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Trigger Warning Which drugs have had the worse effect on your mental health that were hardest to quit?

I've got banned from reddit several times. A couple other forums too. One in particular, many times, that ended up IP banning me, then took the liberty to actively vet out new members names and passwords to ban me if anything seemed too similar.

Anyway, I too like this forum.

Also, I wish I could concisely explain the effect of all the drugs I've tried, but I think it ultimately comes down to clear headedness for me. Or judgement as Eryximachus put it.

I wish there were things that had reliable, controllable, and immediate releases of the most pleasurable feelings within my brain. However the best ones I know leave me high and dry
 
social medias commonly have had very serious negative effects on my cognitive abilities and well-being, and that is more serious than effects of many drugs. AT LEAST DRUGS MAKE YOU FEEL GOOD, social media sometimes just make people fucking insane.

Certain cycling forum and bluelight are fucking awesome, because I think they really are communities in which everyone is more or less contributing, more or less consciously, to mutual plot.
 
Opioids, especially Heroin, were the worst to come off physically. Almost at 30 days and I'm still not 100%, although thats likely due to me now weaning down from the codeine I was taking to mitigate some of the symptoms. I know from experience that you do fully recover in time and due to my method this time around I've dragged the process out a little bit - however if I hadnt I'm sure I would have relapsed hard or possibly not have managed to get through the withdrawals at all.

Cannabis was the worst for me, psychologically speaking. Luckily there was no long-term damage but it makes my anxiety worse and caused me to become extremely paranoid for a while. I hate that drug and I just fail to see the recreational value in it (and I gave it many chances in all manner of forms from all over the world), but different strokes for different folks as they tend to say, eh. I know it worked wonders for my father, except when he couldn't get it due to droughts...he was definitely dependent on it in hindsight.

I remember there was a severe drought at the beginning of the pandemic and my father would get sweats and severely depressed/demotivated from not having it. I hated seeing him like that and I pulled every string I could think of to get him some but for months it wasn't happening until eventually some crap weed began coming about which was better than nothing at all, so he felt. He was as dependent on hash as I was on Opioids. I wasn't aware you could get withdrawals like that from hash (and I don't understand the science behind why you would) but I suppose if your body is used to having that substance every day for decades and its abruptly cut off there's going to be some sort of consequence. I've noticed the sweats/hyper-hydrolysis seem to be an almost universal symptom of withdrawals no matter the substance. Ditropan works well for it.
 
Alcohol.
I have tried every type of drug. Stimulant prescription, weed, opioids, benzos and more.
But the sudden craving I can get for alcohol is like a tsunami wave.
And I'm only a beer drinker.
 
Cocaine, meth, and alcohol definitely. All of these drugs basically make me a different person. And the longer I do them, the worse off I become mentally, benzos to some extent too, although there's at least a bit of grace period with those in that I can use then sporadically without a problem. The first three drugs become a problem, generally immediately with any use. Opioids, despite their reputation, are probably the easiest going on my mental health, I don't really get crazy and fucked up from them, even in my lowest points of heroin addiction, I never really did crazy shit to get it or anything. That's just me though and other people certainly have different stories.
 
peachybones said:
Going through withdrawal from this now. It is so brutal. I have clonidine and some benzos. Any other tips?
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Do you have access to kratom or kratom extracts? Have you looked into 7-Hydroxymitragynine? Can you get Loperamide at a pharmacy? Ketamine or Dextromethorphan may help as well if you have a connect. Hard to give advice cause idk where you live. I hope you get well soon!
 
I have been off coke for 2 fucking years and am still getting fucking coke dreams. I wasent even addicted to the shit i just liked it. The only reason i went as hard as i did on coke for awile was because i didnt have any access to opiates . I think Freud's theory of sublimation comes in here.

The zopiclone stops the dreams altogether though. But im currently out until next week as i have a habit of munching them all
 
Juicewrldfan said:
There are a lot of people on high dose methadone. I would think with a proper taper it shouldn’t be too bad? Idk. I only ever got up to 60ml and mostly because I didn’t want to be up high went I got off and I knew I wouldn’t stay on it for life. Driving 30 minutes every morning one way gets annoying and I do not use street opi

Crack can definitely be right up there with the best of them. I know the desire to redose is strong but what saved me with crack is well never was too keen on the pipe. I will not touch a crack pipe ya know I have standards and all that shit lol 😂

Obviously kidding. I was a drug snob at one point tho before I tried crack IV because then it’s just coke right? And coke is for high class people right? Lol

Wrong.

But yeah I know what you mean about not being your best self near the end. Most of us aren’t proud of where drugs take us.

I feel like ANY stims are like that as far as destroying mental health. I was a H addict when it really was H back pre fentanyl. And H never caused near as bad as the depression and self loathing that comes with stim binges and yeah opi can cause depression but ime not near as badly as stims.

Sure occasionally near the end you’d get a slightly tainted batch here and there but not strait fent. And I tried to avoid those batches. Fentanyl is just not a fun drug.
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Years ago, I was on 120mg of methadone. I dropped by 10mg a month, sometimes twice, til I got to 8mg.
I honestly did not find it that bad.

Suboxone is a whole other thing. Totally different for dropping down. So much worse.
 
Opioids. I can never really stop them for good, I have MS.
It's taken away friends and family. Alot of money, career. My self esteem because I'm now an addict
Even when I take my script normally the second I'm stressed I'll take more by IV dumbly enough.
 
alcohol doesn't agree with me too well. Nor do stimulants, but coke in particular is a completely stuffed nose for up to 2 weeks. (not worth the hour buzz at all)

anti-depressants sucked. Oh gosh anti-psychotics would be the worst, I snapped at my doctor for suggesting seroquel. "TF I am not taking a sister drug of thorazine for sleep, thats using a sledge hammer to stop a music box" ... I once got duped into getting a few seroquels as percs; some of them were really percs so I rolled the dice. Ended up at a downhill ski place on seroquel, Eckh

I feel like the things I am addicted to that access is ALOT larger problem than the substances themselves which are relatively benign on the body.
 
If you want to get off coke, quit alcohol. I'm proud of myself for quitting coke but to do it I had to quit drinking. Drinking just begins a series of bad decisions starting with coke.
 
Jen X said:
Opioids. I can never really stop them for good, I have MS.
It's taken away friends and family. Alot of money, career. My self esteem because I'm now an addict
Even when I take my script normally the second I'm stressed I'll take more by IV dumbly enough.
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I don’t think I could handle having an IV able prescription like dilaided.

Last time I was given dilaided I shot the whole bottle.

I have methadone now as a prescription and it’s very easy not to abuse it because it sucks so much as a recreational drug. It gives great pain relief and it lasts so long that I’m able to stock up reserves of it and take less than I’m prescribed and I’m barley even prescribed that much.

For example I was prescribed 40 mg hydrocodone per day. Went through that script at warp speed. A 10 mg methadone per day script I switched to and I have left over methadone every month.

I don’t think I would have the discipline to ask for a switch from something like dilaided to methadone but it’s probably a good thing it was done for me.
 
I refused to take methadone again. When I got off it I was doing fentanyl after 2 weeks of no sleep.
Methadone is great for pain though
 
Of all the drugs I've done in my life, and I've done many, including the big 3 (meth, heroin, cocaine), DXM has been the hardest to quit, and has affected my mental health the most severely. I've kicked all other drugs, including alcohol, but I cannot seem to kick the DXM.

I've been taking it recreationally for 8 years, with a 1 yr break in 2018. I've been a mostly daily user in doses ranging from 600mg to well over 1300mg. I'm shockingly functional on this potent dissociative; I'll dose 1000mg and the only thing giving away is my lack of depth perception and choppy movements.

I've tried to quit many times, but I'm really addicted to the numbness (physical and emotional) this drug provides me. I've overdosed and passed out, or went catatonic many times and taken many ambulance rides. God knows what consuming all those pills and syrups is doing to my body, but I do know what it's doing to my mental health..

Since starting to abuse DXM I've been hospitalized in a psych hospital at least 6 times. I've begun to hear voices and hallucinate, specifically olfactory hallucinations. It's worsened my natural anxiety and panic attacks. I've started suffering paranoia. And I've developed mild Schizo Affective symptoms.

I can't even say 6 years of steady meth abuse has done all that.
 
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