- but say on a day I have to go pick up my prescription or wait for it to be delivered, if I put it off or sleep in then I could easily find myself in a situation, so I always save one pill just in case... My biggest concern is what`s going to happen if my pain ever is somehow cured or treated... I mean, it would be a miracle if they found a way to cure the pain enough for me to no longer require taking hydromorphone every day but at the same time everything that I read seems to suggest withdrawl is hell so that concern occupies my thoughts quite often. Especially since, even if you save a bit to make the day after a little less awful once that wears off aren`t you pretty much in the same position? I mean in my case if I run out it`s only a matter of hauling my ass to the pharmacy for my refill, but from what it sounds like when you run out, you`re out... So while I guess it`s better to taper off is it just prolonging the inevitable?
 
Next day leftover? Unless I got a brick of dope the night before, no such thing. At least not for a addict.
 
There s just TOO many of you people telling "no addict can have next day left-overs"...!

I'm an addict. I can. Always could.
And I think being an addict is what makes the morning "left over" really matter - fuck, it's vital : as an addict there's no "morning" when you're SO sick & there's nothing that would ease your pain to get you able to start over the whole H Hunt for yet another day...
Without that left over, however tiny, an addict can't get his mind together and work out the plan for today's magic trick for that ever-next fix - not without cursing the day you were born and barely crawl, do the whole "business" in 4 hrs instead of 1, just coz u can't drag yourself around.
Not cursing heroin, of course - it's your fault, not her's. ;)
 
lacey k said:
Next day leftover? Unless I got a brick of dope the night before, no such thing. At least not for a addict.
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Agreed!

I hate the way I am so much. I constantly put myself in so much pain, just to have an extra hit the night before, which more often that not doesnt do much because my receptors are full up anyhow.

I am really getting sick and tired of being a slave to this drug. I mean when I was on methadone it was OK, but getting off methadone was my major priority when on it, so I was constantly sick all the time anyway.

I've been through so many hours and hours of withdrawals now that it just seems ridiculous that I cant even do 100 hours at once or so to get off it completely. My ridiculously shit record so far is 34 hours. But when totally the times I've been sick in between my addiction its easily in the 1000's.

F-M-L!
 
Always, always, fucking always saved something for the next morning. I know myself, and I never could have forced myself to get out of bed if I didn't know I had a wake-up dose waiting for me. The morning dose was always the most crucial for me, and was the one I missed most when I quit doing opiates on a regular basis.
 
oliphill said:
This thread has brought back some horrible memories..



Then you realise you have no money, no phone credit, the heating is broken. You are ice cold w/d'ing hard. You manage to just about get out of bed, put on a load of dirty clothes, scrape 40p together for the phonebox, you make the call and it goes straight to voicemail losing your 40p. Wander over to your friends house, hoping he's miraculously got some stuff which he will share. He answers the door as desperate as you and you try to come up with a plan. Down the to pawn shop it is, with a quick stop over on the way to a department store. Finally get the money together and put credit on your phone, make the call.. "Yeah mate, I'll be 2 hours". Your heart sinks, you know that his 2 hours is more like 4. Eventually at 7pm you pick up some gear. You suddenly get some energy out of nowhere and literally run home, jump over to the area you prepare the shots, sruggle to open the ridiculously wraped bag (how the hell do they tie a knot this small??) fingers are ice cold, eventually manage to open it, pour more than normal into the spoon, cook it up and get the shot ready. Now cos your so cold you cant find a vein, it's getting beyond a joke, why do i live like this, eventually hit one "Halleyluyah!" do the shot and suddenly everything is fine. Your body is fully repaired in an instant, nothing matters anymore. Proceed to work through the 3 bags and then go to sleep ready for the whole thing all over again tomorow.
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...or you spend the whole day doing old EMPTY filters, just coz they barely color few units of water enough to get u calm for 5 min with each worthless shot... Do this over and over again, fucking up your precious FEW veins u got left, while you pray to all gods Someone would pay for your BJ or cunt today. Pray for a chance to suck some dick with a wallet, coz that cum is gonna magically transform into dope and u finally get to shoot it....for today.

I can't imagine anything worse, in this world or any other, than fucking in WDs.
You don't have a cunt, you have an open wound and someone keeps stabbing it - fucking your sore open fresh wound.

Yet...I'm no quitter.... even though I quit everything else, always, before. Before H.
Avoiding to have that wound stabbed in WDs means I gotta get enough, and make it last enough - one day, a lucky "successfull" non-WDs day, brings in usually the needed H amount for 2 days.

So yeah ... it's painfull indeed.
But while still here... it's worth it.

And morning left-overs - they're Starter Fluid.
They're giving Life itself, every morning.
 
I don't get it how one can manage to "survive" the morning after if one hasn't left anything for the following day. Perhaps people who aren't really into deep shit do that and have no problems. When I was forced to use heroin for like 9 months or so, I always had enough gear for a week or two because it was unavailable in my city at that time (but times change). So it was rather a matter of reasonable planning for more than just one or two days. But if you buy everyday, then it's your choice if you want to get fucked up more and it will pass, give nothing, or if you want to leave something for the morning so you can heal yourself and wait so damned dealers wake up and you can buy again. Well, this shows how opioid addiction (well, especially heroin addiction) looks like. You do the fucking same thing over and over again. Such a life is as dull as ditch-water. I never lived like that. But I know addicts who still could THINK always saved something for the day after if they didn't buy more like me (it pays off more than buying everyday by the way, I could save up to 30% buying my way but that's past, I couldn't buy so much right now if I still shot up).
 
I could never relax and enjoy my gear, unless I had another bag ready to go or on its way..
 
I agree. I am DEF an addict and I would say more times than not, on a work day, I always saved an extra dose. It wasn't like it was taking away from my nighttime high...it was extra dope I bought for the morning you know.

but being violently sick at my desk job wouldn't fly ;) so gotto do what you gotto do

KinderFeld said:
There s just TOO many of you people telling "no addict can have next day left-overs"...!

I'm an addict. I can. Always could.
And I think being an addict is what makes the morning "left over" really matter - fuck, it's vital : as an addict there's no "morning" when you're SO sick & there's nothing that would ease your pain to get you able to start over the whole H Hunt for yet another day...
Without that left over, however tiny, an addict can't get his mind together and work out the plan for today's magic trick for that ever-next fix - not without cursing the day you were born and barely crawl, do the whole "business" in 4 hrs instead of 1, just coz u can't drag yourself around.
Not cursing heroin, of course - it's your fault, not her's. ;)
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I always try to save a wake-up. Though there have been a few times I've gotten up in the middle of the night with a burning desire to get off, figured 'sure, everything's going to be okay tomorrow,' then something ridiculous and improbable happens that screws everything up and I get to spend the rest of the day wondering why the bloody hell I had to do a shot in the middle of the night..
 
Saving a little for later?

Hey guys,

Im a daily IV user and occasionally have the days where i cannot find anything. I sometimes try to hide pills from myself when i have an abundance but that never works out. Im wondering if anyone has a method of being able to prep a shot and save some for a rainy day or something? I generally keep my cottons and if needed, gather up a few and rinse out. Does anyone chip off a little bit and put it away? or when you have a solution, put like 10mls in a syringe for later? Just wondering. Thanks guys.
 
"Saving" prepared Iv solution is not safe, bacteria/fungus can grow in it.
Washing out cottons, too, is unhealthy for the same reason. "cotton fever"

The best option is having some self control.
 
Impossible

If I have heroin in the house and even if I know I need to save some for the morning mo have before work I just can't do it.
Even if I have already had a good amount i just cant save any while i know it is sitting there calling my name.
 
yea im completely the same way, just cant seem to save it.

I know you cant save solutions cuz of contamination and what not, i was just seeing if anyone had some kind of alternative.

for people like us self control went out the window the first time you geared up, i was just hoping someone had some kind of way to overcome that and b able to save some for later.
 
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