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Cocaine doing coke alone

Doing coke alone as become my happy/Safe place. I know how that sounds, but it feels like I'm taking a step out of the world and all the problems that come with it just for a little while. However, I did share some with a friend the other night and we actually had a good conversation. I was the one who invited him round. He'd been visiting family and at 20:30 hours was on his way home for an early night. Then, I messaged him and told him I'd got some quality coke if he wanted to come round and have a few lines. He was here until 01:00. It did make a nice change if I'm being honest. However, my friend has an amphetamines problem that he'd been doing well to stay away from for a few weeks until he shared some coke with me, went home and ordered Speed. I feel terrible about that. He's been going through a tough time with his ex partner that's why I invited him round, to cheer him up. I'm doing coke alone again tonight.
 
I just feel like the last person at the party
What do you mean by that?

and me, I've been doing good, I think.. ahah. I feel great mentally, and really progressing in areas of my life I wanted to. But I'm on kind of a bender since almost 2 months, been doing speed (meth) orally (and insufflated for the 1st 10 days) for about 69% of days since then, including 2 streaks of ~1 week each of not doing any, so not too bad. But I really need to take a break ahah, but I've been so productive, especially at first, and that's the thing, so I need to rest for a bit :forestwhittaker:
 
What do you mean by that?

and me, I've been doing good, I think.. ahah. I feel great mentally, and really progressing in areas of my life I wanted to. But I'm on kind of a bender since almost 2 months, been doing speed (meth) orally (and insufflated for the 1st 10 days) for about 69% of days since then, including 2 streaks of ~1 week each of not doing any, so not too bad. But I really need to take a break ahah, but I've been so productive, especially at first, and that's the thing, so I need to rest for a bit :forestwhittaker:
Haha. That sounds like a right session.

The last person at the party comment just meant that everyone else my age (47) Seems just have moved on with their lives, but here's me still at the party like I'm 25 years old.

I've been up all night. I've just done half a gram to wake myself up. I'm undecided on whether to sleep most of the day, or order more coke, stay awake all day and try and get to bed tonight. Although I know how that plan will turn out because I just don't know when to stop. The half a gram was a nice suprise though, I thought I'd done all my coke but I'd weighed half a gram up last night, put it in my back pocket, then forgot about it completely. I just happend to put my hand in my back pocket this morning and find it. It was perfect timing too. I tend to weigh bits up and forget about them on a regular basis, but I genuinely had completely forgotten about it this morning.
 
What do you mean by that?

and me, I've been doing good, I think.. ahah. I feel great mentally, and really progressing in areas of my life I wanted to. But I'm on kind of a bender since almost 2 months, been doing speed (meth) orally (and insufflated for the 1st 10 days) for about 69% of days since then, including 2 streaks of ~1 week each of not doing any, so not too bad. But I really need to take a break ahah, but I've been so productive, especially at first, and that's the thing, so I need to rest for a bit :forestwhittaker:
The being extra productive part really does come in useful doesn't it. Are you taking a break now?
 
The last person at the party comment just meant that everyone else my age (47) Seems just have moved on with their lives, but here's me still at the party like I'm 25 years old.
aaah gotcha! Yea like you're out of sync with your age

The half a gram was a nice suprise though, I thought I'd done all my coke but I'd weighed half a gram up last night, put it in my back pocket, then forgot about it completely. I just happend to put my hand in my back pocket this morning and find it. It was perfect timing too
ahah yeah that's the best! Such a great feeling ^^ I used to do something similar with weed when I was a teen :smokeyrobinson:
 
The being extra productive part really does come in useful doesn't it. Are you taking a break now?
Well not today it seems.. My plan was just to take a single day break for now, but then it sucked and changed my mind, I hate being sober :shruggies: But it will come, I'm not worried, it's not my first rodeo :limp: At least I sleep every day, eat and hydrate a decent amount. All a little less than I usually do without speed, altho I should be doing it more. But hey it's much better than what I used to do when I was younger. I sleep at least 6 hours a every day, more than that most nights.
 
Well not today it seems.. My plan was just to take a single day break for now, but then it sucked and changed my mind, I hate being sober :shruggies: But it will come, I'm not worried, it's not my first rodeo :limp: At least I sleep every day, eat and hydrate a decent amount. All a little less than I usually do without speed, altho I should be doing it more. But hey it's much better than what I used to do when I was younger. I sleep at least 6 hours a every day, more than that most nights.
I'm just about to take a sleeping tablet and if I get 6 hours I'll be extremely grateful. I've made sure I've definitely done all my coke tonight. I've only just finished it though so I might hold off on the sleeping tablet and enjoy the high whilst it lasts. I hate being sober too, but when I really get on it I don't sleep or eat for days. Thursday night was the last night I slept and I've not eaten anything since around 7pm Thursday. Just cola with sugar in it to stop my blood sugar dipping.
 
Currently on coke and im getting bored, anything fun to do while it lasts? I usually enjoy ketamine and weed alone but this is def a more social experience and I don’t have anyone to yap with. thanks!
Oh my sweet summer child

Play video games. Snuggle with a cat. Masturbate until you get dehydrated. Watch a Netflix documentary about an obscure subject you have no genuine interest in. Vacuum. Listen to a podcast.

Just some ideas 💡
 
I'm just about to take a sleeping tablet and if I get 6 hours I'll be extremely grateful. I've made sure I've definitely done all my coke tonight. I've only just finished it though so I might hold off on the sleeping tablet and enjoy the high whilst it lasts. I hate being sober too, but when I really get on it I don't sleep or eat for days. Thursday night was the last night I slept and I've not eaten anything since around 7pm Thursday. Just cola with sugar in it to stop my blood sugar dipping.
What kind of sleeping pills? I use trazodone to help me sleep personally. Do you put in great effort to sleep and eat? Like you gotta force yourself, can't wait until you're actually feeling like it to do it, you have put in real effort, at least that's how I manage to do it. and that's with a much longer acting stimulant and orally too. Before my lil bender I was using 4mmc snorted, so I felt it was easy to stay on top of it because of the short duration of effect. Both from the molecule itself and ROA. I feet like eating is a chore even when I'm sober so I get it. Get yourself some juices. Fruit juice is good, but so are other liquids like chocolate oat milk (one of my favs) it's got calories and minerals and shit. While also tasting super good so that motivates you to drink more of it naturally. There's also meal replacement drinks you get get. They are pricier (shouldn't be a problem for you) but they are really made for that, replacing a solid meal, but in tasty liquid form (+ hydrates you at the same time!) Your coke will feel better that way! Even if you don't sleep, and I think drinking is easier:pinnochio:
 
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