Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v 12

[KriptonitXxx]

Zayıflatan Antipisikotik hen neden icad edilemiyor,,‽

 

[KriptonitXxx]

Ancient Divine Humanity, in what happened, to the "decay" and "deadly" (precious) mentally ill, independent owners, mistresses, and residents... The state of mind progressing in the body, intervening with curiosity, visitation fee, ledger page by page, etc. etc...

 

[KubiKook]

Dearest Invega Sufferers & Warriors alike, I was grievously ill for over 18 months, suicidal nearly the entire time, almost killing myself, even having bought a tank of BVV 99.5% pure & pressurized helium, Multipurpose Oven Bags, Gorilla duct tape & a 12-foot plastic tube. I put the bags, eventually doubled up, over my head several times, not only to see how it felt, but also to see if I had the courage to do the dirty deed. I also accumulated about 100mgs of Clonazepam so I would be able to pass out with the bag around my head & not experience any discomfort during the asphyxiation process...

What an absolute HORROR!!! Yes, an unimaginable nightmare that tormented me every second of every day while I suffered with such severe sickness, I was in abject misery the majority my life & mainly in complete silence, my family & friends & others left incredulous, not knowing what to say or do anymore, just entirely exhausted of me & my wretched condition, not really wanting to hear anything about it anymore, not wanting to see or hear me, my moans & groans, even my desperate pleas for help in person & otherwise, grown SO tiresome to them ALL!!!

Anyway, there's much more to the story, but the general gist is that I've been miraculously & most unexpectedly healed of the worst parts of my affliction (the 100% insomnia I suffered, the lack of connection to everyone & everything, the loss of my hope & all faith, my health & my home, my love of music & movies, nature & wildlife, food & beverage, including tea & coffee, ginger beer & juices, etc.) by The Great Physician, despite my utter disbelief & diabolical railings & cursing of Jesus Christ for not only abandoning me & allowing such insane suffering, but for not even existing, being a figment of my imagination, a fantasy, an illusion, a liar even... Yes, in my darkest hours, I became a true Atheist, believing in nothing but dying & death & the grave!!!

God saved me anyway. Why you ask. Or maybe you're thinking this guy is full of sh*t! Either way, I'll share what I believe from my point of view. Firstly, I had built up a relationship with Jesus through inspired experience & serious study, work & play, for 26 years, starting in September of 2000 down in Tampa, Florida. I won't get into the nitty-gritty, but basically, I was tortured, one night in particular, awoken in a jolt at 3am, my mind racing, desperately caught between two women, my wife at the time & another lover I took on right before I was heading to get married.

Yes, I was an adulterer! Yikes! Absolutely awful & unacceptable, believe me, I know! To make a long story short, so to speak, I meandered out of my house, making my way out to my backyard, around my pool, in front of my detached office (for my very lucrative wholesale cigar business), fell to my knees at the base of a giant oak tree & begged & pleaded for help, at that time in my 'crazy' life, it was the first time I called out to God by name, before having used the terms Universe or Cosmos, etc., I was into New Age philosophy, the power of NOW, anything NOT biblical, telling the Lord I would do anything & everything to be released from & relieved of the EXTREME torment & misery I was going through, the guilt & shame, regret & pain ~ HeartBroken!!!

In a moment of PURE & PERFECT magic, I was struck by a bolt of lightning (figuratively of course), a most POWER-full sense of PEACE & SERENITY passing through & permeating my entire being. And then God spoke, clearly but not audibly; I felt the words DEEPLY within my heart, soul & mind. And then some!!! This is what was said: "Go back to New York, work with your father, heal your family. What?! Well, that was the beginning of my circuitous pursuit of higher levels of knowledge, wisdom & understanding. I've learned a lot over the decades, but like Socrates, a petty brilliant dude, once said, ultimately, the essence of my entire life experience has led me to his same main conclusion: "I know that I know nothing!!! Ha! Yes, I'm NO know it all. Ya, all!!! Just a foollike the rest of you!!!

Yes, 'God' is surely a MYSTERY, so much BIGGER & BETTER than anybody has imagined, can imagine or ever will imagine... Until He comes that is; Like a thief in the night (Revelation 16:15). Come to think of it, I do know one thing: God is good... No, actually, God is GREAT! And secondly & importantly, I know 'God' is surely beyond male or female, "His/Her" being MUCH-MUCH more than those man-made limiting & diminishing & discriminatory descriptives. Okay-okay, I'll stop my babbling now. I'll leave you with this little teaching of The Word & ways vs. man's...

The word repent has been made into a harsh & punitive word created by the institutionalized churches, the hypocrites whose main aim is to control & dominate, etc. They are liars & thieves, rapists & murderers, etc., of the highest order. They are slavers, putting parishioners & others in cages, placed under their laws of sin & death & hell instead of teaching & preaching about living under the mercy & grace of The Most-High Spirit of LOVE!!! Need I say more? I think you get the general gist of where I stand with Organized Religion, such a bunch of baby BULLSH*T!!!

Anyway, the word "repent" simply means, "to think again," to take a second & third & fourth, maybe even a fifth, you get the point, look at The Way & Truth & Life of the Lord Jesus Christ aka Yeshua Mashiach aka Wonderful aka Counselor & so many more ~ He is the Name above all names (Philippians 2:9-11) & he is not who so-called Christians & Jews & Muslim, the 3 Abrahamic faiths & many other cults have made him out to be!!!

Even the language Yeshua spoke, Aramaic, was different. It was spoken in a feminine tongue. Hebrew & English, the dominant languages of The Bible & our Time of great Trouble, which was written by man (inspired) & manipulated by the Council of Nicea in 300 A.D. under the Emperor Constantine, were masculine, hence creating an abusive & exclusive, hateful & hurtful, violent & venomous & vitriolic, generally godless genocidal Patriarchy!!! Enough said? I think so. A lot to digest, I know...

Well, ponder on & wander through, this message if you feel led or inspired to do so. If not, no worries, I totally get it. I wouldn't have received this well or believed any of it just three short weeks ago. All i can say is take care of each other here, Ya'll, share yourselves fully, be honest & truthful, lose the aliases & fear of being seen & heard for who you are, listen care-fully & lovingly to people, to all the pain & suffering, really see & hear the torment & misery, but also try & embrace the recovery stories too.

I know it's hard, but healing is possible! More than possible... Believe it or not, receive it or not, it's inevitable, only a matter of time, Ya' all. And a lot of that is up to you. Receive & Believe, I say!!!

Anyway, PEACE & MUCH LOVE, Ya' all, sincerely & truly, Dan aka Danny boy aka Daniel aka Mischief & Pepper aka Kubiak aka believe it or not, Dr. Dan, the Metaphysician (Spiritual Doctor).

To make things clear, I have a Ph.D in Holistic Theology, my major having been Metaphysics. I also have a master's in social work & a bachelor's in psychology... I'm not looking to boast, just expressing myself a little in case you may be wondering, "who the hell is this guy or who the hell does this guy think he is or whatever else you may be thinking or feeling, etc.

Any-hoo-ha, peace & much love, Ya' all, NOW (The first day of the Jewish New Year ~ 5787) & always, your friend & your family & beyond... Mr. Pizza-Bagel, ~ Dr. Daniel David Lattarulo

 

[OLDTIDEN]

They sure you are mentally ill?

i got off my CTO

 

[Gdvffh]

My voices tell me i have a Post Doctorate in Neuroscience.

 

[RisperdalConsta50mg2]

My voices tell me i have a Post Doctorate in Neuroscience.

Never heared “voices” But I started to hear tinnitus once they gave me that shit antipsychotic injection..

The irony: NOW I hear a thing that is not real: a constant non-stop ringing in my ears, gg i guess..

 

[InnerReturn]

Never heared “voices” But I started to hear tinnitus once they gave me that shit antipsychotic injection..

The irony: NOW I hear a thing that is not real: a constant non-stop ringing in my ears, gg i guess..

Tinnitus can be a side effect of risperidone. It's listed in the official prescribing information for Risperdal Consta among ear and labyrinth disorders, though it's uncommon.
So if yours started after the injection, a medication-related link is possible — but the timing alone can't prove it.
It's worth getting your ears and hearing checked, especially if the tinnitus is constant. A doctor can check for things like earwax, infection, or hearing loss and may refer you for an audiogram or an ENT assessment

 

[RisperdalConsta50mg2]

Tinnitus can be a side effect of risperidone. It's listed in the official prescribing information for Risperdal Consta among ear and labyrinth disorders, though it's uncommon.
So if yours started after the injection, a medication-related link is possible — but the timing alone can't prove it.
It's worth getting your ears and hearing checked, especially if the tinnitus is constant. A doctor can check for things like earwax, infection, or hearing loss and may refer you for an audiogram or an ENT assessment

Alrrady did all these things, i have a soft hearing loss (because of tinnitus obviously, i cant hear like before) but beside that nothing was found, it’s brain damage due to the injections..

It started 13 months after my last injection as a Tardive Tinnitus form or something like that, as i said, instead of improving and recovering I developed new sympthoms over time as a domino effect because of the injections..

I’am sure it’s linked to chronic and severe sleep deprivation caused by the injections, also the severe eyesight issues I developed because of the injections played a big Role, i’am sure..

 

[InnerReturn]

Alrrady did all these things, i have a soft hearing loss (because of tinnitus obviously, i cant hear like before) but beside that nothing was found, it’s brain damage due to the injections..

It started 13 months after my last injection as a Tardive Tinnitus form or something like that, as i said, instead of improving and recovering I developed new sympthoms over time as a domino effect because of the injections..

I’am sure it’s linked to chronic and severe sleep deprivation caused by the injections, also the severe eyesight issues I developed because of the injections played a big Role, i’am sure..

That sounds really difficult, especially having new symptoms appear so long after the injection instead of things gradually improving. I can understand why you would connect the tinnitus, sleep deprivation and vision problems with what happened after the injections, particularly when nothing else was found on the tests.
I really hope you eventually get some improvement, even if the recovery is much slower and more complicated than you expected. Thirteen months is a long time to be dealing with this...

 

[InnerReturn]

https://ibb.co/wFDqpRP5 this is me before that poison
https://ibb.co/SXNb2WXt
This me after that poison
My heart aches when I look at myself.

I know exactly what you mean. I feel the same way when I look at my own before-and-after photos. It’s really painful to see the difference and feel like you’ve lost something that used to be so naturally yours.
Even my friends have noticed that I look different now. They often tell me that I look tired or exhausted, even when I’ve actually slept. I can see it myself in photos too — my face just looks more tired and less alive than it used to.
So when you say that your heart aches looking at your old photos, I really understand that feeling. It hurts to look at a version of yourself that you recognize so much more than the person you see now

 

[InnerReturn]

Well, the only news from me is that I’ve started a diet, completely cut out sugar, and started exercising. The suicidal thoughts are still there, though. I honestly don’t know what else to focus on to keep my mind from going there — it feels like they’re becoming more and more intrusive. I guess it just takes time…
This poison has turned my life upside down. I’ve never looked at the future as pessimistically as I have since the injections

 

[Invegatorture]

Alrrady did all these things, i have a soft hearing loss (because of tinnitus obviously, i cant hear like before) but beside that nothing was found, it’s brain damage due to the injections..

It started 13 months after my last injection as a Tardive Tinnitus form or something like that, as i said, instead of improving and recovering I developed new sympthoms over time as a domino effect because of the injections..

I’am sure it’s linked to chronic and severe sleep deprivation caused by the injections, also the severe eyesight issues I developed because of the injections played a big Role, i’am sure..

How is your sleep at the moment? How many hours a night?

 

[KubiKook]

 

[KubiKook]

Well, the only news from me is that I’ve started a diet, completely cut out sugar, and started exercising. The suicidal thoughts are still there, though. I honestly don’t know what else to focus on to keep my mind from going there — it feels like they’re becoming more and more intrusive. I guess it just takes time…
This poison has turned my life upside down. I’ve never looked at the future as pessimistically as I have since the injections

 

[lostsoulowen]

Alrrady did all these things, i have a soft hearing loss (because of tinnitus obviously, i cant hear like before) but beside that nothing was found, it’s brain damage due to the injections..

It started 13 months after my last injection as a Tardive Tinnitus form or something like that, as i said, instead of improving and recovering I developed new sympthoms over time as a domino effect because of the injections..

I’am sure it’s linked to chronic and severe sleep deprivation caused by the injections, also the severe eyesight issues I developed because of the injections played a big Role, i’am sure..

did you get an MRI?
get an MRI and ask AI about your brain scan, it's easy to see defects on there especially if you ask AI as it doesn't lie to you like real doctor.

 

[RisperdalConsta50mg2]

That sounds really difficult, especially having new symptoms appear so long after the injection instead of things gradually improving. I can understand why you would connect the tinnitus, sleep deprivation and vision problems with what happened after the injections, particularly when nothing else was found on the tests.
I really hope you eventually get some improvement, even if the recovery is much slower and more complicated than you expected. Thirteen months is a long time to be dealing with this...

13 month with tinnitus and 26 months with NIDS (Neuroleptic Induced deficit Syndrome) and all the other sympthoms..

Thank you btw

 

[RisperdalConsta50mg2]

How is your sleep at the moment? How many hours a night?

Sleep is still fucked because i can’t feel tiredness so I force myself to go sleep and i have trouble falling asleep and i have a very soft sleep with costant awakenings during night, i can’t keep sleeping past 5AM so i would say i sleep very bad for 4-5 Hours maybe..

 

[RisperdalConsta50mg2]

did you get an MRI?
get an MRI and ask AI about your brain scan, it's easy to see defects on there especially if you ask AI as it doesn't lie to you like real doctor.

MRI won’t show anything, it looks at the structure of the brain, the issue is functional (receptors), maybe a FMRI would show something (maybe).

Btw i already did a MRI and they told me there is nothing wrong.

 

[KubiKook]

13 month with tinnitus and 26 months with NIDS (Neuroleptic Induced deficit Syndrome) and all the other sympthoms..

Thank you btw

So sorry you're going through such suffering. I feel your pain. Sincerely, Dan

 

[KubiKook]

We only get one life. Just one. Only once. And look at what we’ve turned into. I want to cease to exist; I can’t bear this pain anymore.

So sorry you're suffering SO much. I feel your pain. Sincerely, Dan