I think I'm due for a trip soon, maybe on Friday or Saturday. I'm trying to figure out what kind of trip I want, which in turn dictates the choice of substance. Usually I don't have much trouble figuring out what I want to do, but this time I'm at a loss. I'm feeling mentally stuck and am not sure where I need to go. All of this is in the context of my ongoing health problems, which I only recently came to understand. I'm feeling alienated with my past as I realize how much these health problem have been affecting my behavior, but I'm also extremely uncertain about my future capabilities.
The trip candidates I'm considering right now are: mushrooms (probably 0.75g which ought to be plenty for me), 2C-D (30 mg), 2C-D + 2C-B (mini-dose amounts), 2C-D + mushrooms (mini-dose amounts), 2C-E (12.5-15 mg), and 2C-P (4 mg).
I'm kind of leaning toward a longer trip but not necessarily 2C-P long, which would point to 2C-E. At the same time, I'd love to "push forward" in my evaluation of 2C-P so that I can try 6 mg later summer or early fall maybe, and I'm curious about 2C-D and its possible combos. Mushrooms might be particularly good for getting my unstuck. So many choices!
I'll keep thinking on this.