Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v 12

[silenthill]

But if i can go from that shithole to having a pretty good day so can anyone

i was in severe heroin withdrawal leading up to the days of invega. i was a stupid 19 year old who did dumb things and yet the biggest mistake of my life was not saying "no" to the doctor who said invega was optional. he told me it was a "miracle drug" and that i'd be "saved" and i wanted that badly. my cats first birthday was nearby and he promised to let me out on that day too, i adore my cats.
i screamed and was restrained due to the physical hell of drug withdrawal because the rehab facility "was too full." my birthday came not even a month later and i had to spend it in bed tossing and turning in agony. i had to spend christmas in bed too since it was a month after. i watched everyone i know turn on me, yet here i am today. not perfect, still with flaws, but i survived.

 

[KubiKook]

Has anyone else ever seen the movie "A Beautiful Mind"?

Great movie.

 

[silenthill]

what i'm saying is i've been through so much mentally and physically theres no doubt it left permanent repercussions on my brain, but today i'm here and i look forward to every day. i wish survivors wouldn't look at invega as a reason to kill themselves but as a reason to live. this is hell, if you can survive hell then what can't you survive

 

[silenthill]

eat healthy, do keto diet maybe, follow your faith, believe in yourself, try to go out, exercise, take everyday one at a time and focus on present not future. stay away from drugs, i speak from experience (ive met many survivors who cope using them for invega)

 

[paranoid android]

i was in severe heroin withdrawal leading up to the days of invega. i was a stupid 19 year old who did dumb things and yet the biggest mistake of my life was not saying "no" to the doctor who said invega was optional. he told me it was a "miracle drug" and that i'd be "saved" and i wanted that badly. my cats first birthday was nearby and he promised to let me out on that day too, i adore my cats.
i screamed and was restrained due to the physical hell of drug withdrawal because the rehab facility "was too full." my birthday came not even a month later and i had to spend it in bed tossing and turning in agony. i had to spend christmas in bed too since it was a month after. i watched everyone i know turn on me, yet here i am today. not perfect, still with flaws, but i survived.

I can so relate omg! When i was admitted i was in severe morphine wd. I was injecting shitloads of it. I was also in severe benzo wd because i was on 6mg's of clonazepam a day. When i was admitted the doc refused to give me meds so i punched him and knocked him to the floor. I was then thrown in solitary by about 3 security guards then pinned down and injected with what was fuck knows what. I straight up throuht they where trying to kill me.

I dont know exactly how many times i was thrown in solitary. 6 times atleast and i dont know for how long. My memory is fucked from the drug wdf's, psychosis and also cotards syndrome i had. Cotards was so bad it made opiate and benzo wd's look fun. Thats a rare oe. I was given no meds for wd's or even psychosis. The dumb shrink i had kept saying i had weed psychosis lol. Finally after a big fight with security that my brother gor involved in as well i was given another shrink. He put me on invega which at that point i was glad to get. But fuck invega im on zyprexa now and its so much better

Whats sort of funny is that i was actually treated better when i was arrested by the poilice then when i was admitted to the psych ward. Atleast they gave me my meds even the benzos when i was drunk. But the psych ward do it under the guise of "treatment". How is cutting somweone off morphine and clonazepam cold turkey and throwing them in solitary treatment?

I still have trauma over that shit

 

[silenthill]

I still have trauma over that shit

same here, i remember being treated better when i was getting arrested than when i was in the ward. they didn't even give me anything to help with my heroin wd, i was lucky to have a solo room so i could sleep without clothes cause i was melting and in pain. they tried putting me in a program after the stay but obviously invega basically shut me down to the point i could barely bathe myself at the beginning. i spent so long doing DXM , coke , heroin and weed was my sleep aid, no weed then im not sleeping. at least they gave me tons of Ambien id hide in my cheek to take all it once later to substitute. also had a buddy in there with a dab pen he snuck in. my designated doctor was smug as shit and had that college douche vibe

 

[paranoid android]

same here, i remember being treated better when i was getting arrested than when i was in the ward. they didn't even give me anything to help with my heroin wd, i was lucky to have a solo room so i could sleep without clothes cause i was melting and in pain. they tried putting me in a program after the stay but obviously invega basically shut me down to the point i could barely bathe myself at the beginning. i spent so long doing DXM , coke , heroin and weed was my sleep aid, no weed then im not sleeping. at least they gave me tons of Ambien id hide in my cheek to take all it once later to substitute. also had a buddy in there with a dab pen he snuck in. my designated doctor was smug as shit and had that college douche vibe

The oly drug i got in the psych ward besides invega and abilify injectios was the weed we brought in there. We had no shortage of that anyway. I got alot for free cause most of the people in there where young and couldnt roll joints. Whipping out a bong in the psych ward was not practical lol.

But for the morphine and clonazepam wd's didnt even get a asprin from them. Thankfully when i got our the shrink gave me clonazepam for generalized anxiety, bromazepam for panic attacks and zopiclone for insomnia. So i have good meds anyway now so il take that

Im still pissed off over how i was treated though. Also in our psych ward there was always 5 or 6 to a room. So i had to wd in there. Thankfully i can remember none of thw wd's. Im not trying to either im cool with not remembering lol