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Pfafffed said:
I prefer it. I don't think I'll take it orally again. That said, the onset rectally is fast, so that's not the way to go if you want to ease into it
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My only doses are unfortunately in capsules with pill filler, so I don't think I have a choice in terms of 1) Having to ingest tons of pill filler, which will be unpleasant with any non-oral RoA, & 2) Not being able to reduce the dose for other RoAs
 
xdrc said:
While yesterday's trip was good - not great - and I felt very refreshed, there was still a sense of something lacking. Against better judgement, I decided to ingest 36 mg of 2C-C today. I suspected this may not be the brightest of ideas, but on the other hand, it's only 2C-C, how bad can it be? It would also be pretty interesting to find out how much tolerance 2C-T-2 is building, right? Well, 2C-C is typically entirely devoid of any bodyload whatsoever for me. Not so this time. It disapproved heavily of tripping too often by giving me the hardest stomach cramps. Worse than I ever had on 2C-E, but fortunately without the cosmic weight (mentally, it was entirely unchallenging and tame, as always). I seriously considered bailing out by trying some ondansetron, but in the end let rightful punishment run its course. As for the tolerance? Not sure, maybe a bit less visuals, but what was lacking in twisting in the visual field certainly made up for it in the stomach :ROFLMAO: Science, bitch!
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You know what I just realised? Before the 2C-C set on I began reading the book "Heaven's Tale - From Scientist to Fugitive, From Kingpin to Father" by Robert Widdowson, which describes the story of a person manufacturing an analogue of MDMA (I think MDOH, but I haven't read that far) and then fleeing from the United States when they tried to get him with the analogue law. However, even right in the beginning there are many factual errors with the chemistry. I don't doubt that he may have produced drugs, but it's very clear he's way out of his depth (or has forgotten his art completely in the meanwhile) and only got so far with the help of other people. Now my new theory must have been that the book has given me the stomach cramps, and totally not my unwise dosing schedule!

Check out the glowing review on Good Reads too:
Always do the right thing huh? Like the time you knowingly made drugs on our property in Taos and ruined our septic system. Fled and also never offered to help us with our losses. I am the daughter of Property owner and it was on our property in Taos, land that I will now inherit where you knowingly produced drugs and completely ruined our septic system in Taos. You should feel ashamed that you claim to do the right thing and we will forever have to live with the consequences of your actions, actions which you have never ever offered to mend or even apologized for.
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Pfafffed said:
I prefer it. I don't think I'll take it orally again. That said, the onset rectally is fast, so that's not the way to go if you want to ease into it
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How fast is that? About as much as 2C-B? Then I can handle it. May actually prefer it in contrast to waiting.
 
xdrc said:
How fast is that? About as much as 2C-B? Then I can handle it. May actually prefer it in contrast to waiting.
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My notes on two occasions say:
+3min - Onset
+6min - Rapid increase in effects
+13min - Peak

I think this is faster than insufflated 2C-B for me. I find it less anxiogenic than insufflated 2C-B, but I have a friend that finds it rather jarring. YMMV.

On another occasion, I reached peak after 30min, taking twice as long to come up as the other trips.

2C-T-7, on the other hand, took forever and ever and ever to come up rectally.
 
Pfafffed said:
My notes on two occasions say:
+3min - Onset
+6min - Rapid increase in effects
+13min - Peak
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We talking about 2c-c?

Id experienc3Never snorted it but orally it took about 45 min to reach full effects.

I dont know how i feel about 2c-c.. its not bad. . Itd not great?

I would def put it closer to the enactogenic vs the psychedelic.

But i did have 1 time wit at 54 mg and colors were bleeding so hard.... i admit i got nervous

Only time i experienced that amount of synthasezia was with lysergamides
 
Been having this recurring nightmare for months which has returned in earnest, in which I am lost in a labyrinth of some sort (prisons, asylums, castles, mazes... always different, never the same) and I come to a point of bleak despair where I conclude that the only way out is to kill myself. I then put a handgun to my head, there is a bright flash, then I am in a dark, black void. Shortly after, the void becomes grey and I regain the concept of myself and I am only able to experience negative emotions in the grey void. I am alone and it it seems like an eternity, nothing but my consciousness in this grey void. After the seeming eternity, I suddenly find myself alive, back in the labyrinth where I left off. I try to go on, but the despair creeps back in slowly, and I grab a handgun again, put it to my head... boom, flash, blackness, grey void eternity of despair, back to life in the labyrinth. Repeat, repeat, repeat until I finally awaken into real life, shook, afraid, and completely melancholy.

I assume I can actually interpret a lot from this recurring dream. Never really believed in interpreting them but suicide is a concept I've thought a lot about in my waking life for the past three years. I feel trapped in my current living situation, and in my job. Hence the labyrinth, hence the suicide in the dream. I think I have a subconscious fear that if I were to kill myself I would not die. I sometimes wonder if I am currently in Purgatory and don't even know it.

It's really taking a toll on me. I'm tired of working nights, losing my sleep to selfish assholes during the day. The dream is always and I cannot keep having this dream.

Actually in a good place mentally right now, just wanted to convey this. I've never had a recurring dream like this. I think it's telling. I am happy to say that at least last night wasn't terrible at work and it's my birthday this week and I'm excited to go out and eat sushi. But I never know if I'm going to get shook awake by someone selfishly rattling my home down with their subwoofer damn near a mile away, or right outside on the street.
 
Interesting CG. BTW happy Birthday. One of my first questions is do you sleep with TV on? I just wonder about subconscious picking up on things. My mother had a recurring dream we got broken in and was being strangled. Meanwhile Law and Order was on the TV while she slept.

Speaking of suicide I read an NDE where the kid killed himself. Was not a nice kid and f*cked with people. So he kills himself and ends up in a room with a few people. One person asks if he would like a soda, he says yes and they get him vinegar (biblical?). Then he was laughed at. Anything he asked for he was taunted and laughed at and they said to him "what? You going to kill yourself again and end up right back here?" Then he felt more than trapped. Then the kid realized that was how he treated people, taunted them and was not nice, and was warned to be nicer. Learned that was the way out of where he was.

Honestly if a human does not feel trapped in a body they aren't paying attention. If a person that lives in the world and looks around and does not get depressed they aren't paying attention. Seems the spirit knows there is a greater freedom than this hell hole. I feel bad thinking that about life but even that is biblical. Nature made sure time was our side.

But I totally feel that trap, everyday, all the time. As if death is the only way out. Yet we can't leave early. Maybe it is like dropping out of high school. Eventually to move forward a GED may be needed. I don't know man. But I feel it too.

Hope everyone is doing well.
 
JackARoe said:
One of my first questions is do you sleep with TV on?
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No, I always sleep in total darkness. Blacked out room, boarded up my window three years back for night shift and never looked back. I don’t believe in exposing myself to blue light from screens or waking sounds when trying to sleep.

It’s definitely got to do with losing sleep for three years and feeling trapped in my housing situation. I’m not anywhere near the amount of savings I need to move on yet though.
 
Yeah I sleep in total darkness. I am usually out when my head hits the pillow. I had a few weird dreams. I never put much into them.

I totally get it and unfortunately for me now reality is almost as bad. Is getting older getting more stuck and trapped? I get it. We have to eat a few times a day, we have to cloth and house ourselves and have to work to do that. Logically it seems dumb to me. I hope to feel different going forward but the noose seems be getting tighter. Stress builds up and it takes a week in the woods or beach to calm oneself. Not a 5 minute meditation. The stress has to unwind. And everyone is wound up tight too.

I never had sleep paralysis. Sounds so weird. But I never had it. What i have had was that situation where I am dreaming and turn on the light switch but the lights do not go on. Years later after having that dream a few times I saw that movie A Waking Life. It was explained in their you can not turn on lights in a dream. I thought that was cool. Something with how the mind works in dreaming. And light is the only thing in the Universe that that is one thing. Not a negative and positive.
 
Had a pretty nice, therapeutic ketamine trip 12h ago, meditated, did yoga, even burned incense.
Just went full hippie mode last night.
Felt a connection with my inner "god" energy pool (or how the fuck to call it, you know what I mean).

Then, when I was able to walk normally again I chilled with my roommates for 4 hours or so, had an open conversation with one of them, who's working as an online psychologist, about my traumas in childhood & in my early 20s.
Really reinforced the idea that I need therapy. She said she knows a few good ones in our city, so I hope I'll call them on monday.

Then drank a quarter glass of red wine & went back to some more ketamine & 2FDCK (since the ket was gone).
The second trip was more entertaining & art focussed, less psychological.
Listened to the album "Snake" by Exuma. Terrific. Especially "Happiness and Sunshine".

Next time I'm doing a ket session, I want to have a setup to film my hand movements to the music. Unfortunately my phone always stops playing music if I record video.
Could be interesting to watch that afterwards. It always feels like the perfect expression of every emotion the music transports.

Ah, also watched some jreg youtube videos & a part of Bo Burnham's Inside.
Both contemporary artists I admire.

Now I'm almost back to baseline, the night is gone & I can't sleep.
Took about 500-700mcg Bretazenil to hopefully fall asleep soon.

How was your Friday?
 
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Sorry for double posting.

Woke up at 2:30 PM, after 5h of sleep. The Bretazenil helped & I awoke without GABA effects.

Had a great, very social Saturday.
I was emotionally opened & the disso afterglow almost feels like an MDMA afterglow I once had after a romantic night. Just less intense.

There was this euphoric feeling of everything being fine the way it is all day.
I wrote in my diary, drew & had a lot of deep talks with friends & people I want to be friends with.

I truly feel blessed. Also pretty tired now though.

I hope I can channel this energy to bettering my life.
Need to put the fucking work in...
 
CavernsoftheMind said:
How was your Friday?
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I went out for sushi, it was very good. I used to hate fish. Refused to eat it for many, many years. Recently a coworker insisted I try some fried fish at work and now I can't get enough. Someone told me taste buds change every so many years; maybe mine changed finally.

Anyhow, I now have a sushi addiction. Luckily we can get four rolls and a cup of miso soup plus a Kirin for about $60 after tax and 20% tip for two people at a local place. I'm so glad some random Japanese family decided to settle down out here. Only Asian joint in the whole county and it turns out to be just as good as many I've eaten at back in the city. Now the only Pho place one county up... it's meh. What a rip. Sub-par pho plus tiny ass spring rolls and bahn mi for marked up prices.
 
Cream Gravy? said:
I went out for sushi, it was very good. I used to hate fish. Refused to eat it for many, many years. Recently a coworker insisted I try some fried fish at work and now I can't get enough. Someone told me taste buds change every so many years; maybe mine changed finally.

Anyhow, I now have a sushi addiction. Luckily we can get four rolls and a cup of miso soup plus a Kirin for about $60 after tax and 20% tip for two people at a local place. I'm so glad some random Japanese family decided to settle down out here. Only Asian joint in the whole county and it turns out to be just as good as many I've eaten at back in the city. Now the only Pho place one county up... it's meh. What a rip. Sub-par pho plus tiny ass spring rolls and bahn mi for marked up prices.
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That's so funny. I have always loved fish, and I loved sushi since I first tried it as a kid. But pho? I only came around to that in the last five years. I used to think that it was just fancy broth that was about as filling as candy floss. Now? I can't get enough. I'm so sorry that you can't get good pho and banh mi, but at least you've got rolls to console you
 
Pfafffed said:
That's so funny. I have always loved fish, and I loved sushi since I first tried it as a kid. But pho? I only came around to that in the last five years. I used to think that it was just fancy broth that was about as filling as candy floss. Now? I can't get enough. I'm so sorry that you can't get good pho and banh mi, but at least you've got rolls to console you
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I recently found this ramen place that has a fantastic vegan duck with all the premium vegetables for 14€ if you order takeaway.
20% discount for takeaway orders.
The restaurant is pretty fancy & there are a lot of business & bourgeois people sitting in it.

I often get "hangover" lunch there, after a trippy night or a party.
It's always so surreal to step into this fine dining restaurant while still being zonked & emotionally opened & dirty :D
 
Seitan is delicious. Sweet, sweet gluten. Tempeh, on the other hand, is not edible imo.
 
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