This post is for anyone who has been using Kratom fairly regularly for at least a year or more, especially for mental health issues like anxiety and/or depression.
So, I've been enjoying it sporadically for about ten years, and it works better than anything else for my anxiety and depression. I'd really like to just make it my medication, but there's a whole bunch of reasons why I feel like this isn't possible for me, so I'd like some realistic opinions on whether or not you think I can learn to work around these issues. I might forget some stuff and come back and repost.
But first, I realize that I'd have to stop using extracts. I've never used 7-OH and plan on never using it, but I LOVE OPMS Black in particular. Plain leaf used to sometimes feel just as good, but unfortunately now I've gotten into this stuff. So yeah, lets pretend I stopped using extracts, since I know it would be necessary.
Here are the problems I've had with Kratom and which I see as being hard to work around:
1) I've never gotten good at tapering (never really tried) and I'm almost completely non-functional when I'm in WD. I'll either get hypersomnia and be sleeping constantly and always tired, or I'll get insomnia and be tired for that reason. Also, the WD lasts longer than it ever used to. It now doesn't show up till like day 4 or 5 and seems to last about 10 days. I'm always just stopping cold turkey and I know if I want to work it into my life I'd have to learn to taper.
I'm thinking I could just let myself get dependent and practice tapering, but is that a good idea? I'm not sure it is...
2) Do you guys feel like the longer you've been dependent the worse the WDs are, or is there a part where it sort of evens out? Like, the most days I've ever taken it in a row is 17, and I didn't find the WD to be worse than when I take it for like 5 days in a row. Cause if the longer you take it the worse the WDs get, to the extent that like, say, if you've taken it 2 months in a row you're going to have MUCH worse WD that lasts weeks, then that's no bueno.
3) I usually can't sleep unless it's worn off like 5 hours prior to bedtime. This is a problem most don't have. A lot of people say they can't sleep WITHOUT taking it. However, for some weird reason like a few months ago I had a couple days where it didn't cause that problem. I don't know why, but this is hard to work around. Any advice?
4) I don't want bad long term effects. Like, I'll openly admit that I've developed some bladder issues where I wake up to piss like 3 times a night, and SOME people have theorized that this is because of Kratom and that it damages the bladder. There are posts on here where people say that it does this, but does it really? Could my bladder issues be unrelated? (And it's NOT BPH. I've had it checked with a urologist).
I just don't want to find out some day that I've got weird issues cause of it, but then again, all drugs have side effects. I'm dependent on Klonopin which is more addictive and know I'll have to get off someday. But Kratom has like over 50 alkaloids and we just don't know what they do.
5) I'm afraid of doctors finding out I use it and that I could need drugs that interact negatively. I refuse to tell any doctor I have used Kratom. This is especially the case cause I got a prescription for naltrexone years ago in order to be able to force myself to take breaks, and it works really well so long as I make sure that I am COMPLETELY through the WD before taking it because obviously you can get precipitated WD.
I now somewhat regret that doctors can see on my chart that I am prescribed it. If anyone ever asks (I've only been asked like once or twice) I'd say it's for alcohol and that my alcohol problems are now under control. That way IF they were considering prescribing an opiate for pain they wouldn't necessarily deny me, but that is a concern, especially cause I do martial arts and have had several injuries and I know I'm gonna have arthritis in my knees and I also have cervical disk disease in my neck.
So yeah, Kratom use is less the issue if I am not ALWAYS dependent like right now, but I could see it being an issue if I can't get off it and I'm questioned by doctors in a situation where i might need their help for something that could interact negatively with Kratom.
6) It's always being banned in different states. I've stocked up, but for some reason most of what I have isn't that effective, which is odd since I bought those kilos from a vendor that was ranked as like #3 in the US. But I don't like the idea of being dependent on it and knowing it could suddenly be taken away.
7) I do martial arts like BJJ, and that has caused me to develop cervical disk disease in my neck. I get neck pain daily and do PT 5 days a week, and I've only done BJJ while on kratom a select number of times. It's never been an issue, but my concern is that I could potentially be less aware of what does and doesn't hurt and push myself too hard and get another injury.
Do you guys think that's likely or do you think Kratom isn't SUCH a strong pain killer that usually if I was doing something that really hurt too much that I'd realize and stop doing that particular movement?
Anyway, those are most of my concerns. I'm thinking I could try an experiment where I just let myself become dependent on Kratom (Only plain leaf so I'd have to stop extracts and get my tolerance down) and then practice tapering off. I'm thinking that maybe if I became super confident in tapering and felt that I could function ok while in the middle of a taper that I'd be less concerned about dependency.
Cause when a good dose of Kratom hits it's like I barely even have anxiety or depression. I feel like I'd be capable of so much more in life because of how much it improves my state of mind.
But no matter how many times I hope that I can pull it off, each time I get dependent on Kratom I inevitably find out that it stops working, I then stop and go into WD, and that it just doesn't work as a daily medication for me. The analgesic pain killing effects will continue to work, but the mood boost just doesn't.
At the very least I will enjoy it from time to time, but it's so frustrating not being able to just use it medicinally. Maybe I just haven't tried hard enough to become confident in tapering and functioning while on a taper. That would certainly help.
Any thoughts/advice would be appreciated.
So, I've been enjoying it sporadically for about ten years, and it works better than anything else for my anxiety and depression. I'd really like to just make it my medication, but there's a whole bunch of reasons why I feel like this isn't possible for me, so I'd like some realistic opinions on whether or not you think I can learn to work around these issues. I might forget some stuff and come back and repost.
But first, I realize that I'd have to stop using extracts. I've never used 7-OH and plan on never using it, but I LOVE OPMS Black in particular. Plain leaf used to sometimes feel just as good, but unfortunately now I've gotten into this stuff. So yeah, lets pretend I stopped using extracts, since I know it would be necessary.
Here are the problems I've had with Kratom and which I see as being hard to work around:
1) I've never gotten good at tapering (never really tried) and I'm almost completely non-functional when I'm in WD. I'll either get hypersomnia and be sleeping constantly and always tired, or I'll get insomnia and be tired for that reason. Also, the WD lasts longer than it ever used to. It now doesn't show up till like day 4 or 5 and seems to last about 10 days. I'm always just stopping cold turkey and I know if I want to work it into my life I'd have to learn to taper.
I'm thinking I could just let myself get dependent and practice tapering, but is that a good idea? I'm not sure it is...
2) Do you guys feel like the longer you've been dependent the worse the WDs are, or is there a part where it sort of evens out? Like, the most days I've ever taken it in a row is 17, and I didn't find the WD to be worse than when I take it for like 5 days in a row. Cause if the longer you take it the worse the WDs get, to the extent that like, say, if you've taken it 2 months in a row you're going to have MUCH worse WD that lasts weeks, then that's no bueno.
3) I usually can't sleep unless it's worn off like 5 hours prior to bedtime. This is a problem most don't have. A lot of people say they can't sleep WITHOUT taking it. However, for some weird reason like a few months ago I had a couple days where it didn't cause that problem. I don't know why, but this is hard to work around. Any advice?
4) I don't want bad long term effects. Like, I'll openly admit that I've developed some bladder issues where I wake up to piss like 3 times a night, and SOME people have theorized that this is because of Kratom and that it damages the bladder. There are posts on here where people say that it does this, but does it really? Could my bladder issues be unrelated? (And it's NOT BPH. I've had it checked with a urologist).
I just don't want to find out some day that I've got weird issues cause of it, but then again, all drugs have side effects. I'm dependent on Klonopin which is more addictive and know I'll have to get off someday. But Kratom has like over 50 alkaloids and we just don't know what they do.
5) I'm afraid of doctors finding out I use it and that I could need drugs that interact negatively. I refuse to tell any doctor I have used Kratom. This is especially the case cause I got a prescription for naltrexone years ago in order to be able to force myself to take breaks, and it works really well so long as I make sure that I am COMPLETELY through the WD before taking it because obviously you can get precipitated WD.
I now somewhat regret that doctors can see on my chart that I am prescribed it. If anyone ever asks (I've only been asked like once or twice) I'd say it's for alcohol and that my alcohol problems are now under control. That way IF they were considering prescribing an opiate for pain they wouldn't necessarily deny me, but that is a concern, especially cause I do martial arts and have had several injuries and I know I'm gonna have arthritis in my knees and I also have cervical disk disease in my neck.
So yeah, Kratom use is less the issue if I am not ALWAYS dependent like right now, but I could see it being an issue if I can't get off it and I'm questioned by doctors in a situation where i might need their help for something that could interact negatively with Kratom.
6) It's always being banned in different states. I've stocked up, but for some reason most of what I have isn't that effective, which is odd since I bought those kilos from a vendor that was ranked as like #3 in the US. But I don't like the idea of being dependent on it and knowing it could suddenly be taken away.
7) I do martial arts like BJJ, and that has caused me to develop cervical disk disease in my neck. I get neck pain daily and do PT 5 days a week, and I've only done BJJ while on kratom a select number of times. It's never been an issue, but my concern is that I could potentially be less aware of what does and doesn't hurt and push myself too hard and get another injury.
Do you guys think that's likely or do you think Kratom isn't SUCH a strong pain killer that usually if I was doing something that really hurt too much that I'd realize and stop doing that particular movement?
Anyway, those are most of my concerns. I'm thinking I could try an experiment where I just let myself become dependent on Kratom (Only plain leaf so I'd have to stop extracts and get my tolerance down) and then practice tapering off. I'm thinking that maybe if I became super confident in tapering and felt that I could function ok while in the middle of a taper that I'd be less concerned about dependency.
Cause when a good dose of Kratom hits it's like I barely even have anxiety or depression. I feel like I'd be capable of so much more in life because of how much it improves my state of mind.
But no matter how many times I hope that I can pull it off, each time I get dependent on Kratom I inevitably find out that it stops working, I then stop and go into WD, and that it just doesn't work as a daily medication for me. The analgesic pain killing effects will continue to work, but the mood boost just doesn't.
At the very least I will enjoy it from time to time, but it's so frustrating not being able to just use it medicinally. Maybe I just haven't tried hard enough to become confident in tapering and functioning while on a taper. That would certainly help.
Any thoughts/advice would be appreciated.
