Heroin/Opioid MEGA-Thread: Junkies check-in here!

[eon_blue]

my friends have been injecting white powder with a slight tan tent, but they have not been filtering it.
How bad is this? what should i stay to convince them to atleast use cotton?

Print out a well-written, descriptive and maybe even illustrative definition of endocarditis and leave it with them the next time you guys are together.

Maybe include related mortality stats as well.

 

[sixpartseven]

So I think I've just traded opiate addiction for alcohol addiction. I wish the people around me, mainly my father, would realize that Suboxone would be cheaper and safer for me to be taking every day as opposed to alcohol. But, that won't happen until he knows what it's like, and that is NEVER going to happen, so I'm screwed.

 

[drug_wench]

^wat makes u necessarily screwed? how much does suboxone cost where u r? u cud always find a way (im talking legal here, dont worry.....) to make a bit of money urself for it cudnt u?
im paying for my own sub treatment - its expensive on top of feeding a large dog and keeping a horse, but somehow i manage to scrape by.....staying on suboxones so important cos i dont want to end up back on junk and if its making u turn to alcohol (in the end probly a worse addiction in some ways in the long run than opiates) it sounds like its pretty important u stay on it too!
if ur underage and need ur parents to pay for it maybe u shud sit them down and hav a gd honest talk with them about how its bn benefitting u and wats happening with the alcohol since u havnt bn on the subs?
if hes ignorant to the negative effects of alcohol as opposed to suboxone im sure u cud print him off plenty of info about both.....

 

[sixpartseven]

I'm screwed because he's the one who payed for my Suboxone. I tried finding a way to pay for it myself, but the economy in Michigan is so fucked, I can't even get a job at fuckin McDonald's. I'm actually planning on going to the army in a couple months (maybe) just because there are no other options.

I'm not underage (22), but yeah, I still need him to pay for it, and despite me going over all the facts with him, he's still convinced I'm better off drinking every day.

 

[drug_wench]

the army might b a gd idea - as long as u cant get up to any mischief with opiates/alcohol there....
so im curious - if he was paying for the suboxone, why did he stop paying for it?
like i say, try printing off the negative facts about alcohol and the effects of suboxone - u can only try
gd luck eh

 

[xxkcxx]

I'm screwed because he's the one who payed for my Suboxone. I tried finding a way to pay for it myself, but the economy in Michigan is so fucked, I can't even get a job at fuckin McDonald's. I'm actually planning on going to the army in a couple months (maybe) just because there are no other options.

I'm not underage (22), but yeah, I still need him to pay for it, and despite me going over all the facts with him, he's still convinced I'm better off drinking every day.

That's terrible. My parents don't get it either, and I can tell they are kind of suspicious about it being just like using dope, but since I pay for it on my own, they can't do much.

 

[sixpartseven]

the army might b a gd idea - as long as u cant get up to any mischief with opiates/alcohol there....
so im curious - if he was paying for the suboxone, why did he stop paying for it?
like i say, try printing off the negative facts about alcohol and the effects of suboxone - u can only try
gd luck eh

He stopped paying because he felt 1.5 years was too long to be on it. I'm thinking the army is my best option right now, I just don't know if I'm ready to commit to that.

 

[firesilverlullaby]

I injected heroin for the first time a few days ago, i snorted half a bag then my friends decided to inject. So i had my friend shoot half a bag and a i felt a little rush. Did another bag and a half the rest of the night. Heroin is amazing though, it makes you so care free and open alot more than other opiates. Me and a girl ive been seeing just laid in my bed for hours talking and a few other things, so relaxing.

I did it again the next and decided to inject 1.5 bags at once, but the person who shot me up went through the vein and missed. It was little sore the next day but its almost completely normal so hopefully no harm done. I might iv one time to get a good rush but then im gonna stop. Friends are just a bad influence on me sometimes.

 

[junctionalfunkie]

sixpartseven, if you're not ready to commit to a life off of Suboxone, I definitely wouldn't join the army anytime soon. Desperate as the military is for recruits these days, I doubt they'd let you be on it as a soldier.

 

[Carl Landrover]

sixpartseven, if you're not ready to commit to a life off of Suboxone, I definitely wouldn't join the army anytime soon. Desperate as the military is for recruits these days, I doubt they'd let you be on it as a soldier.

Actually, according to this Time magazine that's ironically sitting in front of me, all military branches have met or surpassed their enlistment goals in recent months due to the instability of the economy. From September '07 to September '08, they surpassed their overall enlistment goal by adding 184,821 new active members.



I'm alright.

Used dope 2 nights last week, last time being this past Friday (well technically Saturday). In a little more than 2 hours it'll have been 84 hours since I last took in any H.

Still got a little bit of a cough, but my chest is feeling pretty clear. Wasn't wheezing horribly while running yesterday.

Been taking suboxone since Saturday, low doses just so I'm not feeling crappy. Was/am kind of up and down, but am becoming more stable.

Starting to look alright again, eyes don't look so dull, got my full-on appetite back. Mainly just stressing over how much $$$ I spent the last few months and how many cool things I could have done if I had saved it. Kind of eager to get more time away so I can save up more money and to have less intense cravings.

 

[formanchristopher]

Suboxone is a wonder drug for many people. Myself included. Being totally substance free is an admirable goal but don't hurry things. Quitting sub can be a real bitch in itself, not just physically, but emotionally, for quite a while afterwards ... my reccomendation would be to wait until you are in a place in your relationship with your drugs and your place in the big, wide world ..

Suboxone is DEFINETLY the perfest drug for me, too! On and off the opiate merry-go-round
for too many years, then on methadone, which I'd still do if I hadn't found Sub. Then like the
other person above-on to booze, and I've always included pills as a chaser or on the side.
Today, due to Suboxone, my quality of life is 100% better than ever! Btw, finding out that the
Naltrexone(?) in the Soboxone is actually helping me to not have many cravings for alcohol anymore. Anyone else??

 

[midnight_toker08]

Suboxone is a miracle drug. Even though I self-maintenance, with a little knowledge, I have been very effective at controlling my addiction. Plus a little bit of marijuana maintenance too

I'm on day 4, 96 hours since my last use

Feeling better today, the shakes are subsiding and I'm feeling more stable. I've also been taking a low-low dose of suboxone just to be able to go to my classes and get some things done. I've taken 1mg since sunday and I just took my last bit today.

I never would have thought such a low dose of suboxone would do any good. But it pretty much kills most of the withdrawals. I still have cravings though

Which leads me back to my original statement, suboxone is a miracle drug

 

[QuasiStoned]

So I think I've just traded opiate addiction for alcohol addiction. I wish the people around me, mainly my father, would realize that Suboxone would be cheaper and safer for me to be taking every day as opposed to alcohol. But, that won't happen until he knows what it's like, and that is NEVER going to happen, so I'm screwed.

What dosage of suboxone were you on when you're dad stopped paying for it? I know how hellish it is trying to adapt to life without opiates (and I'm sure it's that much harder for someone who was addicted to heroin, I had a pathetic pod tea habit in comparison) but the thing to do seems to be getting out and walking around as much as we can.

Alcohol will only make things worse in the long run if you replace one with another. Having a few drinks every now and then is probably fine (and maybe even helpful in getting your mind off it) but daily drinking catches up to everyone. Good luck man, we've gotta believe that things will get better with time.

Anyway, I've been abusing pods for about 7 months with only one real break in there (and it was only for a week). The disgustingness of guzzling tea kept my habit from growing to out of control, but recent events in my life (like getting fired from my job of 5 years) have convinced me to stop ordering opium poppies. I also have been a daily smoker of cannabis for a few years and have decided to quit that now too. I don't think I'll ever get a job if I can't pass a drug test, everywhere you go it seems they want you to piss in a fucking cup!

 

[mr light]

i'm at day 7 clean. on day 0 i had 3 weeks clean but was overwhelmed due to relationshit bs and just gave in to a 1-night stand with 3 bags of H. I got quite sick, even though i used to do 10 of those. the guilt and shitty feelings from it lingered from the high to a few days later. i am very glad i did this however. now when i get a craving i think of how lousy it was to relapse. its so weird to think that i've only done opiates once this whole month. after years of heavy use. it can be done. i was on h and did a 3-day sub detox on my own, like 2mg then 1mg then another mg.

i still don't feel right but there are other situations bothering me like loneliness and boredom, lack of concentration. hopefully due to the detox and it will clear up soon but then again, my normal self before use obviously wasn't too complete.

the detox was a nasty long process. took about 15 days for most physical things to be relatively normal. sensitivity to cold kind of remains but it has been cold out. the crying and crushing depression kind of eased away around this time too. the worst was probably days 3-8. after that it was some days manageable and some days downright lousy and overwhelming.

i'm so glad i did it. i kicked tobacco at the same time, and was clean from it for 2 weeks but have used it off and on since. i had 3 days clean from it today but gave in due to academic stress and bought a can.

 

[midnight_toker08]

100+ hours under my belt
Tomorrow about the time I get up it will be 120 hours. Makes me feel good that I know I wont be using before then.

The shakes pretty much stopped this morning, but waves of it has hit me for about an hour or so twice since. I feel better

Tomorrow will be my first day of no suboxone. I have just had 1mg everyday since Sunday so I don't think that will be that big of deal.

 

[Carl Landrover]

How's it going Midnight?


I had terrible cravings today! It doesn't help that my drive to school is essentially the same way that me and dopeboy used to go, except I get off exit 60, whereas me and dopeboy would drive down to exit 59 to pickup. Actually where I park for school is about a block away from where we parked when we got anything.

He texted me last night, apologized (he had been a dick last Friday when we (I) last got anything) said he was done for good or at least for a while. I think that was what really triggered the cravings...the thought that now I CAN'T get anything. It was like "I can't get this? Now I MUST have it!"


Didn't get anything though. Still taking subs, trying for a lower dose everyday. Didn't do that today and ended up snorting it, mainly cause I just felt like railing something. Better than heroin I suppose. I think I like sublingual use better...it's been making me feel real good lately....I'm tempted to try and use it for the semester because the focus and energy I get is amazing! %) On the other hand, I really don't want to be dependent on it and I'm not prescribed it anymore, so my supply is limited. I just don't know when I'd get a few days to feel apathetic, unmotivated, and unfocused.

Good things though:

-My bank account is going up

-My lungs are clearing up, running more again

-I can breathe through my nose and smell things!

-More time since I'm not picking up dope boy and driving to the city

-I've got a better, healthier appetite and my weight is a little more back to normal

-I'm not as pale

-My eyes aren't as dull...them's sparkle! :D (sometimes)

-My lips aren't as chapped/don't get chapped as easily

-Don't have to feel guilty about using

-Don't have to worry about someone finding out I'm using

-Don't have to worry about getting arrested!


Wow, 11 things just off the top of my head. I'm sure I'm forgetting some too!

 

[xxkcxx]

^ You have a lot to be thankful for!

I know you said your sub supply is limited, but what I used to do was (despite actually being on the maint. plan) just take the sub when I had a really bad craving cause I think it worked better that way at relieving them. Also, I wasn't craving everyday, so days I was fine I thought it was a waste.


So the lady I nanny for (and is my mom's best friend/knows about my issues) hasn't come out and said it, but is basically implying that I stole her Provigil pills. She can't find them and she keeps talking about how she's scared the kids or dog got to them. Well, if they did, I think someone would have noticed and two, wouldn't we see the empty packs somewhere?

Provigil isn't even recreational and if it was, it is an upper. I HATE uppers. I don't even like coke, so why I do a pill that is a stimulant but has no euphoria involved with it?

Luckily my mom is on my side and just wants this lady to stay out of it.

She also told my mom (5 days later) that when I watched the kids and got money for pizza from my mom, she looked for a pizza box in the trash and didn't find one---SHE IS LOOKING THROUGH HER TRASH to catch me in a lie!

 

[Binge Artist]

I'm actually planning on going to the army in a couple months (maybe) just because there are no other options.

BIG MISTAKE!

If you're gonna join the military, go Air Force or Navy. Funny story, about 6 years ago, I decided to escape all my problems and join the Marines. Lo and behold, I got stationed in Washington DC, litteraly a block away from the Arthur Capper Homes (and yes, they sell heroin there). Needless to say, I wasn't a Marine for very long, and had to spend a couple months in the Brig. But I'd like to reiterate the point that you can't exactly escape life by joining the military. The military is largely a group of over-testosteronized young men with insatiable appetites for vice. And you'll soon find that the locals cater to this fact.

 

[MCMG]

Whats so fucked up about my use, whats so fucked up about it is that I'm not the stereotypical junkie, I'm the fucking gentleman junkie, the fucking hero, the lover, the brother, the best friend, the great boyfriend. It drives me fucking nuts sometimes. I'm this wonderful person, people love me, people respect me, but for some reason I don't love myself, and there's something inside of me, something I cant grasp, that I just need to numb with dope.

Well there must be something deep down that bothers you about yourself, or maybe something that happened to you. If you can think of it, just PM me and I could help you(if you want) because I hardly check the same thread twice, but just think hard I mean did something happen to you when you were younger? Do you have a tough family life? Do you not get along with your friends? There are so many things it could be, just be ez man it gets better.

 

[QuasiStoned]

Ugh... I feel pretty shitty and listless.

Lost my job a couple weeks ago, now I'm trying so hard to quit smoking weed and using pods. Havent gotten high since last week sometime, but I snorted a little suboxone on Tuesday to try to ease myself into this. Each day just got worse, I think that the suboxone is wearing off now.

I just feel so listless and unmotivated. I had some chills yesterday and last night and they seem to have resolved somewhat, but I still can't seem to get off my ass and try to find a job. It's been 4 days since I smoked weed now too because I want to be able to pass any drug tests I come across. Ah well, hopefully each day will get better. I've been pretty depressed.