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Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v 12

lostsoulowen said:
first day i wasn't completely bedridden, 13 months since last injection
Oren:
one of my best day so far, talked with my roommates and went to the supermarket together, walked 30 minutes,

picked up stuff from china took the bus

and possibly going to teach an online class in language

one of my most normals days in the last 1.8 years
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Do you feel confidence ın yourself
 
I have zero health problem before these pills now I have thousands of health problem I cant even see ın front of me fucked my eyes fucked my weight fucked my hearth fucked my appearence I can list you cant even imagine
 
fuqrisperdal said:
I have zero health problem before these pills now I have thousands of health problem I cant even see ın front of me fucked my eyes fucked my weight fucked my hearth fucked my appearence I can list you cant even imagine
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Same here, perfectly healthy before risperdal, now i have eyesigh issue, tinnitus, 100-140 hearth rate, digestive issue, loss of hearing, can’t nap or sleep, severe cognitive deficit, severe DPDR, total sexual disfunction (chemical castration), full of acne on my back to the point it seems they shooted me multiple Times or they kinda tortured me, chronic chest pain, chronic muscle tension (back, neck, shoulders), i can’t focus or concentrate, no strenght to do a shit (not even brushing my teeth or take a shower), no emotions, no motivation, completely disconnected and disabled laying on the bed since 2 years..
 
Yea
fuqrisperdal said:
I hate this world I hate it I hate my faith like yeah blocking d2 receptor most important receptor ın human body
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Yeah it’s responsable for a lot of body and mind functions, once they find out that, they created a poison who block that receptor, wich have a “domino effect” on other receptors and hormones that result into a torture and severe damage to the body and mind.

It’s not a “coincidence” or a “side effect”, this poison is designed to do such things, it’s a torture tool, but they label it as a “cure” or “medicine” because we live into a distopic world and psychotic people don’t even realize what this poison did to them..
 
fuqrisperdal said:
Fucked my sexuality fucked my brain fucked how i think fucked every goddamn thing
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I can’t just relax because i’am into a constant flight or fight mode, constant agony due to the sympthoms i have and completely unable to distract because i can’t do a shit.

If i could i would just sleep the whole time so i won’t have to face the agony but this poison completely disconnected and cut me off the “sleep realm”, like if the door is now locked and I can’t anymore access the sleeping mode.

So lay down without nothing i can do, just suffering and cursing the day i agreed to the injection just because i wanted to get the fuck off from that psych ward where i was voluntary admitted just because i had a strong relapse of panic attack and i asked help..

I miss a lot being able to relax and feel comfort, doing warm bath, doing naps, being able to take care of mysel and my home, being able to drive and to hang out, going to the gym, feel tiredness..

But there is nothing we can do to reverse the damage, and everytime we reach for help they don’t belive us in the worst case or they can’t help us in the best case, so it’s just a matter of “taking the agony”, laying down and regret the fact we trusted a so called “Doctor”..
 
RisperdalConsta50mg2 said:
I can’t just relax because i’am into a constant flight or fight mode, constant agony due to the sympthoms i have and completely unable to distract because i can’t do a shit.

If i could i would just sleep the whole time so i won’t have to face the agony but this poison completely disconnected and cut me off the “sleep realm”, like if the door is now locked and I can’t anymore access the sleeping mode.

So lay down without nothing i can do, just suffering and cursing the day i agreed to the injection just because i wanted to get the fuck off from that psych ward where i was voluntary admitted just because i had a strong relapse of panic attack and i asked help..

I miss a lot being able to relax and feel comfort, doing warm bath, doing naps, being able to take care of mysel and my home, being able to drive and to hang out, going to the gym, feel tiredness..

But there is nothing we can do to reverse the damage, and everytime we reach for help they don’t belive us in the worst case or they can’t help us in the best case, so it’s just a matter of “taking the agony”, laying down and regret the fact we trusted a so called “Doctor”..
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I miss feeling like a human being so much, my friend—you have no idea. I’m not really keen on this business of living anymore, but the fact that such agony is even possible in this world has destroyed my belief in God. It’s a wretched substance that affects not just D2 receptors, but D1, D3, D4, and D5 receptors too. Knowing that I’ll die without ever feeling the way I did before these pills and injections—that thought just crushes me. There’s no one around me, and nothing left worth living for.
 
RisperdalConsta50mg2 said:
I can’t just relax because i’am into a constant flight or fight mode, constant agony due to the sympthoms i have and completely unable to distract because i can’t do a shit.

If i could i would just sleep the whole time so i won’t have to face the agony but this poison completely disconnected and cut me off the “sleep realm”, like if the door is now locked and I can’t anymore access the sleeping mode.

So lay down without nothing i can do, just suffering and cursing the day i agreed to the injection just because i wanted to get the fuck off from that psych ward where i was voluntary admitted just because i had a strong relapse of panic attack and i asked help..

I miss a lot being able to relax and feel comfort, doing warm bath, doing naps, being able to take care of mysel and my home, being able to drive and to hang out, going to the gym, feel tiredness..

But there is nothing we can do to reverse the damage, and everytime we reach for help they don’t belive us in the worst case or they can’t help us in the best case, so it’s just a matter of “taking the agony”, laying down and regret the fact we trusted a so called “Doctor”..
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I wasn't exactly brilliant or smart to begin with, but this wretched thing turned me into such a fool. I have absolutely no self-confidence left. I keep telling myself, "Don't let this happen to you, you son of a bitch." That’s the only thing that matters—just don't let this happen to me. But it did happen, and here I am, and taking my own life is so hard. For two years, I’ve been watching other people’s beautiful lives from afar. Am I supposed to spend my whole life just watching from a distance, seeing how healthy and beautiful their lives are?
 
fuqrisperdal said:
I wasn't exactly brilliant or smart to begin with, but this wretched thing turned me into such a fool. I have absolutely no self-confidence left. I keep telling myself, "Don't let this happen to you, you son of a bitch." That’s the only thing that matters—just don't let this happen to me. But it did happen, and here I am, and taking my own life is so hard. For two years, I’ve been watching other people’s beautiful lives from afar. Am I supposed to spend my whole life just watching from a distance, seeing how healthy and beautiful their lives are?
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Idk.. If the damage and the loss is permanent and the agony is so deep, there is no point to keep living, it’s just a torture and suicide is the only thing left to do.

But maybe we can still recover, idk.. Just waiting for things to heal back is not enough, i doubt i will “magically recover” on my own by just waiting because 2 years is enough to understeand if waiting is enough..

I have hope in the TMS, and if dosen’t work I will give a try to the Solian, but if even tha don’t work, then there is not much more left to do if not just waiting the 3 year mark.. Idk..

I’am shocked that it’s allowed to do such thing to a healthy person and ruin his life, and there is no consequence neither accountability, that is sick for real..
 
lostsoulowen said:
first day i wasn't completely bedridden, 13 months since last injection
Oren:
one of my best day so far, talked with my roommates and went to the supermarket together, walked 30 minutes,

picked up stuff from china took the bus

and possibly going to teach an online class in language

one of my most normals days in the last 1.8 years
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How’s the anhedonia is it letting up? Motivation sounds good mate! Good to hear
 
RisperdalConsta50mg2 said:
Idk.. If the damage and the loss is permanent and the agony is so deep, there is no point to keep living, it’s just a torture and suicide is the only thing left to do.

But maybe we can still recover, idk.. Just waiting for things to heal back is not enough, i doubt i will “magically recover” on my own by just waiting because 2 years is enough to understeand if waiting is enough..

I have hope in the TMS, and if dosen’t work I will give a try to the Solian, but if even tha don’t work, then there is not much more left to do if not just waiting the 3 year mark.. Idk..

I’am shocked that it’s allowed to do such thing to a healthy person and ruin his life, and there is no consequence neither accountability, that is sick for real..
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I am currently on adhd pills and they don't even property work.We need a miracle seriously.
 
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I wake up a moment ago, at 3AM with strong teeth pain, i’ll wait until 8AM then i will go to the dentist and he will relive my pain, heal the wound and let me go.

He won’t keep me captive against my will, forcing me to extract all my other healthy teeth in order to be able to leave his office, leaving me with permanent lifetime damage blaming my “teeth issues” for that.

That’s the difference between a doctor and a psych quack..
 
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