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Trigger Warning Which drugs have had the worse effect on your mental health that were hardest to quit?

Arachn1d_1902 said:
Of all the drugs I've done in my life, and I've done many, including the big 3 (meth, heroin, cocaine), DXM has been the hardest to quit, and has affected my mental health the most severely. I've kicked all other drugs, including alcohol, but I cannot seem to kick the DXM.

I've been taking it recreationally for 8 years, with a 1 yr break in 2018. I've been a mostly daily user in doses ranging from 600mg to well over 1300mg. I'm shockingly functional on this potent dissociative; I'll dose 1000mg and the only thing giving away is my lack of depth perception and choppy movements.

I've tried to quit many times, but I'm really addicted to the numbness (physical and emotional) this drug provides me. I've overdosed and passed out, or went catatonic many times and taken many ambulance rides. God knows what consuming all those pills and syrups is doing to my body, but I do know what it's doing to my mental health..

Since starting to abuse DXM I've been hospitalized in a psych hospital at least 6 times. I've begun to hear voices and hallucinate, specifically olfactory hallucinations. It's worsened my natural anxiety and panic attacks. I've started suffering paranoia. And I've developed mild Schizo Affective symptoms.

I can't even say 6 years of steady meth abuse has done all that.
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Are you taking anything to deal with this psychosis?
 
Juicewrldfan said:
Yeah meth and amps in general wreak havoc on my mental health.

MDMA has a built in deterrrent for me. The comedown is much more brutal I think but always depends on dose. One doesn’t do that to me but two will and this was back in the day when doses weren’t so high.
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Meth has probably doneore damage simply because I've been doing it off and on for 25yrs, but the detox off of opiates (heroin) scared me to death. I got picked up on an FTA warrant and kicked in jail with no help! Definitely a mind job!!!
 
Deleted member 567457 said:
For me it was antidepressants (Sertaline and the likes) plus three or so weeks of quetiapine which made my "going through a rough patch" a total hell. And me a compete mess as they switched off my natural techniques to help me survive in the modern social world, and to keep my energy balance. When I was rediagnosed (I am not depressive) I had to do all the taper thing and even then it took me fours years to get back to 3/4 of what I was. Being on that stuff made me almost an invalid.

Now I have a definite benzo dependance, but that's not something I want to quit. Just learning how to manage it so it won't get out of hand and have someday to *really* bother with serious addiction/withdrawals.
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I've been off coke for 12 years & still dream about chopping up a line and snorting it. I was a regular wkend user.
 
paranoid android said:
I have been off coke for 2 fucking years and am still getting fucking coke dreams. I wasent even addicted to the shit i just liked it. The only reason i went as hard as i did on coke for awile was because i didnt have any access to opiates . I think Freud's theory of sublimation comes in here.

The zopiclone stops the dreams altogether though. But im currently out until next week as i have a habit of munching them all
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I was a regular wkend user of cocaine & been off it for 12 years & still dream about racking up & snorting lines. I don't think it will ever stop lol.
 
Juicewrldfan said:
For me I think stimulants are the worst drug to abuse for mental health. Obviously it’s very individual as some can’t take weed even because psychosis.

But stims are so hard to quit if you have a steady supply and they destroy my mental health for days sometimes a week. I have to constantly tell myself it’s the drugs talking. I do t really feel the way the drugs are telling me I’m feeling. It’s usually worse when I binge for a few days.

I quit but relapsed yesterday because I found an old stash by accident and well too hard to say no when right there.
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It was exceedingly hard to accept that I can't touch a drop of alcohol. I wasted years relapsing and suffering worse and worse consequences. I have had one single episode of losing touch with reality, and it was due to a heavy binge followed by abruptly stopping drinking. Was seeing and hearing things and didnt sleep for 7 days. Girlfriend wouldn't let me go grab some beer at the store lest it kick off another binge (which prob would have occurred) Took a friend's K-pin and finally slept.
 
Crack, benzos and opioids. Been addicted to them all.
Crack is more of a psychological addiction.
Where as benzos and opioids and both mental and physical withdrawals.
A special mention fior pregabalin which can be fatal - like benzos to just stop
 
not the worst but i’m realizing after 25 years using it and the past two years not using it regularly….that weed really seems to destroy my mental health in terms of depression and anhedonia
 
doubledog said:
Meth had the worse effect on me, but was not difficult to quit.
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Meth seemed kind of awful the first three times, but after that I dealt with it better.

Never had a habit of any drug, NEP came closest with almost two weeks of daily use.
 
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Dr. John Thackery said:
it’s so strange i took decent doses of pregabalin (100 up to 500 mg) per day for like 5 years and stopped with zero withdrawal whatsoever.
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Were these from the doctor. Interesting that you had no WDs, that’s a biological anomaly. Pregabalin are renown for WDs.
Glad to here that you never got any though!
 
nato23 said:
Were these from the doctor. Interesting that you had no WDs, that’s a biological anomaly. Pregabalin are renown for WDs.
Glad to here that you never got any though!
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yes i was getting them prescribed for pain.

i did remain on opioids after stopping but i know that cannot mask a gabaergic withdrawal.

seriously took the shit daily without skipping a day.


it gives me a dangerously false sense of security that i am resistant towards gabergic dependency when it comes to benzos

i never used benzos much but the past 5 years ive gotten more into them. havnt become dependent but im walking a fine line i feel.

opioids im currently mildly dependent on (1 mg methadone per day to maintain…yes ONE mg)….

but when i get clean off opioids….even just using two days in a row i’ll get withdrawal.
 
Due to consequences, horrible withdrawals, life threatening suicide ideation and easy accessibility alcohol was the hardest for me, but our own private hell is locked down to any substance that we abuse severely

Drugs are fun and life enhancing until it's abused. Addiction is the hardest, trauma inducing condition I have ever dealt with
 
Raina767 said:
Due to consequences, horrible withdrawals, life threatening suicide ideation and easy accessibility alcohol was the hardest for me, but our own private hell is locked down to any substance that we abuse severely

Drugs are fun and life enhancing until it's abused. Addiction is the hardest, trauma inducing condition I have ever dealt with
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how much alcohol does one have to use t actually get dependent on alcohol?

i used to get drunk almost every day for a few years and never got withdrawals either from that.

but i was only drinking at night, not all day (except for two beers at lunch everyday.). those were wild times. i was doing everything full poly drugs use of RCs and opioids all IV
 
I was drinking every waking moment, drinking in the morning just to stop the shakes, pins and needles, sweating and nausea

I was sad mad or bad

Woah you're a trooper! Is this in your 20s and 30s? By my early 40s I knew the death zone had arrived

Was a grunge girl, idolised Courtney Love and with her example, I never done needles, or used opioids recreationally - just a couple of hospital stays

So far I have an off switch for poly drug use, but I know I'm at very high risk of developing another drug addiction so I'm on my best behaviour! Meth is moreish, must be careful with this one
 
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