Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v 12

I ll be anorexic and ll be dead ı am not gonna suffer another decade.you guys cant ımagine how fucked up ı am.ı cold turkeyed risperdal Serowuel and Lithium ı am so fucked up like ı am ın hell.My Name İs Muhammed bera çakallı and next year ı ll be dead.ı am just waiting my brother university exam.He is so lucky that he has a brother like that.fuck the life fuck god
 
I ll be anorexic and ll be dead ı am not gonna suffer another decade.you guys cant ımagine how fucked up ı am.ı cold turkeyed risperdal Serowuel and Lithium ı am so fucked up like ı am ın hell.My Name İs Muhammed bera çakallı and next year ı ll be dead.ı am just waiting my brother university exam.He is so lucky that he has a brother like that.fuck the life fuck god
I read your message. I'm not going to pretend I know exactly what you're going through. But I can hear how much pain you're in. What you're feeling right now — the hell, the despair — is a withdrawal reaction. Your brain is trying to rebalance after stopping three medications at once. That's brutal, but it's not permanent. Please stay. You're not alone.
Most people in recovery go through thoughts like this. I have them too. But maybe it's not our true state — maybe it's just a human desire to get our health back. Neuroplasticity is real in most cases. Right now I'm also holding on with all my strength for my adoptive mom and my friends
 
people who said there's no damage to the brain in regular MRI really simplify things, there's different version of MRI 5t and 7t who can see into very advance level into the brain, i think might be able to spot damage's more in the front lobe.
 
people who said there's no damage to the brain in regular MRI really simplify things, there's different version of MRI 5t and 7t who can see into very advance level into the brain, i think might be able to spot damage's more in the front lobe.
In my case we don’t have a pre-injections MRI to compare with the one i did 1 year after the injections, and this sucks honestly.

But as far as i know, what I have is not a loss in volume of the brain because i did only 2 injection, it’s more likely a functional damage (receptors) and not a structural damage (volume los) and the MRI can’t look into receptors.

Maybe a FMRI can show low brain activity in these area targeted by the injections, maybe a QEEG can show low activity, at least, this is what AI and other people told me..
 
Day 72 off the injections and I’m so fucking bored man, like I could die of boredom, I’m blessed to not be suicidal yet until a few more months have passed but all I do is just rot and stay inside and play video games which I don’t even enjoy, all I do is eat and put on more weight when I should be losing it since coming off, I had a joint yesterday with just hash and tobacco and just felt woozy but no dopamine or enjoyment, I just hope by day 90 I feel something or before my birthday at least, how you all doing?
 
Day 72 off the injections and I’m so fucking bored man, like I could die of boredom, I’m blessed to not be suicidal yet until a few more months have passed but all I do is just rot and stay inside and play video games which I don’t even enjoy, all I do is eat and put on more weight when I should be losing it since coming off, I had a joint yesterday with just hash and tobacco and just felt woozy but no dopamine or enjoyment, I just hope by day 90 I feel something or before my birthday at least, how you all doing?
I’m still struggling too. I’m scared because I do have suicidal thoughts sometimes, and the boredom and lack of enjoyment can make everything feel even heavier.
I’ve been trying to keep myself occupied, though. I recently started learning a little programming, just to give my brain something to focus on, and I read sometimes when I can concentrate. It’s not easy to enjoy anything right now, but I’m trying to keep going and find small things to do.
I really hope things start changing for you by day 90, or even sooner🫂 I know how desperately you want to feel something again
 
I’m still struggling too. I’m scared because I do have suicidal thoughts sometimes, and the boredom and lack of enjoyment can make everything feel even heavier.
I’ve been trying to keep myself occupied, though. I recently started learning a little programming, just to give my brain something to focus on, and I read sometimes when I can concentrate. It’s not easy to enjoy anything right now, but I’m trying to keep going and find small things to do.
I really hope things start changing for you by day 90, or even sooner🫂 I know how desperately you want to feel something again
Hey inner, really appreciate the reply, we both just have to try and stay strong for as long as possible and hope that’s enough really, the boredom and repetitive days really add up and get to me as well you it seems, that’s super cool about programming, good to have a trade this day and age, I’m trying to get into day trading at the moment to make some money as I used to be a chef but not any more, I am moving to my own flat soon which I’m decorating so that’s something which will be ready by the time I recover hopefully, really hope things change for you as well inner and you feel something sooner than later, don’t let the bad days win 🤞🏽😊
 
Hey inner, really appreciate the reply, we both just have to try and stay strong for as long as possible and hope that’s enough really, the boredom and repetitive days really add up and get to me as well you it seems, that’s super cool about programming, good to have a trade this day and age, I’m trying to get into day trading at the moment to make some money as I used to be a chef but not any more, I am moving to my own flat soon which I’m decorating so that’s something which will be ready by the time I recover hopefully, really hope things change for you as well inner and you feel something sooner than later, don’t let the bad days win 🤞🏽😊
trading is a good thing to do while being on INVEGA. it's very low g power doesn't require focus like most ways to make money. i also started reading on invega.

13 months and 7 days, the anhedonia is starting to go down a bit, i don't feel like I'm burning in hell nowadays. manage to get out of the bed a few hour's most days. still hard though.
 
Hey inner, really appreciate the reply, we both just have to try and stay strong for as long as possible and hope that’s enough really, the boredom and repetitive days really add up and get to me as well you it seems, that’s super cool about programming, good to have a trade this day and age, I’m trying to get into day trading at the moment to make some money as I used to be a chef but not any more, I am moving to my own flat soon which I’m decorating so that’s something which will be ready by the time I recover hopefully, really hope things change for you as well inner and you feel something sooner than later, don’t let the bad days win 🤞🏽😊
Thank you, that really means a lot❤️ And yeah, I think we both just have to keep going and try not to let the bad days win.
That’s really cool about your own flat. Having something to decorate and look forward to while you recover sounds like a good thing to keep your mind occupied. I actually moved into a new place myself this year, so I can relate to that feeling. I might start renovating it in 2027, so that’s another thing I can look forward to😄 I hope you’ll have everything finished and feel much better by the time you move in.
Programming is still very new to me, so I’m just taking it slowly and trying to learn the basics. I actually have a degree in finance, but I burned out on that field while I was still studying at college. I think working in finance would probably feel pretty boring to me now, because I lost interest in it back then. That’s why I’m exploring completely different areas now. I’m also interested in cybersecurity and cryptography, although I know those fields require a lot more studying.
And I hope the day trading works out for you too. Just be careful with it, especially while you’re recovering. Hopefully you’ll start feeling some enjoyment again soon. Don’t let the bad days win either❤️
 
Day 72 off the injections and I’m so fucking bored man, like I could die of boredom, I’m blessed to not be suicidal yet until a few more months have passed but all I do is just rot and stay inside and play video games which I don’t even enjoy, all I do is eat and put on more weight when I should be losing it since coming off, I had a joint yesterday with just hash and tobacco and just felt woozy but no dopamine or enjoyment, I just hope by day 90 I feel something or before my birthday at least, how you all doing?
Day 149 off the injection . Feel better . Still struggling with attention span . I get bored easily but it’s because I’ve been vaping 5% nicotine all day. I can feel nicotine again but I quit it to allow my dopamine receptors to come back to life . My libido has improved . I do get joy from watching tv music movies and video games but my attention span is cooked for anything besides listening to music , but I want to get high off weed because I’m still bored . Don’t know if it’s the injection or just me . Weed high is still blunted I don’t get the full dopamine of being high .
 
anyone had luck with those dopamine agonist that recover chemicals in brain - needing to know because any improvements indicate when doctor prescribe mine - my blocked nose will go
 
anyone had luck with those dopamine agonist that recover chemicals in brain - needing to know because any improvements indicate when doctor prescribe mine - my blocked nose will go
You should get them because some people who take them on this site says it helps them
 
I couldn't fall asleep because of intrusive suicidal thoughts. It's early morning here, and I'm feeling extremely vulnerable and exhausted. I'm still fighting, but honestly, I'm struggling right now. I don't want to pretend that I'm okay when I'm not. It feels like everything I do has no meaning 😣
P.S. It's strange — just a few hours ago I was sure I was getting better and that I could handle it, and now I'm thinking about death again...
 
Dear LL: "You found the Light in me I couldn't find! So when I'm all choked up, but I can't find the words, every time we say goodbye Baby, it hurts... Lovers in the night, poets tryna write, we don't know how to rhyme, but damn we try! But all I really know, you're where I wanna go, the part of me that's you will never die!" ~ A Star is Born ~ Written by 4 women. Bravo!
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Wake up with the strongest panic attack of my whole life, had 180 heart rate, i was feeling very unwell and called the ambulance, took me 2-3 hours to stabilize once I get at the hospital, then they told me that I had two options:

1: Going back to my home
2: Ask for a psych ward stay

I’am back to my home, it’s strange because i took 50mg pregabalin before sleep yesterday and 5mg valium this morning at 7:40AM, but at 8:00AM it happened what I explained above..

Guess I’am cooked and fucked pretty bad, NIDS sympthoms are fuel for panic attacks, both combined are no joke.
 
Wake up with the strongest panic attack of my whole life, had 180 heart rate, i was feeling very unwell and called the ambulance, took me 2-3 hours to stabilize once I get at the hospital, then they told me that I had two options:

1: Going back to my home
2: Ask for a psych ward stay

I’am back to my home, it’s strange because i took 50mg pregabalin before sleep yesterday and 5mg valium this morning at 7:40AM, but at 8:00AM it happened what I explained above..

Guess I’am cooked and fucked pretty bad, NIDS sympthoms are fuel for panic attacks, both combined are no joke.
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I CARE, Bro! Peace & Much LOVE to you amidst your horrific SUFFERING!!! I FEEL your pain!!! ABUNDANT BLESSINGS & then some!!! Sincerely & truly, a fellow PSYCH WARRIOR & then some!!! 🔥 Doctor Dan
 
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I felt completely fucked up for the first months after the injections

It's been more than 4 years now (April 2022 was my 2nd injection) and I'm doing better than ever

Also maybe it's just me but it seems the threads have been reopening a little slower than previously, could be a sign that there is less Invega induced suffering going on in the world, good
 
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