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Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v11

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lostsoulowen said:
I'm taking super strong antibiotics that will remove the posion i hope i feel better.
What do you feel? You feel exactly the same as the start? If so i think it's shock pstd cause i feel different every week.
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My emotions are severely restricted and thinking is very dull. I can HARDLY feel joy motivation and happiness,nostalgia
 
I cant overome the fact that people here decide the fate of your life based on whatever is going on in their brains. Your own brain is not allowed to be incharge of your life. You have no true freedom or control over your own life. I tried my best to accomodate all these people, going as far as not even looking their way. I respect the right to individual freedom for all these people who trapped me and which led to my injections. But they never respected my individuality or freedom, instead they decided that i belonged in a certain box, unless they saw me there they were not happy. These injections and my life is a result of pure human stupidity and their desire to control my fate. I was never a threat to anyone, instead its the people who got me into this situation that deserve to be injected.
 
4 months and 19 days feel better today. I'm flying to Europe, i went with my family for shopping for cold clothing. I felt ok traveling and shopping today, like i could feel 1-2 precent dopamine. Now ordering expensive sushi and i feel i have a bit more of desires wants.
 
I forgot what life before anhedonia was, when I watch clips of movies, I can’t tell if I am enjoying it or if I am still anhedonic, anyone else feel like this? I can still enjoy music though
 
twinpeaks123 said:
I forgot what life before anhedonia was, when I watch clips of movies, I can’t tell if I am enjoying it or if I am still anhedonic, anyone else feel like this? I can still enjoy music though
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I’ll give you 2 USD to listen to my album within the next 12 hours
 
I cannot accept that the psychiatrist who had me injected only did it because he had an opportunity to end my life. He had no legitimate reason to do this.
 
I think I’m having a window as you guys call it… I had 2 coffees today and my vyvanse and I feel very amped up. And earlier I was just sitting around and I felt good, like I realized it’s been a while since I felt genuinely bad.
 
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