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🤝 Cultural 🤝 What Was Your Morning Fix v. Hit The Bottle & Go Right To The Rock

KetWise said:
I used to shoot with 2,5ml syringes 2x100mg you always get lesss than whats in the pill there was a report that you loose a fair bit in the process. sterifilter are best
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Sterifilt micron filters is what i use to but the needle exchange no longer fuckin has them. Ive never used the bigger syringes im so used to insulin syringes i dont know if i could use any other kind
 
paranoid android said:
Sterifilt micron filters is what i use to but the needle exchange no longer fuckin has them. Ive never used the bigger syringes im so used to insulin syringes i dont know if i could use any other kind
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Yeah I got no access to all of that either anymore and frankly dont try the bigger syringes because then you get used to and make much bigger shots with 26G. I knew some people shooting with 5ML . Its tricky but to shoot morphine I would never use insulin its too small for me. I keep insulin for coke or stims. Its good if you can stay on 60 its impressive
 
KetWise said:
Yeah I got no access to all of that either anymore and frankly dont try the bigger syringes because then you get used to and make much bigger shots with 26G. I knew some people shooting with 5ML . Its tricky but to shoot morphine I would never use insulin its too small for me. I keep insulin for coke or stims. Its good if you can stay on 60 its impressive
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Ya im not even addicted to morphine at the moment so i havent got much tolerance. Wish i could get more sterilt filters though
 
paranoid android said:
What is DHC like? It doesent exist on this side of the pond. I get prescribed morphine and gabapentin but i cannot drink on opiates at all. I do like a drink when im off opiates but when im on them im a total teetotaler except maybe for a pint of Guinness or 2. Alcohol just turns my stomach when im on opiates
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DHC is basically just codeine on steroids… low-level steroids anyway. You don’t need as much as codeine phosphate to feel and it is marginally less over-itchy at “recreational” levels.

I am sadly a degenerate drinker due to paucity of real drugs so booze goes hand in hand with everything for me. Stronger opiates - or just better drugs in general - keep a lid for n the drinking but this low-level stuff is more a case of it all adding up to something worthwhile…

Speaking of which, tonight it’s just 180mg DHC and some booze. I’ll no doubt add a few hundred mg if gabapentin before bed (helps with my restless legs) but mostly a quiet night in.
 
Another unsatisfying cigarette after my 3 month long nicotine break, yet I will probably smoke more later. Why? I dont know, such is the nature of an addict 🤷‍♂️

Ill start ”liking” them once Im addicted again, stupid 👎🏼
 
no opiates or opioids i swear its tricky
5mg dexamphetamine
550mg pregabline
20mg diazepam
50mg oxazepam
few joints
 
Just IV'd 0.1g of meth(ice) almost the second I woke up as I've been on it the last few days and much higher doses and it's been causing me to feel horribly depressed the next day, not only because that's what meth does but I've had a very traumatic breakup with the love of my life(due to drugs). I didn't feel bad this morning though.

Last night I rang a 24/7 counsellor. Cleaned my house properly, did a bunch of things I'd been putting off for weeks. And I think that's contributed greatly to my mindset.

I have 5mg ethylbromazolam pressed xanax and will take 7.5mg when the good part of the meth is done. No heroin today. Might be able to get some cannabis of which I'm a very rare smoker. Much prefer edibles so that might be an option.

Going to enjoy this while I can.
 
Already had a shot of heroin this morning and 10mg ethylbromazolam.

I've been waiting for these(I'm starting to wonder if they are full on retarded) girls to come to get some smack with me since 11pm last night and it's now 6am.

At around 4am I got a msg saying can we come now and I said nope, I just got stuff for me, you two can go fuck yourselves. Which felt incredibly satisfying. But then I demanded theyvgive me 5 alprazolam pills(not xanax) or they can find theirs elsewhere(which I know they can't do) so eventually they caved even though they were hesitant.

So I'm sitting here at the shop, waiting for them to pick me up. And I have a pretty strong feeling they are going to try to rob me and I'm kind of ready and a little excited coz I have nothing to lose. So I'm sort of waiting for some guy to jump out of the car and try me and I am going to absolutely destroy any human in my way and take their money if they try me lol or get the shit beaten out of me but if that happens then it will take my mind off my psychological and mental problems. I'm not too worried. And you know how benzos are, I really couldn't care less what happens.
If I get what I'm entitled to great, uf I get to fuck some people up, get a couple hundred bux and some fake xanax, GREAT! And if I end up in hospital, broken with no recollection of what happened then that's great too.
I'm thinking positive and manifesting good things lol

Fuck the world! Nothing is real anyway.
 
Black coffee ☕️
Nic vape
Normal boring scripts
400mg gabapentin
31mg methadone
50mg testosterone IM*
and maybe a couple hits of weed otw out the door to work.

Ugh, getting to the nitty gritty and starting to feel these taper drops for real. Down to 62mg daily now, from 170. But today was the second in a row I woke up dead lol, had to take my methadone and lay back down for about 45 minutes, now fit to face the world. Kinda. 😉

* Technically the test was last night as soon as I got home from the pharmacy, but Monday and Thursdays will be my regular dosing days. Had chronic documented low t, but an interruption in my TRT has lasted over the last year plus. Hoping to see the initial energy and mood benefits here in the next week or two, fucks sake do I need it badly lol.

Stay safe, have fun out there. ✌️ ❤️
 
the_ketaman said:
Already had a shot of heroin this morning and 10mg ethylbromazolam.

I've been waiting for these(I'm starting to wonder if they are full on retarded) girls to come to get some smack with me since 11pm last night and it's now 6am.

At around 4am I got a msg saying can we come now and I said nope, I just got stuff for me, you two can go fuck yourselves. Which felt incredibly satisfying. But then I demanded theyvgive me 5 alprazolam pills(not xanax) or they can find theirs elsewhere(which I know they can't do) so eventually they caved even though they were hesitant.

So I'm sitting here at the shop, waiting for them to pick me up. And I have a pretty strong feeling they are going to try to rob me and I'm kind of ready and a little excited coz I have nothing to lose. So I'm sort of waiting for some guy to jump out of the car and try me and I am going to absolutely destroy any human in my way and take their money if they try me lol or get the shit beaten out of me but if that happens then it will take my mind off my psychological and mental problems. I'm not too worried. And you know how benzos are, I really couldn't care less what happens.
If I get what I'm entitled to great, uf I get to fuck some people up, get a couple hundred bux and some fake xanax, GREAT! And if I end up in hospital, broken with no recollection of what happened then that's great too.
I'm thinking positive and manifesting good things lol

Fuck the world! Nothing is real anyway.
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Honestly in the same fucking mood but on speed. Had an absolute blast of a k-hole last night, combination with the 2-mmc was lovely, but again zero sleep.

So far today:

- 3, 4?? Idk just lines of speed

Reached the level of sleep deprivation of constant auditory hallucinations of sirens, footsteps, murmuring voices and wasps inside the walls of my room.

At this point we just going with it. Started off pissed as I genuinely tried to sleep after k-hole, but ended up the type of stoned where I was talking to myself inside my head like a podcast.

Then freaked out because I was supposed to have a driving lesson this morning and my body was falling asleep while feeling like I was having a heart attack at the same time. So of course I solved this simple issue with a bit of speed.

Fucking driving instructor didn’t show up, pissed I got all panicked and awake for nothing, did like 3 more lines of speed and now I am laying in bed feeling great.

Love the ADHD brain chemistry of solving a near panic attack with speed.

Part of me feels sad about deceiving my family, other part finds it insanely hilarious how my mom hardly allowing me to go out just has me doing even more drugs than I would if I could just go to raves and feel alive and see my friends on a semi-regular basis.

well anyways, idk what to do with today. Hate being home with my mom alone. Can never tell when my paranoia of her finding out about my use is grounded in reality, like there is no fucking way that almost 4 years of daily drug use have gone unnoticed except for 1 cigarette and half a joint. But then if she figured it out, why doesn’t she drug test me or search my room? Is she truly THAT oblivious or should I win an award for my amazing acting skills?

Tired. Bones hurt. Secretly hope my body gives up, but despite the chronic illness and years of trying to starve away, this stubborn piece of flesh somehow keeps rattling onward.
 
Sp4rky said:
Honestly in the same fucking mood but on speed. Had an absolute blast of a k-hole last night, combination with the 2-mmc was lovely, but again zero sleep.

So far today:

- 3, 4?? Idk just lines of speed

Reached the level of sleep deprivation of constant auditory hallucinations of sirens, footsteps, murmuring voices and wasps inside the walls of my room.

At this point we just going with it. Started off pissed as I genuinely tried to sleep after k-hole, but ended up the type of stoned where I was talking to myself inside my head like a podcast.

Then freaked out because I was supposed to have a driving lesson this morning and my body was falling asleep while feeling like I was having a heart attack at the same time. So of course I solved this simple issue with a bit of speed.

Fucking driving instructor didn’t show up, pissed I got all panicked and awake for nothing, did like 3 more lines of speed and now I am laying in bed feeling great.

Love the ADHD brain chemistry of solving a near panic attack with speed.

Part of me feels sad about deceiving my family, other part finds it insanely hilarious how my mom hardly allowing me to go out just has me doing even more drugs than I would if I could just go to raves and feel alive and see my friends on a semi-regular basis.

well anyways, idk what to do with today. Hate being home with my mom alone. Can never tell when my paranoia of her finding out about my use is grounded in reality, like there is no fucking way that almost 4 years of daily drug use have gone unnoticed except for 1 cigarette and half a joint. But then if she figured it out, why doesn’t she drug test me or search my room? Is she truly THAT oblivious or should I win an award for my amazing acting skills?

Tired. Bones hurt. Secretly hope my body gives up, but despite the chronic illness and years of trying to starve away, this stubborn piece of flesh somehow keeps rattling onward.
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Ouff brother take care and get some sleep soon, try to get some antipsychotics they will knock you right out. Youre at the point where 1 or 2 more days without sleep will send you over the edge into full psychosis, and then you will definetly get caught using
 
I have been lowering my opiate tolerance for the last week. Today I finally tried an opioid other than just powdered kratom and Memantine so I am just on
.09 g of Mitragynine freebase.
It's interesting how even though opioids really aren't all that strong in terms of high for me, the mild warmth in my chest and subtle feeling of self-acceptance has got to be the most beautiful and addictive passing feeling in my life. If only real love we're so simple as this.
Probably also take a little guarana and muira puama too cause it -3 here and the sun hasn't shown fully through the clouds in a week. God do we need some dopamine over here.
 
TheLightBringer said:
Ouff brother take care and get some sleep soon, try to get some antipsychotics they will knock you right out. Youre at the point where 1 or 2 more days without sleep will send you over the edge into full psychosis, and then you will definetly get caught using
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Can’t get my hands on those, although I might be able to at some point in the future, since I’m finally getting back into mental health treatment I suppose

Ended up taking 5mg diazepam and vaping some high CBD weed, which made me able to eat some lunch and got into a bit more of a ‘damn maybe I need to start taking care of myself to some extend at least’ type of mood

Then my body said fuck you I guess, because I ended up throwing up for hours on end. Part chronic illness, but can’t lie and say that the drugs definitely didn’t help, especially with the speed being cut to shit with caffeine.

Definitely tired as fuck now. Haven’t felt this physically weak since my eating disorder days, still nauseous as fuck. Hate it here.
 
Weird, but pleasant morning. Currently stuck at my grandparents house. They’re discussing how to deal with my 14 year old cousin who got found by the police on a crazy dose of xtc.

Meanwhile I’m eating valium, snorting K and hitting my weed vape. This family is mentally fucked I fear. Or just this generation, idk.

Uhh anyways, so far today:

- 17.5mg diazepam orally
- bump of K
- bunch of high CBD, 8% thc weed

Feeling very nice and chilled tf out. Had such a vivid dream about opiates last night, love having my brain run through every way I could possibly get some again only to come up empty .—. Might be needing major health related surgeries soon though, will be begging for that IV morphine or some tramadol prescriptions for sure.

Hope y’all having a decent start of the day :) Do miss the speed, but enjoying some peace and being unproductive as fuck right now.
 
Lazy morning around the house. 😎 🌄

Work later, but that's later so taking it easy for now. Maybe a nap after lunch. 👍

Coffee ☕️
Nic vape - Fcuking Fab flavor lol, something similar to a Blow Pop flavor I guess but without the gum
Normal boring scripts
29mg methadone
.4mg clonidine
Nice little sesh on some Trainwreck with the new bub I picked up yesterday. Probably some dabs soon, Cereal Milk live resin crumble.

✌️ ❤️
 
Morning, peeps. 😎 🌄

Same old same old, breakfast of champions and all that. 😉

Coffee ☕️
Nicotine vape
Normal boring scripts
29mg methadone
1.5g lion's mane
And a couple bongs of Colombia Gold to start the day. 👍

Stoked to have today and tomorrow off, family is in town for the holidays and going out with them here in a few. Good times.

Stay safe, make merry. ✌️ ❤️
 
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