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Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v11

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Yesterday I was watching a sad romantic video and I could feel sad after watching it and cried. This doesn’t happen usually and could connect to the emotions it was making me feel . I still cant have much happy emotions. I really wish I can heal from this. The last few days I am thinking less about suicide everyday like I would usually.
 
paranoid android said:
My advice would be to try and get the fuck out of that place asap. Honestly the trauma i got from the psych ward was the worst. Im still dealing with it because i have PTSD and insomnia from the psych ward. Though it has gotten alot better both shrooms and ketamine helped alot. The doctors and shrinks in the psych ward are also the worst i didnt even get a asprin for 3 months. It took 3 months for me to get a new shrink in there and finally get put on invega which i was actually greatful for as i had psychosis and cotards syndrome.

But ya you may have to go along with doctors abit to get out of there. Above all else try and remain calm even though dealing with some of the idiot doctors in there is like dealing with children. The first shrink i had in there diagosed me and atleast 2 other people weith weed psychosis. Despite the fact that i had been smoking weed since i was 12 and still do wth no problems. My new shrink however is rather pro weed and says if it helps my ptsd and pain go for it.

The shrinks they usually have in the psych ward are generally the worst of the worst. Most of them wont prescribe anything fun like benzos or z drugs. Noone would willingly go to them so they work inpatient instead. The shrink i lucked into in there only came in because i was not getting along with my shrink at all. Also my brother was a lawyer which probably helped.

Can you order in takeout there? We used to order in pizza and smoke cigs and weed until lights out at 10. With all that it wasent unbearable in there though you stll dont want to be in there unless your homeless like alot of people in there where. Those people i felt really bad for because for them that was better then they usually had it. They didnt have a house, a laptop, weed, hash, beer, liquor and homemade food to go home to
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Can’t belive this psychiatryst betrayed me and did this to be, obviously it dint make a forced stay against me because he wanted to help me because i’am sure he know very well that this won’t help me in any way.. From what I understood they cannot force me into any meds if i keep being calm and “normal”
 
quick update: massive wave of anhedonia came today. the effect is less than before, but it still made an impact.
 
RisperdalConsta50mg said:
Can’t belive this psychiatryst betrayed me and did this to be, obviously it dint make a forced stay against me because he wanted to help me because i’am sure he know very well that this won’t help me in any way.. From what I understood they cannot force me into any meds if i keep being calm and “normal”
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To be honest im not surprised a shrink lied to you. I wouldnt have trusted that one i had in the psych ward as far as i could throw her. Im not even sure if mentioning your anhedonia or anything would even help you in this case as its not like a inpatient shrink is going to know alot either way much less actually want to help you. The vast majority just dont care. Im so glad i found one that gave a fuck or i might still be psychotic and locked up.

My advice is to just act chill and mind your own business. Im not sure if they can force you to take meds there or not but sadly they can here. The mental health care system is fucked. Granted i would have gladly have taken any antipsychotic at all when i actually had psychosis. Fuck that shit gave me so much trauma
 
RisperdalConsta50mg said:
Can’t belive this psychiatryst betrayed me and did this to be, obviously it dint make a forced stay against me because he wanted to help me because i’am sure he know very well that this won’t help me in any way.. From what I understood they cannot force me into any meds if i keep being calm and “normal”
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Be careful with that, not taking meds might have them label you as non-compliant and have them want to force injection. That’s pretty much what happened to me… I wasn’t bothering anyone, didn’t hurt anyone, was kind and calm but refusing meds then they ended up telling me if I want to go home I have to get injected so lesson I learnt from that was to just take the meds in the hospital if I’m ever there again.
 
demileigh said:
Be careful with that, not taking meds might have them label you as non-compliant and have them want to force injection. That’s pretty much what happened to me… I wasn’t bothering anyone, didn’t hurt anyone, was kind and calm but refusing meds then they ended up telling me if I want to go home I have to get injected so lesson I learnt from that was to just take the meds in the hospital if I’m ever there again.
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Well but I can’t take nonsense meds like antipsychotics or antidepressants since i’am not psychotic neither depressed, like i don’t take diabetes meds since i don’t have diabetes or i don’t do cancer treatment since i don’t have cancer, i don’t want to harm my brain with taking psych drugs, i already says that a lot of times.
 
At least at my home i can sleep until 6AM, in this psych ward i waked up at 3AM and i don’t sleep anymore, this is surely what I DONT need instead of what I need (the forced stay at the psych ward i mean).

This is only free stress and worrying and sleep deprivation, i don’t know how this can help me in any ways..
 
demileigh said:
Be careful with that, not taking meds might have them label you as non-compliant and have them want to force injection. That’s pretty much what happened to me… I wasn’t bothering anyone, didn’t hurt anyone, was kind and calm but refusing meds then they ended up telling me if I want to go home I have to get injected so lesson I learnt from that was to just take the meds in the hospital if I’m ever there again.
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I think some of the shrinks in there i swear to god only give you antipsychotics if you dont need them. I very clearly needed a antipsychotic nut yet i didnt get one for 3 long months in there. That was literal torture

RisperdalConsta50mg said:
Well but I can’t take nonsense meds like antipsychotics or antidepressants since i’am not psychotic neither depressed, like i don’t take diabetes meds since i don’t have diabetes or i don’t do cancer treatment since i don’t have cancer, i don’t want to harm my brain with taking psych drugs, i already says that a lot of times.
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Heres a long shot but maybe tell the shrink the truth. Tell them you have anhedonia and akathisia caused by the invega. Granted i realy dont know how some of their minds work
 
RisperdalConsta50mg said:
At least at my home i can sleep until 6AM, in this psych ward i waked up at 3AM and i don’t sleep anymore, this is surely what I DONT need instead of what I need (the forced stay at the psych ward i mean).

This is only free stress and worrying and sleep deprivation, i don’t know how this can help me in any ways..
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I dont think anyone is going to argue that the psych ward actualy helps anyone. Really unless your homicidal or suicidal you shouldnt be kept in their against yur will
 
RisperdalConsta50mg said:
Well but I can’t take nonsense meds like antipsychotics or antidepressants since i’am not psychotic neither depressed, like i don’t take diabetes meds since i don’t have diabetes or i don’t do cancer treatment since i don’t have cancer, i don’t want to harm my brain with taking psych drugs, i already says that a lot of times.
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I understand where you’re coming from but if you are spending a week in there, I would advise to take whatever drugs they offer you to keep them off your back and to avoid any forced injections… pills come out of your system faster than injections and you’re going through enough as it is so do what you need to do to avoid an injection… then if they send you home with pills just don’t take them. Most of the time the drugs they give you knock you out anyway so you could just get as much sleep in as possible and get the week over and done with and hopefully be home to your cat as soon as possible. That’s just my advice anyway
 
demileigh said:
I understand where you’re coming from but if you are spending a week in there, I would advise to take whatever drugs they offer you to keep them off your back and to avoid any forced injections… pills come out of your system faster than injections and you’re going through enough as it is so do what you need to do to avoid an injection… then if they send you home with pills just don’t take them. Most of the time the drugs they give you knock you out anyway so you could just get as much sleep in as possible and get the week over and done with and hopefully be home to your cat as soon as possible. That’s just my advice anyway
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I agree take the pills then you wont give them a excuse to put you on injections. Also you dont want them to mark you down as a difficult patient d gie them a excuse to extend your stay
 
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Another important facet is don’t tell them about the Risperdal Damage. If what you say aligns with what the doctor has wrote, and you continue to say it you’ll be kept there longer. Granted there’s a small possibility one of the psychiatrists there believes you and gets you help, but in general don’t tell any of the psychiatrists there about the Risperdal Consta damage. @RisperdalConsta50mg
 
Trueart2 said:
Another important facet is don’t tell them about the Risperdal Damage. If what you say aligns with what the doctor has wrote, and you continue to say it you’ll be kept there longer. Granted there’s a small possibility one of the psychiatrists there believes you and gets you help, but in general don’t tell any of the psychiatrists there about the Risperdal Consta damage. @RisperdalConsta50mg
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I already did….
 
RisperdalConsta50mg said:
I already did….
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You have two choices now:

1. Continue saying it’s the consta that damaged you hoping that someone in the facility believes you. The probability is extreme my low, as you’ve already been admitted into a crazy person hospital and even if they do the nature of the psych ward is temporary. They’re meant to get you in and out within weeks is a purely transactional facility in which you stay for a little bit and leave, it’s extremely doubtful that anything of permanent use will come from you telling them.

Option 2: you can just ignore it and whenever they bring it up just say you aren’t interested in talking about it anymore and your only goal is to have the ability to leave the facility. This set the standard for them consciously know one your goal is to leave and sets precedent that you aren’t repeating what you were medically held there for. There’s a chance for as long as you continue to utter the Consta damage they may view you as manic/psychotic and keep you there for a longer period of time.

I’m not saying what happened to you isn’t real and you should just ignore it forever, but in your current circumstances acknowledging it won’t do you any good nor will it bring justice to yourself. It’s likely to just keep you there longer and longer, you probably aren’t at danger of being kept there for a month+ but you could just straight up ask them if you kept talking about Consta will you be kept there longer. If they go round about answer then you know they’re keeping you for that reason
 
Trueart2 said:
You have two choices now:

1. Continue saying it’s the consta that damaged you hoping that someone in the facility believes you. The probability is extreme my low, as you’ve already been admitted into a crazy person hospital and even if they do the nature of the psych ward is temporary. They’re meant to get you in and out within weeks is a purely transactional facility in which you stay for a little bit and leave, it’s extremely doubtful that anything of permanent use will come from you telling them.

Option 2: you can just ignore it and whenever they bring it up just say you aren’t interested in talking about it anymore and your only goal is to have the ability to leave the facility. This set the standard for them consciously know one your goal is to leave and sets precedent that you aren’t repeating what you were medically held there for. There’s a chance for as long as you continue to utter the Consta damage they may view you as manic/psychotic and keep you there for a longer period of time.

I’m not saying what happened to you isn’t real and you should just ignore it forever, but in your current circumstances acknowledging it won’t do you any good nor will it bring justice to yourself. It’s likely to just keep you there longer and longer, you probably aren’t at danger of being kept there for a month+ but you could just straight up ask them if you kept talking about Consta will you be kept there longer. If they go round about answer then you know they’re keeping you for that reason
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Honestly i don’t care anymore, my life ended 17 months ago, since then i’am just into agony.. They can do whatever they want to me, i don’t care.. I’am tired of fighting against that shit and I can’t do it no more, they wanted my life and they took it from me, 17 months ago.

And it’s ok, because nobody cryied my loss, everybody just continued his life like nothing it’s happened to me, i’am not important to no one and this was my fate.
 
RisperdalConsta50mg said:
Honestly i don’t care anymore, my life ended 17 months ago, since then i’am just into agony.. They can do whatever they want to me, i don’t care.. I’am tired of fighting against that shit and I can’t do it no more, they wanted my life and they took it from me, 17 months ago.

And it’s ok, because nobody cryied my loss, everybody just continued his life like nothing it’s happened to me, i’am not important to no one and this was my fate.
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Don't give up yet. You still haven't tried drugs
 
RisperdalConsta50mg said:
Honestly i don’t care anymore, my life ended 17 months ago, since then i’am just into agony.. They can do whatever they want to me, i don’t care.. I’am tired of fighting against that shit and I can’t do it no more, they wanted my life and they took it from me, 17 months ago.

And it’s ok, because nobody cryied my loss, everybody just continued his life like nothing it’s happened to me, i’am not important to no one and this was my fate.
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Dont give up dude youl be ok
 
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