Something amazing happened to me in 2016. Placed an order of 1g of ketamine (just to empty my wallet on a DNM) from NL and when the package came to me I opened it and... A bag full of crystals sized of my thumb was there. I were astonished. Didn't realized it were ket at first, but what else? I didn't ordered anything else in that time and was waiting only that package. I put all on my scale andd... 25 grams. 25 fucking grams of crystal clear ketamine. I din't like it much at the time or better, didn't get the drug itself. So I swap it with some opium to a friend and let them try to other friends. A friend of mine snorted 2 100mg lines and had a frightening experience. It wasn't a hole cause I weight the dose everytime but he didn't expect such high dissociative experience so he didn't like it. He use it other times but in way smaller dosages like 20-30mg bumps max.
Fast fordward in 2025 after the research chemicals ban in NL, I were using amphetamines and phenidate to self medicate myself from ADHD and enjoy a nice buzz from time to time when all became illegal in NL. I started using dissociatives of arylhexylamines class like a lot of smoked O-PCE, 2F-DCK, 3-ho-PCP, 3-Me-PCE, 3-MeO-PCE, 3-Me-PCPy and many others. Manly smoked O-PCE and 2F. I had an ego death hole experience where it was frightening but manageable, tripping balls. But I slowly started liking smaller doses of smoked O-PCE to be buzzed in the evening after dinner while watching a movie and doesn't get anything lol. It was mainly a reaction to have something to do legally, buying on clearweb, before having the knowledge of other places to buy stims there. But that experience of dissociative changed my mind about them. They can be useful to relax or to cope withdrawals. I slowly appreciate some things of them.