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Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v 12

Invegatorture said:
At 8 months anhedonia had lifted significantly, along with emotions returning. Things rushed back between month 8 to 9 and I had never felt so good in my life at that point physically mentally and spiritually.

LSD may have saved my life. Before taking it i was deeply suicidal and totally hopeless. I experienced an ego death with it which is very rare and it gave me hope. Not sure if it helped my brain physically at all. Tho I have read mushrooms helped some people recover.
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did u recover
 
InvegaAnon said:
I'm feeling my old personality a lot! It still feels fake and lesser though, but that's how things feel when they start coming back in. Damn, I'm fucking annoying.
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question it’s been nearly two years for me and i haven’t recovered, is there still hope
 
It took me two years to recover.

Out of curiosity did you guys hear the lead singer for Blink 182 got forcefully medicated. Theres a qupte by him that "if psychistry is after you then the government is after you"
 
I guess im the outlier here because i was denied medication when i was in the psych ward. I had psychosis and cotards syndrome for 3 months without any meds
 
lukeflowz said:
It’s over for me I’m finished
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That's it we almost finished. Your a little behind me, I'm 6 month and 1 day, I'm starting to feel totally normal, I'm enjoying going to hotel's and getting a fancy breakfast meal. It's not so hard like in the first Days we get injected just hold on a bit longer.
 
silenthill said:
i hope you're able to get your tv soon so you can hopefully reminisce on some nostalgic memories. :)
right now i'm starting with mgs 3 snake eater. it's definitely a unique experience and a pretty difficult series! i'm used to blasting my way through enemies but in this game i can't be that careless... lol
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Ya i want to play it on a tv where i can actually see all the game lol. I still finished the game despite not being able to see half of it. The games are pretty difficult at times but i like stealth games
 
twinpeaks123 said:
what does feeling caffeine feel like? it makes me jittery, I am not sure that’s a good thing
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I felt overstimulated because I usually have very strong coffees as I don't normally feel much after abilify, until now. I find it makes music sound better.
 
lostsoulowen said:
That's it we almost finished. Your a little behind me, I'm 6 month and 1 day, I'm starting to feel totally normal, I'm enjoying going to hotel's and getting a fancy breakfast meal. It's not so hard like in the first Days we get injected just hold on a bit longer.
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I’m honest glad you are recovering quickly, but unfortunately with me my symptoms are progressively getting worse. I feel more restless, anhedonia is real bad, pressure in my head has increased, sex drive is non existent and I have dystonia. I take another antipsychotic and this may be the reason why my recovery is nonexistent/slow. However I remember how I felt on the injections and I also remember how I felt on olanzapine and it was completely different. I took olanzapine for a short time before getting Invega- hence I have a reference to work with.
 
I read invega is associated with Parkinson disease, I have cognitive issues, tremors and loss of sense of smell, how do I know this isn’t Parkinson?
 
lukeflowz said:
I’m honest glad you are recovering quickly, but unfortunately with me my symptoms are progressively getting worse. I feel more restless, anhedonia is real bad, pressure in my head has increased, sex drive is non existent and I have dystonia. I take another antipsychotic and this may be the reason why my recovery is nonexistent/slow. However I remember how I felt on the injections and I also remember how I felt on olanzapine and it was completely different. I took olanzapine for a short time before getting Invega- hence I have a reference to work with.
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Have you told your doctor how you feel?

twinpeaks123 said:
I read invega is associated with Parkinson disease, I have cognitive issues, tremors and loss of sense of smell, how do I know this isn’t Parkinson?
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It can cause pseudo parkinsons yes but thats rare
 
paranoid android said:
Have you told your doctor how you feel?



It can cause pseudo parkinsons yes but thats rare
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I can’t find anyone else that has a reduced sense of smell, it doesn’t seem to be a common side effect of invega, alongside that I have to pee more and I have nerve pain
 
iraistired said:
question it’s been nearly two years for me and i haven’t recovered, is there still hope
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Yes, it's been over two years for me but I got PSSD from an SSRI after my invega injections and that has a lot of symptom crossover. When you have PSSD on top of invega, it's just hell and I didn't really exist for months. I know I've been saying I'm almost normal for like a year now, but it's just sooo sloooww but I know it's still changing. It's like when your game is almost done downloading and it takes longer than you thought it would to download, but it's almost there.
 
paranoid android said:
Have you told your doctor how you feel?



It can cause pseudo parkinsons yes but thats rare
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I most certainly have and I was offered Beta blockers which don’t work and an antidepressant, to which I’m not ready to take as I know there is a chance that will make me worse.
 
anonymoususer777 said:
How was your physical health cooked?
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As a 20 year old undiagnosed with Autism, a doctor got me hooked on XANAX, prescribed 200 1mg tablets aka 50 pills 3 repeats and that was the stary of 10 years of daily benzo dependence

2017, over 9 months i withdrew from Benzos.

However the psychiatrist who treated me prescribed Lyrica and Baclofen, while I was also taking Cymbalta. All 3 of these meds In particular lyrica and baclofen they are specifically CNS central nervous system pain killers.

2018 I started f45 trained for 4 years lost 30 kilos
Then after that did 2 to 3 years weight lifting.

I would use lyrica and baclofen more then prescribed (still within the law) where im from to medicate my anxiety.

Turns out, I was medicating physical pain and tension in my body, that was so bad, i could only process it as "chronic anxiety, chronic fatigue and silent migraines"

Before psychosis i was also taking 5 dexies a day plus medical marijuana, all prescribed.

Medical marijuana was the thing thay finally made me start self massage.

Im September 2024 my body through my own self massage with a variety of tools I had available (thousands of dollars worth of trigger point gear, including shiatsu massage machine, balls and foam rollera) my body came out black anf blue with bruises

I diagnosed myself with autism and joint hypermobility at that time, but my doctors and my family all thought I had lost my fucking mind. The doctors laughed me out the door.

New minute i invited friend over after pretty much everyone said I was crazy, I invited the druggie friend over, he gave me 2 lines of ketamine, welp turned out it was methamphetanine.

So psychosis and then paliperidone and then a year of hell.

Last year I tired hanging myself a few times didn't work, December 2025 I was thinking "well in going ot have to live, how am I going to manage that?" So I started working on my neck again.

Oh sorry side note with all my bruises i had been working with a physiotherapist on my neck since 2023, as i was suffering silent migraines, but with weed i recognised my whole body was in knotts

December 2025 started on my neck, took the handle of a screwdriver and pushed into these HARD clumps in the back of my head that I thought were BONE, they were nerve endings and muscles wound so tight they had turned rock hard. Anyways once I finally unearthed feeling into my neck, I had a cascade of pain from my neck to my lower back. Which I now know was actually Pain all the way into my feet.

No jokes i was so locked up in all my muscles I couldn't interpet pain, just my mind being slowly tortured.

I thi k joint hypermobility shit apparently according to these massage people who are fixing me, used to be known as fibromyalgia. In otherwordq chronic pain throughout the entire body.

See its a connective tissue disorder. Whereby your muscles CONTRACT but dont release tension. So for 7 years I pounded exercise taking these painkillers and fuxked myself so badly.

Anyways it's been 2 months the pain ive been in during that time has sent me up the fucking wall its been traumatic on top of an already traumatic life.

2 sessions later though of this EMS massage, wgoly fucking shit. Im becoming whole again.

Im 6 foot 2 over 110kg, having not done any yoga, I could almost get my legs over my head. The remedial massage people said in the 1940s I'd be a contortionist.

My story is long and complicated this is a quick summary i hope it makes sense.

Definitely sounds like something an Autistic person would do. Fucking ridiculous 😒
 
IOSIP said:
What happened to TonyTonyChopper? Did he lose his mind and get banned or???

Tony if your out there, i hope you recover.
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he is temporary banned for saying something about another user, also I want to ask did your symptoms fluctuate during recovery?
 
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