Ik some people who take large amounts of stuff and who still happen to forget sometimes - don't remember that happening to me though
Well, that didn't go well. WD kicked my ass so bad that I got up at 2 a.m. to redose... Felt better but still hardly slept and decided to redose every time WD hit - that's 9,3 g for today. And I'm not exactly in luxury condition
... Will have to think again after a few hours of sleep - hopefully - tomorrow.
You seem to have the worst time with drugs, or rather, with managing addiction. I feel for you! I know what it is like to be in almost constant WDs bc that is how I was before methadone.Well, that didn't go well. WD kicked my ass so bad that I got up at 2 a.m. to redose... Felt better but still hardly slept and decided to redose every time WD hit - that's 9,3 g for today. And I'm not exactly in luxury condition
... Yep. I don't manage. It's an ongoing row of failures... But I wouldn't have believed it when told. I've cursed Kratom a lot in the last few days, but in the end I didn't manage with everything else either. 8,2 g today, and doubting I'd even be stable on that. Whatever. I've seen a specialist already and he didn't see much of a chance without rehab. There's no benefit in telling me so for him, and I believe that's his honest take on the situation. I wouldn't even have seen him if I didn't agree. My turn to organize that now. And get through somehow until I do, whatever it will be.
I am extremely wary of inpatient rehab as a way to stay off drugs long term but I think in your specific case it could help, I mean it is obvious you want off opiates so you just need an opportunity to withdraw from them, most likely.
The doc I talked to also said I need to make a plan for later, as we agreed on staying clean as the real challenge. I don't like the hassle I can tell, but... Going through that phase on my own is beyond my capacity.
Sounds like such a nice day! Enjoy!140mg opium for breakfast 3 hours ago, beautiful sunny morning here just after 11am now
20mg more than my usual fortnightly-ish dose, but I've got a long day ahead hanging out with old hippy folkies doing their thing in a tea-tent at a quite lively open air smalltown market then later am off with family for a dolphin-spotting boat trip down the coast early evening, so have made sure that I'll be comfortable for the day
Will probably have a couple hits on a bowl of Blueberry OG flower that the fam are bringing before getting on the boat too. Would be rude not to
You should also determine what "staying clean" means to you. To most rehabs and docs it will mean full abstinence from everything. For you it might mean abstinence from opiates while still allowing yourself to, say, take a pregabalin if you want. Or maybe you want to quit everything except weed and alcohol (I can't remember if you smoke weed but it is just an example). Or maybe you do strive for full abstinence from everything. Point is, you should figure that out (if you haven't already) so that your choices in rehab and follow up care are aligned with your goals.
Good point.
Definitely worth thinking about... So far I'd say I have no issues with alcohol and don't have to say no all the time, and I don't intend to throw out the shrooms/lsd either. Maybe those two.