Cocaine doing coke alone

[jessepinkman779]

Misery loves company springs to mind

'Codependency' too. Also 'toxic relationship'?

Yeah, that makes a lot of sense. Thank you. Very good points.

 

[Passable_rock]

So, I'll have a few lines just before I go for the scan too. I know that's insane, but it's the only way I can cope with the worry and stress and have the confidence to go for tests.

No that doesn't sound insane to me, you are a human with a heavy drug addiction. I'd say it's normal, logical even, akin to putting on your favourites tunes to motivate you to do the dishes. Have some compassion for yourself

 

[lost weekend]

No that doesn't sound insane to me, you are a human with a heavy drug addiction. I'd say it's normal, logical even, akin to putting on your favourites tunes to motivate you to do the dishes. Have some compassion for yourself

There maybe better drugs to deal with immediate stressful situations ,I find benzos help massively dosnt matter the flavour especially when your mind has become overstretched
Cocaine just dosnt last long enough to bring me any real confidence, great for 15 ,20 mins

 

[lost weekend]

Man, it sounds like your dealer has some toxic hold on you. I've faced the same situation myself. I'd try to keep a bit of distance, in the most safe way possible.

Glad you're getting that lump checked out, it might turn out to be nothing to worry about. It's possible you're overplaying this because of what happened to your friend (rip). If this turns out to be benign, it will definitely lift some stress off of you, making it easier to keep your conso under control.

Best of luck

Coke dealers are human to , I don't know many but everyone of them has a habit
They are forever chasing lay on's and it's not like the movies where some burly looking bloke or woman turn up at your door
Anyone who always has the cash or never needs chased wil always be first on the list for any good deals or to get a bigger bit just cos they have money to front or they are good for it
No different from any other business

 

[IronBaphomet]

Coke dealers are human to , I don't know many but everyone of them has a habit
They are forever chasing lay on's and it's not like the movies where some burly looking bloke or woman turn up at your door
Anyone who always has the cash or never needs chased wil always be first on the list for any good deals or to get a bigger bit just cos they have money to front or they are good for it
No different from any other business

Habit as dipping in their own stash or just general habit?

Mine barely did of his own stuff but dipped like once a month in it. I think when he did it would be a fair amount like 200$. Not much vs what I think it he did but he wasn't a big prolific guy by any means. Yeah of course they aren't all Tony montana's.

And sure sometimes it feels like their actually giving you a nice service. At other times it also can feel a bit like exploitation. Kind of a 50/50 thing imo.

 

[lost weekend]

Habit as dipping in their own stash or just general habit?

Mine barely did of his own stuff but dipped like once a month in it. I think when he did it would be a fair amount like 200$. Not much vs what I think it he did but he wasn't a big prolific guy by any means. Yeah of course they aren't all Tony montana's.

And sure sometimes it feels like their actually giving you a nice service. At other times it also can feel a bit like exploitation. Kind of a 50/50 thing imo.

I can only speak for low level dealers ,the ones you text for a g or an 8 at any time of day and every single one uses daily, i would imagine the people they get it off use it a few times a month but they don't have to chase debts and only have dealings with a handfull of people

 

[lost weekend]

Sorry not dipping into own stash but not having to pay for theres s and still making money

 

[lost weekend]

I can only speak for low level dealers ,the ones you text for a g or an 8 at any time of day and every single one uses daily, i would imagine the people they get it off use it a few times a month but they don't have to chase debts and only have dealings with a handfull of people

I was told it was an exception that dealer was able to get it laid on by whoever they use
But can't say or don't know if that's the case everywhere

 

[lost weekend]

I'm certain it can't be if dealing with large amounts

 

[IronBaphomet]

I wrote a kinda long answer to this regarding codependency and stuff but I'm hesitating to post as I'm not sure it would be really helpful here. I could pm it to you lost weekend if you really wanna know.

I feel I have to disconnect a bit from this thread as I think it might be reinforcing my own cravings at times. I'll still be watching though.

I might drop back in sometimes later if I ever happen to slip up. Thankfully my guy isn't even able to afford stuff rn so that saves me for a while.

See y'all in the other subforums

 

[psychedylic]

Hello, I'm still using, in fact my usage has gone up again. However, I just feel like the last person at the party at the moment. I've done a baller today. I'm just miserable without coke.

How are you?

Hey man! Strange timing, i just made my account. Im good, definitely intrigued by the experience im having and wanted to see if anyone else has had similar things happen. But regardless, how are you?

 

[lost weekend]

I wrote a kinda long answer to this regarding codependency and stuff but I'm hesitating to post as I'm not sure it would be really helpful here. I could pm it to you lost weekend if you really wanna know.

I feel I have to disconnect a bit from this thread as I think it might be reinforcing my own cravings at times. I'll still be watching though.

I might drop back in sometimes later if I ever happen to slip up. Thankfully my guy isn't even able to afford stuff rn so that saves me for a while.

See y'all in the other subforums

Yeh I think it's unique in that way

 

[Passable_rock]

There maybe better drugs to deal with immediate stressful situations ,I find benzos help massively dosnt matter the flavour especially when your mind has become overstretched
Cocaine just dosnt last long enough to bring me any real confidence, great for 15 ,20 mins

Ah yes there is for sure better drugs for that kind of situation, especially benzos yea. But I feel like one's DOC* is also not a bad idea, if only just to keep withdrawals and cravings away.

* As long as it's not something like K or psychedelics I guess ^^