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Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v 12

KubiKook said:
You're extremely fortunate you recovered & even improved. I care how awful I look, just can't muster the ability to fix it. I'm more than worried. My brain has been horribly changed. I'm me but not me anymore. And there's absolutely no evidence to support a return to normal. Positivity ain't gonna make it so. Thank you for the feedback & encouragement though. Ciao for now, Dan
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If your a guy i would suggest getting your testosterone levels checked. Invega and abilify injections absolutely tanked mine. But now im on TRT and i feel awesome. Honestly i have the energy of a 18 year old again. For reference im a oldy 44. Test really improves your mood as well. I cant recommend TRT enough really

If your suffering from the shitty i dont give a fuck about anything type of anhedonia that i had you could do worse then to look into taking methylphenidate for it. Dont be a complete dumbass like i did and start banging up quarter grams of blow. I just didnt give a fuck when i was on the injections and for awile when i came off them. But ritalin is a great med for motivation imo with very few side effects. I wish i had a actual prescription for it but i can only get it a few times a month

From my experience with this shit when you start feeling better you will just naturally start looking better. If your a guy i would suggest hitting the weights. You wont feel anhedonia usually if your looking great. I looked so awful on invega and abilify to and for about 3 or 4 months after i got off the injections and on latuda instead. On the injections i went up to 225lbs i was so fat. My estrogen and prolactin levels must have been fucked. I honestly felt at rock bottom when i was like that.

I thought i would never get in shape again. But now i can curl 215lbs which is only 10lbs less then what i used to weight at my fattes. Im not a miracle or anything really anyone can do ir
 
KubiKook said:
I like the metaphors. Surely not a rosy picture. I think you're moister now, right? And the paint & fungicide faded? Happy Wednesday, Lara ; ) -
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Honestly, I'm still very much in the dried-out bark phase. The metaphor wasn't just about the past — it's where I am right now. But your message made me feel a little less alone in it... Happy Wednesday to you too. By the way, it's already Thursday for me. There's a time difference of about 9 hours between our cities
 
InnerReturn said:
Honestly, I'm still very much in the dried-out bark phase. The metaphor wasn't just about the past — it's where I am right now. But your message made me feel a little less alone in it... Happy Wednesday to you too. By the way, it's already Thursday for me. There's a time difference of about 9 hours between our cities
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I can relate to this abit. When i was coming off the injections i just felt like a useless body. I wasent doing anything at all to really help myself either. One of the first things i did when i got out of the psych ward was to call my coke dealer. I was basically treating the anhedonia with IV coke. Also there was definitely some sublimation going on there as well as i had no sex drive or ability to get it up so i had to get off somehow i guess. Freud would no doubt have a thing or 2 to say about me
 
InnerReturn said:
Honestly, I'm still very much in the dried-out bark phase. The metaphor wasn't just about the past — it's where I am right now. But your message made me feel a little less alone in it... Happy Wednesday to you too. By the way, it's already Thursday for me. There's a time difference of about 9 hours between our cities
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Oops, didn't even consider that. Sorry. Happy Thursday. The "happy" is obviously not reality. I guess we could both use that spark. By the way, how does dried-out bark present in a person.
I don't know how I'm going to keep on going, Lara. Truly, every second of every day is the worst kind of misery & suffering. Not one thing brings a sense of peace or purpose or pleasure. Nothing. Does anything do that for you? Well, I'm glad that I at least made you feel less alone : ) - Ah, see, there's a smile. Hee-Hee. Ciao & Shalom, Daniel-san (ala Karate Kid).
 
fuckabout89 said:
I get were your coming from im also sick of chronic illness and being stuck on social security it truly doesnt get better in my case only down hill from here. I wouldnt do it over a couple of shots of invega though wait a few years to heal
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Fuck not feeling euphoria
 
fuckabout89 said:
I get were your coming from im also sick of chronic illness and being stuck on social security it truly doesnt get better in my case only down hill from here. I wouldnt do it over a couple of shots of invega though wait a few years to heal
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I'm glad to hear you get social security. The government can be totally bitchy when it comes to helping citizens out.
 
The way i look at it is if your still alive you have a chance. I was thrown in solitary in the psych ward with a room that didnt even have a toilet. Honestly it was worse then the drunk tank. This was in a so called hospital and was somehow a "treatment" i guess. I hate the hypocrisy of it all. But that was pretty much rock bottom for me. But i went from that to now lifting weights like crazy to bbqing on my deck while high on morphine. Not saying morphine is a good thing by the way.

But if i can go from that shithole to having a pretty good day so can anyone
 
paranoid android said:
But if i can go from that shithole to having a pretty good day so can anyone
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i was in severe heroin withdrawal leading up to the days of invega. i was a stupid 19 year old who did dumb things and yet the biggest mistake of my life was not saying "no" to the doctor who said invega was optional. he told me it was a "miracle drug" and that i'd be "saved" and i wanted that badly. my cats first birthday was nearby and he promised to let me out on that day too, i adore my cats.
i screamed and was restrained due to the physical hell of drug withdrawal because the rehab facility "was too full." my birthday came not even a month later and i had to spend it in bed tossing and turning in agony. i had to spend christmas in bed too since it was a month after. i watched everyone i know turn on me, yet here i am today. not perfect, still with flaws, but i survived.
 
what i'm saying is i've been through so much mentally and physically theres no doubt it left permanent repercussions on my brain, but today i'm here and i look forward to every day. i wish survivors wouldn't look at invega as a reason to kill themselves but as a reason to live. this is hell, if you can survive hell then what can't you survive
 
eat healthy, do keto diet maybe, follow your faith, believe in yourself, try to go out, exercise, take everyday one at a time and focus on present not future. stay away from drugs, i speak from experience (ive met many survivors who cope using them for invega)
 
silenthill said:
i was in severe heroin withdrawal leading up to the days of invega. i was a stupid 19 year old who did dumb things and yet the biggest mistake of my life was not saying "no" to the doctor who said invega was optional. he told me it was a "miracle drug" and that i'd be "saved" and i wanted that badly. my cats first birthday was nearby and he promised to let me out on that day too, i adore my cats.
i screamed and was restrained due to the physical hell of drug withdrawal because the rehab facility "was too full." my birthday came not even a month later and i had to spend it in bed tossing and turning in agony. i had to spend christmas in bed too since it was a month after. i watched everyone i know turn on me, yet here i am today. not perfect, still with flaws, but i survived.
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I can so relate omg! When i was admitted i was in severe morphine wd. I was injecting shitloads of it. I was also in severe benzo wd because i was on 6mg's of clonazepam a day. When i was admitted the doc refused to give me meds so i punched him and knocked him to the floor. I was then thrown in solitary by about 3 security guards then pinned down and injected with what was fuck knows what. I straight up throuht they where trying to kill me.

I dont know exactly how many times i was thrown in solitary. 6 times atleast and i dont know for how long. My memory is fucked from the drug wdf's, psychosis and also cotards syndrome i had. Cotards was so bad it made opiate and benzo wd's look fun. Thats a rare oe. I was given no meds for wd's or even psychosis. The dumb shrink i had kept saying i had weed psychosis lol. Finally after a big fight with security that my brother gor involved in as well i was given another shrink. He put me on invega which at that point i was glad to get. But fuck invega im on zyprexa now and its so much better

Whats sort of funny is that i was actually treated better when i was arrested by the poilice then when i was admitted to the psych ward. Atleast they gave me my meds even the benzos when i was drunk. But the psych ward do it under the guise of "treatment". How is cutting somweone off morphine and clonazepam cold turkey and throwing them in solitary treatment?

I still have trauma over that shit
 
paranoid android said:
I still have trauma over that shit
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same here, i remember being treated better when i was getting arrested than when i was in the ward. they didn't even give me anything to help with my heroin wd, i was lucky to have a solo room so i could sleep without clothes cause i was melting and in pain. they tried putting me in a program after the stay but obviously invega basically shut me down to the point i could barely bathe myself at the beginning. i spent so long doing DXM , coke , heroin and weed was my sleep aid, no weed then im not sleeping. at least they gave me tons of Ambien id hide in my cheek to take all it once later to substitute. also had a buddy in there with a dab pen he snuck in. my designated doctor was smug as shit and had that college douche vibe
 
silenthill said:
same here, i remember being treated better when i was getting arrested than when i was in the ward. they didn't even give me anything to help with my heroin wd, i was lucky to have a solo room so i could sleep without clothes cause i was melting and in pain. they tried putting me in a program after the stay but obviously invega basically shut me down to the point i could barely bathe myself at the beginning. i spent so long doing DXM , coke , heroin and weed was my sleep aid, no weed then im not sleeping. at least they gave me tons of Ambien id hide in my cheek to take all it once later to substitute. also had a buddy in there with a dab pen he snuck in. my designated doctor was smug as shit and had that college douche vibe
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The oly drug i got in the psych ward besides invega and abilify injectios was the weed we brought in there. We had no shortage of that anyway. I got alot for free cause most of the people in there where young and couldnt roll joints. Whipping out a bong in the psych ward was not practical lol.

But for the morphine and clonazepam wd's didnt even get a asprin from them. Thankfully when i got our the shrink gave me clonazepam for generalized anxiety, bromazepam for panic attacks and zopiclone for insomnia. So i have good meds anyway now so il take that

Im still pissed off over how i was treated though. Also in our psych ward there was always 5 or 6 to a room. So i had to wd in there. Thankfully i can remember none of thw wd's. Im not trying to either im cool with not remembering lol
 
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