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Meth/Amphetamines: Serious Discussion Only - V.2: MERGED with amps quitting thread

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jspun said:
I don't know if anyone cares- but 1 year sober today!=D From meth Aug 24th was 1 year- came close a couple weeks back, though.

Alex- Good luck my man. You've posted some insightful stuff on this thread. Not to push 12 step mtgs but thats whats helped me. Maybe hitting some mtgs can help with cravings until you get your Rx filled. Don't be hard on yourself- when I was on methadone maintenance I would sometimes get ahead of schedule- but overall maintenance saved my life.

I wonder if taking tums to increase urinary pH or taking a drug that competes with the microsomal enzyme that metabolizes amphetamines ( cimetedine seemed to help with methadone)- I wonder if there is anything analogous to help stretch out supply? Isn't there ways to make the spanules work like the instant release formulations if needed- crushing?

I'll keep you in my thoughts.

Keep us posted
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Well done comrade! :)
Must be SUCH a great feeling to be speed free for a year! keep it up mate.
Today is my SECOND day without the full amphetamines, I've taken 30 mg of dexedrine in the last 2 days! this is excellent! The withdrawals, are minimal.
They would be really bad, but I don't let em get to me, I keep myself busy, but I have drank an obscene amount of coffee :)
 
footscrazy said:
How you going Sweet P?
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Well, I'm still using (which is why I haven't been posting much in this thread lately - I feel a bit guilty!) but I'm managing to slowly lower my intake. I'm probably smoking about 3-4 days a week on average, instead of 6 or 7. My body and my mind just can't seem to handle daily use any more.

How about you, hun? Are you managing to stay clean? <3
 
jspun said:
I don't know if anyone cares- but 1 year sober today!=D From meth Aug 24th was 1 year- came close a couple weeks back, though.

Alex- Good luck my man. You've posted some insightful stuff on this thread. Not to push 12 step mtgs but thats whats helped me. Maybe hitting some mtgs can help with cravings until you get your Rx filled. Don't be hard on yourself- when I was on methadone maintenance I would sometimes get ahead of schedule- but overall maintenance saved my life.

I wonder if taking tums to increase urinary pH or taking a drug that competes with the microsomal enzyme that metabolizes amphetamines ( cimetedine seemed to help with methadone)- I wonder if there is anything analogous to help stretch out supply? Isn't there ways to make the spanules work like the instant release formulations if needed- crushing?

I'll keep you in my thoughts.

Keep us posted
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HELL YEAH MAAN! A YEAR is a longass time! You rock!
 
Hey Footscrazy, thanks for your response. :)

You're right with a lot of the things you said. When the family found out about my using, I was kicked out and moved in with complete strangers who are never home, so there's no reason to act straight, let alone be straight. I can do what I want, when I want, which includes getting high and hanging out on the internet. Friends have all bailed, I presume because of the using and the fact that I'd rather stay home, get high and blast music than go out and party (or even just go to a movie or lunch) with them. I guess there's only so much people can put up with before they just turn away.. I can't blame them really, what kind of friend am I, really..

I started out as just a weekend user, then progressed into thursday through to sunday night, then I'd need some to function after a big weekend, and to study, then it turned into every single day, the progression was so fast!

Hmm, do I want to stop? I do. I can't take it anymore, period. Like you said, I seriously just sit here and say 'fuck it' what else do I have to do, it's not like anyone will be coming over and I have to straighten out, so I might as well use to forget they even exist. I'm also paying $80,000 for an education that I'm wasting. I did manage to make it to uni this morning though!! So that's a little bit of an achievement I guess..

I just feel lost and quite frankly over it all.. I don't want to do it anymore. But as we all know, as soon as my hands stop typing this, they will go straight back to the pipe. Fuck.

Much love, Mav <3

*sends love to SweetP*
 
last 4 days
day 1 no dexedrine
day 2 20 mg dexedrine (as opposed to the 60 i'm allowed to take)
day 3 no dexedrine
day 4 65 mg dexedrine (: /)
Not bad eh! I think I can keep doing it... The day is harder, but I can finally enjoy marijuana again and finally can control my own thoughts!
 
last 4 days
day 1 no dexedrine
day 2 20 mg dexedrine (as opposed to the 60 i'm allowed to take)
day 3 no dexedrine
day 4 65 mg dexedrine (: /)
Not bad eh! I think I can keep doing it... The day is harder, but I can finally enjoy marijuana again and finally can control my own thoughts!
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Not bad at all! When you're able to reup in a week or so, maybe you'll be able to get by at a lower dose and be able to stockpile for rainy days- or even get by with none at all. Do you find that with less dexedrine the imagination/ fantasy enhacing effects of cannabis are improved? Keep up the good work my friend!
 
im posting here cause i cant send pms
im sad lonely and depressed. if it wasnt for radiohead and this girl
id probably not be here right now.
im also two weeks coming off a opiate addiction.

my girl is coming off meth its been about two years now since she used..
she has a good job with good hours and good position. also is going to school.
she tells me today that she wants a new life and is really not happy at all.
im the only thing that keeps her a little sane she says. says she just wants to be
happy n nothing is creating that for her. said people dont make her happy, the ones who hurt or make her feel crazy. Says shes unhappy when she has to fake laugh or smile. n just overall unhappy.
i have alot of problems of my own but this girl u can tell is just overwhelmed by
intense feelings of somthing. how is it to stop after using for a couple years?
what can i do to help her? i think she wants to do it again, i catch the hints.
can someone clue in and give me some advice for a better understanding of this whole situation?!
 
Sundaytripper said:
im posting here cause i cant send pms
im sad lonely and depressed. if it wasnt for radiohead and this girl
id probably not be here right now.
im also two weeks coming off a opiate addiction.

my girl is coming off meth its been about two years now since she used..
she has a good job with good hours and good position. also is going to school.
she tells me today that she wants a new life and is really not happy at all.
im the only thing that keeps her a little sane she says. says she just wants to be
happy n nothing is creating that for her. said people dont make her happy, the ones who hurt or make her feel crazy. Says shes unhappy when she has to fake laugh or smile. n just overall unhappy.
i have alot of problems of my own but this girl u can tell is just overwhelmed by
intense feelings of somthing. how is it to stop after using for a couple years?
what can i do to help her? i think she wants to do it again, i catch the hints.
can someone clue in and give me some advice for a better understanding of this whole situation?!
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If she hasn't used in two years, she should definitely be over the worst of the withdrawal symptoms by now. Maybe she's suffering from some depression? Communication is always key, so keep talking to her. If she's seriously considering using again, encourage her to get some treatment or counselling... it's very easy to slip back into old habits, even after being clean for years.
 
I really considered actually quitting for good, seriously, a couple weeks ago. I didn't do it but I've been thinking seriously about it lately for the first time since I relapsed almost a year ago.
 
Today I finally went along to the local addictions service and made an appointment to see a counsellor. I've been considering this for a while now, but I kept procrastinating and never got around to doing it. They said it could take a few weeks before I get an appointment, but at least I've made that step. I think some professional help will be really useful for me.

mrs_mia_wallace said:
I really considered actually quitting for good, seriously, a couple weeks ago. I didn't do it but I've been thinking seriously about it lately for the first time since I relapsed almost a year ago.
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Hey, that's a good sign! :)
 
Sweet P said:
Well, I'm still using (which is why I haven't been posting much in this thread lately - I feel a bit guilty!) but I'm managing to slowly lower my intake. I'm probably smoking about 3-4 days a week on average, instead of 6 or 7. My body and my mind just can't seem to handle daily use any more.

How about you, hun? Are you managing to stay clean? <3
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That's good you've cut down to 3-4 days a week - def a step in the right direction!

I am going well on meth, am just over 3 months off it now. Been doing other drugs a lot though, I'm thinking of making an effort to get off everything again in a week or two...
 
Enki said:
^ Sounds like you have a good plan and you are moving things into place for real progress. Great going (((<3Sweet P<3)))!
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Thanks Enki! *hugs*

footscrazy said:
I am going well on meth, am just over 3 months off it now. Been doing other drugs a lot though, I'm thinking of making an effort to get off everything again in a week or two...
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Awesome! I'm glad to hear you're still off meth. I hope you have the same success kicking the other drugs. :)
 
So how is everyone doing?

This week hasn't been so good for me... I seem to be slowly slipping back into daily usage again. Well, I haven't been using every day this week, but it's definitely on the increase again. I'm still waiting for the addictions service to get back to me. They said someone would contact me within a week, and a week has now passed and I've heard nothing at all. Feeling a bit discouraged.
 
Hi SweetP & everyone!

Aww *hugs* try not to feel discouraged, it does suck that no-one has contacted you, but they will! If it's taking too long for you and you feel like the matter is of some urgency, give them another call. At the worst they'll say it will take some more time.. But hang in there, I'm very proud of you for your huge effort, you're an inspiration to me and no doubt some others! Takes a lot to even call one of those places let alone follow it thru <3

I haven't used since my little attack on the weekend, but I've thought about nothing else. The painkillers + injuries have reduced my mobility which means I can't really get around to score but my 'friends' to come to me, so I can score if need be. I've had people say that maybe this 'forced break' out of life to recover is the perfect situation to quit, but I'm not sure.. Already I feel depressed and lonely without it. Sad really, but I guess that's what this drug does to you.. I've noticed that things are affecting me more, one of my best friends in the whole world lost his house, the banks foreclosed on it and now he's semi-homeless, I ended up in tears when I found out, but when my other best friend died during the height of my using, I didn't even shed a tear. Hmm, weird.. I dunno, just all a bit messed up at the moment. Bah. I think the lonliness is getting to me the most. Yes, my friends were around and were super awesome just after I was bashed, but they've all gone now.. Hmm. I dunno. Don't mind me, lol, just in one of those moods. If anyone's up and wants to chat, just PM me..

Much love all.

Mavvycakes <3
 
mav3rick said:
Hi SweetP & everyone!

Aww *hugs* try not to feel discouraged, it does suck that no-one has contacted you, but they will! If it's taking too long for you and you feel like the matter is of some urgency, give them another call. At the worst they'll say it will take some more time.. But hang in there, I'm very proud of you for your huge effort, you're an inspiration to me and no doubt some others! Takes a lot to even call one of those places let alone follow it thru <3
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Thanks hun! I actually got a call from the service yesterday, and I'll be seeing a counsellor on Tuesday morning! They must have read my referral and bumped me ahead on the waiting list, cos it usually takes 3-4 weeks to be allocated a counsellor. It's perfect timing. Right now I'm desperate to start getting treatment... I hate this drug and the whole lifestyle surrounding it.
 
i just offered my really good friend some shit
shes been talking about it alot latly and how she wanted to have one
more "sesh" shes been clean for close to two years i believe. she never thought
in a million years id offer her any she knows i dont normally do it.
but i had the oppurtunity and liked it alot before so figured why not grab some...

did i fuck up? im kinda worried im making a bad decision
 
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