Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v 12

So turns out I’m not still fully recovered . I drank some more beer and only got a slight buzz but didn’t feel as drunk as I usually do and weed still doesn’t hit the same . Hopefully it’s out of my system in a couple more months
 
Fuck abilify
Thats one true evil drug gave me the worst akathisia I have expiernced next to Haldol. Fuck lol, dont even like thinking about it pacing in circles thinking im gonna die and rocking back in forth in my chair while my mother was laughing at it fuck that bitch.

Worst part of about antipsychotic induced akathisia is when it gets that bad and you feel like your left with no other option. Your not actually wanting to die because life is hard you want the akathisia to end such an awful feeling.
 
I’m losing my mind it’s impossible to exist like this nothing feels good or brings me any positive motion whatsoever everything feels like it has to pass through this giant filter where only dullness and pain can pass through I literally think I’m going crazy it’s been like this for months with no end in sight how the fuck do people not blow their heads off living like this day after day knowing that nothing good is ever going to happen to you ever
 
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