Said fuck it, swallowed 57 1mg xanax

[Stoic Nihilism]

Apparently my g/f found me fallen over in my chair face first on the floor.. I really don't remember the two days following this but my g/f said she got me to stand up at one point then I fell busting my head on a table which I have a scar to prove now... said I was doing what she called the 'death snore' cause I was snoring while conscious or something appearing as conscious...

Can't believe I survived the shit... wasn't really trying to go out like that but kind of pissed & confused how I didn't.

 

[Massive_]

Thats roughly what, 28 bars.

Certainly survivable, but definitely not wise.

I'd suggest refraining from doing the same in the future.

 

[Stoic Nihilism]

Yeah, I got a therapist who I'm sure is going to give me hell about it come monday..

 

[Libby]

*hugs and kjisses*

 

[n3ophy7e]

First of all, I'm so glad you made it through okay.
Secondly, regardless of whether or not your therapist gives you shit about it, please work with them to ensure you don't feel the need to do that again
*hugs*

 

[Coolio]

It is almost impossible to die from Xanax alone. You could have eaten 570 pills and you might be in a coma for a bit but you're almost gauranteed to wake up if you don't mix it with other respiratory depressant drugs.

 

[LiLc]

Yeah, I got a therapist who I'm sure is going to give me hell about it come monday..

Therapists are full of shit, i'm not telling you to go see a Physciatrist, but they're way better than Therapists, Well i'm glad you survived bro, good luck

 

[Stoic Nihilism]

I agree, I need a psychiatrist but I'm about to move soon & won't have insurance... getting off all my meds too so I can stop swallowing 9 pills every morning... I'm so sick of this shit... I'm pissed I didn't die... haha, oh'well I'll overdose on O.C. later after my dad dies, can't do that shit to him... haha

 

[tobala]

Sorry Mr. Nihilism, but I currently hold the BL record for outrageous Xanax ingestion (750 mg over 2.5 days). Kiddies don't try this at home...

 

[Stoic Nihilism]

damn... lol

 

[laurengotdatfire]

I once snorted 23 bars in one night and ALLEGEDLY did a shitload of coke, a few rolls, and smoked a lot of weed, then repeated the process two more days in a row. Don't remember anything after bar 4 though.

 

[wakeborder556]

Thank god benzos replaced barbiturates.

 

[Mariposa]

Wow... I've never taken more than 3-4 mg at once... and that knocked me out.

I hope that whatever is going on in your life that got you to that point alleviates soon. If your therapist gives you a hard time, get at the issues that made the idea of taking that much Xanax in the first place. Was it any one thing in particular, or was it an overall feeling of despondency/worthlessness/pain?

My experience with mental health professionals differs from lilc's in that psychiatrists (with one standout exception) just met with me for 15 minutes a month to write me my scripts and ask me if I had thought of harming myself or others. The therapist I most recently saw, and will be returning to, questioned me in a nonjudgmental manner and taught me some coping skills to deal with depressed or anxious thoughts, which I've used with varying degrees of success. I know I will be more successful if I try harder.

I urge you not to try to take your own life again with OC in the future. It is possible to recover from just about anything; humans are resilient like that. We have a natural drive to want to live. Some of us, though, respond to stress, anger, fear and other negative emotions by turning hostility inward, which of course is not adaptive.

I see this is one of your first posts on Bluelight and in TDS... welcome, you've come to the right place. There are loads of people in our community who have been through similar situations and have a true desire to help even complete strangers. It's a special place, and I hope you stick around to help and be helped.

In answer to your original question - yes, it is harder to kill yourself with high doses of benzodiazepines than you might realize. Thankfully so. Please report back with how you are doing. I imagine you're very tired and feeling a little bit of "survivor's guilt" right now.

Tobala - OMG How long were you asleep?!

 

[Fjones]

Sorry Mr. Nihilism, but I currently hold the BL record for outrageous Xanax ingestion (750 mg over 2.5 days). Kiddies don't try this at home...

I can't tell if you are being serious. How did you survive this? (If you were being serious)

 

[burn out]

I can't tell if you are being serious. How did you survive this? (If you were being serious)

because benzos usually don't stop your breathing or your heart or anything vital by themselves. of course when you take ridiculous amounts you could die, everything will kill you at a certain dose, but it's not really surprising that some people survive it.

 

[Coolio]

The acute LD50 of alprazolam in rats is 331 to 2171 mg/kg. Other animal experiments have shown that direct intravenous introduction of doses over 195 mg/kg (approximately 975 times the maximum human dosage of 10mg per day) may cause cardiopulmonary collapse.

You're gonna have to swallow more like 5000 Xanax to really be trying to kill yourself with it. Grams and grams of pure alprazolam.

 

[tobala]

Mr. Coolio is absolutely right. The 750 mg bender actually happened--I had a gram of powder; apparently I took 7-10 mg, blacked out, and kept ingesting it throughout a long weekend. The therapeutic index of this stuff (taken alone and not in combination with other CNS depressants) is ridiculously high.

 

[Fjones]

Very interesting. I did not know this. I figured swalling 100 pills of a benzo wuold do some serious damage.

 

[tobala]

The danger lies in the absolutely bizarre behavior that results from this type of overdosage--things like falling down stairs, trying to drive a car, etc. Suffice to say, after I was informed of all the shenanigans I was involved in, I have a proper respect for this class of drug and now stick to the prescribed dosage of 2 mg to get to sleep twice a week... :D

 

[Stoic Nihilism]

Wow... I've never taken more than 3-4 mg at once... and that knocked me out.

I hope that whatever is going on in your life that got you to that point alleviates soon. If your therapist gives you a hard time, get at the issues that made the idea of taking that much Xanax in the first place. Was it any one thing in particular, or was it an overall feeling of despondency/worthlessness/pain?

My experience with mental health professionals differs from lilc's in that psychiatrists (with one standout exception) just met with me for 15 minutes a month to write me my scripts and ask me if I had thought of harming myself or others. The therapist I most recently saw, and will be returning to, questioned me in a nonjudgmental manner and taught me some coping skills to deal with depressed or anxious thoughts, which I've used with varying degrees of success. I know I will be more successful if I try harder.

I urge you not to try to take your own life again with OC in the future. It is possible to recover from just about anything; humans are resilient like that. We have a natural drive to want to live. Some of us, though, respond to stress, anger, fear and other negative emotions by turning hostility inward, which of course is not adaptive.

I see this is one of your first posts on Bluelight and in TDS... welcome, you've come to the right place. There are loads of people in our community who have been through similar situations and have a true desire to help even complete strangers. It's a special place, and I hope you stick around to help and be helped.

In answer to your original question - yes, it is harder to kill yourself with high doses of benzodiazepines than you might realize. Thankfully so. Please report back with how you are doing. I imagine you're very tired and feeling a little bit of "survivor's guilt" right now.

Tobala - OMG How long were you asleep?!

Thanks for the reply, I just got back from my Therapist who basically told me I need to get off the bipolar meds because I'm not bipolar I just have an anxiety disorder & they've been over medicating me making me worse, go figure, the problem lies in the fact that I get too nervous & anxious when talking to my docters & have been letting them prescribe me anything they think might work.