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Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v 12

I really want to kill myself so bad but i'm scared of surviving the attempt. Ever since invega, my creativity is gone and I can't use drugs to escape because I can't get no effect. I promised myself I'll give it ten more months before ending my life. I wish I can get a answer right now. Like, either give back at least part of my life before invega or let me die. This is really torture. My ptsd gets worse everyday. NOTHING IS FUCKING HELPING, I JUST WANNA FUCKING DIE.
 
Chanel_monster said:
I really want to kill myself so bad but i'm scared of surviving the attempt. Ever since invega, my creativity is gone and I can't use drugs to escape because I can't get no effect. I promised myself I'll give it ten more months before ending my life. I wish I can get a answer right now. Like, either give back at least part of my life before invega or let me die. This is really torture. My ptsd gets worse everyday. NOTHING IS FUCKING HELPING, I JUST WANNA FUCKING DIE.
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I got better you can to just hang in there. What substances have you tried?
 
Chanel_monster said:
I really want to kill myself so bad but i'm scared of surviving the attempt. Ever since invega, my creativity is gone and I can't use drugs to escape because I can't get no effect. I promised myself I'll give it ten more months before ending my life. I wish I can get a answer right now. Like, either give back at least part of my life before invega or let me die. This is really torture. My ptsd gets worse everyday. NOTHING IS FUCKING HELPING, I JUST WANNA FUCKING DIE.
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I sometimes find myself having the same thoughts as you, so I really understand where you're coming from. I try to view this as a difficult test from God and remind myself that it's only a temporary chapter of my life, and that eventually things will get better. By the way, when was your last injection?
 
Chanel_monster said:
I really want to kill myself so bad but i'm scared of surviving the attempt. Ever since invega, my creativity is gone and I can't use drugs to escape because I can't get no effect. I promised myself I'll give it ten more months before ending my life. I wish I can get a answer right now. Like, either give back at least part of my life before invega or let me die. This is really torture. My ptsd gets worse everyday. NOTHING IS FUCKING HELPING, I JUST WANNA FUCKING DIE.
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How many months are you?

I'm 10.5 months also feeling like why do i have to suffer for enteral
 
I’ve spoken to someone on Reddit who just last week after 18 months and 7 injections had a light switch moment and all their thoughts and feelings came back online along with motivation and ability to converse.. maybe just a bit of light for those close to that time line. Has anyone had any improvements lately? I took three shots and im three months out and im currently bed ridden and unable to hold conversations.. I used to be very extroverted and now im really not able to access that part of my mind, has anyone been able to get back a bit of their personality recently? Any help appreciated
 
InnerReturn said:
I sometimes find myself having the same thoughts as you, so I really understand where you're coming from. I try to view this as a difficult test from God and remind myself that it's only a temporary chapter of my life, and that eventually things will get better. By the way, when was your last injection?
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No offense to your religion but I personally think this god person is a sadistic piece of shit.
 
Day 232. First week on cabergoline. I'm honestly shocked. My menstrual cycle has returned, and I have a little more energy now. The only downside is that my sleep has been poor, but I think it's just part of the adjustment period. Overall, I feel better
 
15 months off , I started going out of house on June 5th after more than a year , went out to take my cat to vet for five days, twice to a cousins place, once to an office , another time to a overcrowded cafe … that wasn’t the right thing to do. The cafe was the second time I went out and it was making me panicky.

I am like 20 percent more active than before.
Music still doesn’t feel good, motivation, sex drive still not there. Sexual dysfunction still persistent. Not improving is scary but idek if I am actually improving or not. Nothing substantial to me.
 
mona21 said:
15 months off , I started going out of house on June 5th after more than a year , went out to take my cat to vet for five days, twice to a cousins place, once to an office , another time to a overcrowded cafe … that wasn’t the right thing to do. The cafe was the second time I went out and it was making me panicky.

I am like 20 percent more active than before.
Music still doesn’t feel good, motivation, sex drive still not there. Sexual dysfunction still persistent. Not improving is scary but idek if I am actually improving or not. Nothing substantial to me.
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I actually think you've made more progress than you're giving yourself credit for. Just a few weeks ago you had barely been able to leave the house, and now you've managed to go out several times, even if some situations were overwhelming. That doesn't mean you're not recovering—it just means your nervous system is still healing.
I know it's frightening that music, motivation, and your sex drive haven't returned yet, but the fact that you're becoming more active is still a real improvement. Recovery doesn't always happen all at once. Sometimes one part comes back before another. I really hope you'll continue to see more changes over the coming months. Please don't lose hope
 
InnerReturn said:
Day 232. First week on cabergoline. I'm honestly shocked. My menstrual cycle has returned, and I have a little more energy now. The only downside is that my sleep has been poor, but I think it's just part of the adjustment period. Overall, I feel better
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You think it might help me at day 320? I will check my proclatin level
 
mona21 said:
15 months off , I started going out of house on June 5th after more than a year , went out to take my cat to vet for five days, twice to a cousins place, once to an office , another time to a overcrowded cafe … that wasn’t the right thing to do. The cafe was the second time I went out and it was making me panicky.

I am like 20 percent more active than before.
Music still doesn’t feel good, motivation, sex drive still not there. Sexual dysfunction still persistent. Not improving is scary but idek if I am actually improving or not. Nothing substantial to me.
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What have they done for us the fucking psychopaths? Can't believe your 15 month just starting to heal. I'm the same 10.5 months no recovery.
 
lostsoulowen said:
Doesn't seem to me like that's going to make different, i go go for a walk and take supplemens just like everyone, were all humans we all drink water.
it's only here people heal in 8-9 Months, in Reddit most people take 16-24 months and even then they don't feel fully Recover.
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Reddit is a horseshit website, all they do is ban people for writing opinions that vay from there own. I got banned from Reddit so many times.
 
lostsoulowen said:
Very true. It's also super pro psychiatry, other then antipsychiatry sub.
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No, they allow antipsychiatry sub to exist, unless you meant collective conciousness so yes most people are pro psychiatry and psychiatry might be beatiful but many of them do not realise they sometimes create biggest horror of our lifes in these places, im okay only because i didnt received few years of community treatment order which i would in western countries. Neurogenesis is real but to some extent, that's why David Hawkins one of the biggest spiritual teacher of mankind said antipsychotics can create tragedies but there been situation where he was prescribing them cause they can help in certain cases but many misdisgnosis happen and its enormous trauma for us, but i'm grateful cause life is beautiful again... Never give up even in agony
 
Finally feeling some improvement, the fog in my brain is starting to dissolve, when i take nootropics, i feel my brain removing the block but then it come back. Ordered more vitamins mineral's that ai said showed history in healing dopamine.
But again with this medicine you may never know anything, you feel better then worse then worse then 0.0001 better then worse on an infinite loop.
10 months and 18 days
 
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