Serious Question about Suboxone and Amphetamines- anyone in recovery please
Sorry if the headline doesn't sound super warm, I tried the ADD forum with my issue but no one has any clue about suboxone (they can go on for days about stimulants tho). I am a recovering Oxy -> Herion + Cocaine addict. Sounds weird to say it cause it's been almost 2 years. This website actually makes me a little uncomfortable, but for what it's worth I'm really hoping someone may have some helpful insight. I started taking vyvanse about 6 months ago when my ADD symptoms were becoming more and more intrusive on my everyday life. I've always struggled with lethargy, depression, and general malaise, in addition to moderate cognitive deficits. For all the really great effects of vyvanse, my side effects are getting worse. I'm really depressed. I'm getting less motivated and more aggitated. I have no tolerance for frustration, and am sad, lonely, and monotone. I feel like my personality sucks. In addition to the ADD meds, I've been on suboxone for my entire time in sobriety. (I am in AA and therapy and very comfortable with maintaining sober living) - anyway, I was down to 4mg subox before the vyvanse, and without noticing it I'm back up to 6-7 mg/day over the past 4 months or so. I don't like to take more than 1.5 or 2 mg subox at a time cause it can make me a little woozy/dizzy with the stimulants, but I do take it when my anxiety peaks from those meds because that timeline makes more sense. I'm to the point where I am struggling with daily life. I'm depressed regardless of the meds cause of my life situation (new job, new home [alone], very few friends, no relationship, high stress, lonely, sad) but I don't know what to do. Does ANYONE have any experience with both these meds? Don't call it speedballing, I shot herion and cocaine everyday for a long time, and it upsets me when people say that. (Don't get me wrong, people cause abuse any drug in any way, but this isn't me) - I don't know why i spent my entire saturday sitting on my couch doing nothing at all when I have a page long list of things to do. I'm tired all the time. I just need someone who can give me something, any experiences or anything that might help. I really appreciate it.
Thanks
Sorry if the headline doesn't sound super warm, I tried the ADD forum with my issue but no one has any clue about suboxone (they can go on for days about stimulants tho). I am a recovering Oxy -> Herion + Cocaine addict. Sounds weird to say it cause it's been almost 2 years. This website actually makes me a little uncomfortable, but for what it's worth I'm really hoping someone may have some helpful insight. I started taking vyvanse about 6 months ago when my ADD symptoms were becoming more and more intrusive on my everyday life. I've always struggled with lethargy, depression, and general malaise, in addition to moderate cognitive deficits. For all the really great effects of vyvanse, my side effects are getting worse. I'm really depressed. I'm getting less motivated and more aggitated. I have no tolerance for frustration, and am sad, lonely, and monotone. I feel like my personality sucks. In addition to the ADD meds, I've been on suboxone for my entire time in sobriety. (I am in AA and therapy and very comfortable with maintaining sober living) - anyway, I was down to 4mg subox before the vyvanse, and without noticing it I'm back up to 6-7 mg/day over the past 4 months or so. I don't like to take more than 1.5 or 2 mg subox at a time cause it can make me a little woozy/dizzy with the stimulants, but I do take it when my anxiety peaks from those meds because that timeline makes more sense. I'm to the point where I am struggling with daily life. I'm depressed regardless of the meds cause of my life situation (new job, new home [alone], very few friends, no relationship, high stress, lonely, sad) but I don't know what to do. Does ANYONE have any experience with both these meds? Don't call it speedballing, I shot herion and cocaine everyday for a long time, and it upsets me when people say that. (Don't get me wrong, people cause abuse any drug in any way, but this isn't me) - I don't know why i spent my entire saturday sitting on my couch doing nothing at all when I have a page long list of things to do. I'm tired all the time. I just need someone who can give me something, any experiences or anything that might help. I really appreciate it.
Thanks