^^ Every small period you spend off it is a step in your recovery though.
Don't think they're a waste just because you get back on again - I still believe every effort you make to quit/cut down is a step forward.
How many times have I quit - probably over 30 times! Probably more actually... Sometimes I don't know why I keep bothering to even quit, wouldn't it be better if I just let loose and didn't have to have the added stress of thinking I was doing something wrong! But I've always been fucking stubborn and a slow learner and I'm starting to realise that maybe I just do need this harsh lesson shoved in my face hundreds of times before I finally start to get the point and start to get better. Today, I haven't used for over 3 weeks, and I
know I wouldn't be at this point if it wasn't for all those attempts I've made previously. Even so, I'm going to get high again, I know that.
Anyway, what I'm trying to say (not very well) is that your situation is not hopeless! I really believe that even the smallest steps you make are taking you in the right direction, even if it doesn't seem so. Even the times when you feel the worst may be an essential part of your recovery...
Good luck Mia