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Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v11

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My doctor came to tell me that I have to swim, when my ankle is more stable and healed i have to “kill myself from how much sport i do”, taking B12 (Bcomplex) and he is sure that with time it only can get better..
 
Coffee didn't do anything to me. I don't think things would change if I increase it 3 satchets. This is how serious the damage is.
 
I feel like a baby whining about something I can’t change but it’s such a tragedy.

I’m so heartbroken. I still find this whole situation unbelievable. I don’t think I will ever recover from this.
 
My brain is so blank,it's so blank,I keep forgetting things. This is stupid and unnecessary
 
rawbanana said:
I loved my psychosis/mania whatever you want to call it. First time in my life I felt powerful and life was meaningful. Everything was beautiful during that time. I was in awe of everything around me. It was nice, but it wasn’t real. It felt amazing though. Intensely euphoric I could feel music buzzing through my bones and weed felt incredible.

I never hurt anyone or caused problems… I just was confused and my parents called the cops on me cause I was giddy and laughing to myself a lot. I really didn’t need such intense medication… but alas, it happened. I’m stuck like this now and it’s kind of a tragedy. It’s hard to imagine life ever having meaning ever again.
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I was exactly like that....and just like your feelings for alcohol are coming back slowly, your other feelings will come back eventually. I asked a person if her imagination and creativity came back and she said it did. Right now i too feel like things will never be the same again.
 
anonymoususer777 said:
You actually had psychosis. What about people like me who had no psychosis and were long distance runners before invega?
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I doubt recovery depends on whether you where psychotic or not. I wasent in the greatest shape before i went psychotic ether. I was badly addicted to both opiates and benzos and i was skinny as fuck. I might have weighed 160lbs. But due to being locked up for 6 months in the psych ward and being hauled cold turkey off high dose morphine and clonazepam i managed to kick both habits. I still use opiates and benzos but i always take breaks with both and am not addicted to either right now.

I went from being a skinny morphine addict to being in pretty good shape at the moment. I work out every day except sunday. Have you tried running again? I could never run at all as have asthma. I never do cardio though i know i should lol. Im a 2 pack a day smoker so that aint gonna help either. I would die if i had to run now
 
anonymoususer777 said:
I was exactly like that....and just like your feelings for alcohol are coming back slowly, your other feelings will come back eventually. I asked a person if her imagination and creativity came back and she said it did. Right now i too feel like things will never be the same again.
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They can and will be. It's going to take time and hard work and you'll get there👍
 
anonymoususer777 said:
An evil person's misdiagnosis. My problem was anxiety caused by autism not psychosis. Always avoid Nigerian psychiatrists in life.
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All psychiatrists are like that, not just in Nigeria. I’m sorry that happened to you. It’s inhumane and a tragedy.
 
@Antipsychiatry healed.
Recovery Story
This will be my last post on this forum.

As my journey unfolds, I've come to the conclusion that recovery is achievable. When you engage in mind healing activities, you will be amazed at how resilient the brain is. Yes these injections can suppress emotions, and the ability to feel any sort of substance. But you will feel these things again. I've smoked weed a number of times since my last injection, and I do feel the effects, same as alcohol. But I refrain from entertaining these things, especially alcohol, because it rots the mind.

My recipe for recovery was and still is cold showers, abstaining from porn and masturbating, I've recently disregarded all social media, and I've taken up the healthy habit of meditation and practicing mindfulness. If you are still on the shots, my heart goes out to you. If you aren't, give my regiment a try. You may discover something.

Best regards to everyone, this place has been helpful in the darkest days.

I know I said I wasn't going to post on here anymore, but I have too big of a heart to not share my current experience with you guys.

Recovery is possible. I'm living proof of it. Everyday I heal and I get closer to being that person I'm meant to be. Emotions are coming back strong. I had a super deep cry the other day and it was amazing to feel a rush of emotion like that. Also my sex drive has come back really strong. If you are off the shots, please start making positive life changes. There is no one coming to save you other than yourself. It takes courage to make those first steps towards recovery, but it's something you have to work at. It won't just magically happen for you. Meditation, quit masturbating, cold showers, suppliments, exercise, yoga. All these things are helping me a lot and I'm sure they may help you as well, if you're willing to give them a try. I feel like a lot of us are looking for some quick remedy for recovery. There isn't one. Only strong determination and will can get you where you are meant to be.

Good luck everyone, it will happen for you.
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7 months on Seroquel, olanzapine, and risperdone. 11 invega sustenna shots. Recovered after 1 year.
 
therendezvous said:
No wonder people on prev versions had beef with you.

You should double check, palmitate is one of the active metabolites that consists in paliperidone/invega/xeplion.
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The people who "had beef" with me were the people who were constantly wallowing and scaring everyone on this thread when odds are we have nothing to be afraid of, and they didn't like it when I told them to knock it off. You're actually right that there is palmitate in invega sustenna, I'm the dumbass now because it's in the drug's generic name, but it's actually not a problem at all.

I don't know anything about chemistry but a quick search showed me palmitate is non-toxic in doses normally administered to people or used in our food and cosmetics. Palipedrone also isn't metabolized into palmitate, but there is palmitate attached to the molecule that needs to be metabolized into a drug, and it is taken off and broken down by our bodies. It's the secret sauce that makes this shit last for so fucking long. But palmitate is floating around your body naturally for crying out loud.

Now, consuming large amounts of saturated fat, which has a lot of palmitate in it, can negatively impact the brain over time, cause cancer, etc. It's only toxic in large doses and I doubt our injections gave us a harmful amount of palmitate.

Invega is bad for you for a lot of reasons, but this isn't one of them. Stop fearmongering "brain damage". Your brain chemistry has been altered and it just feels like brain damage.

The negativity and lack of scientific literacy in these threads is dangerous. Reading it hurt me very badly because it made me believe I had to do something actively to help heal or prevent brain damage and I ended up taking an SSRI because my anxiety was so bad and I thought it would help. It just put me into an even lower ring of hell and I almost killed myself. So just stop blabbing about how there is no recovery or that we are all irrevocably damaged. Most people recover just fine and most people who quit invega don't even go here, they just move on with their lives and feel themselves slowly coming back to life like their doctor said they would.
 
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I came to buy BATTLEFIELD 6, I Just had some 2-3 games and i realized how much i can’t follow the envoirment and i cannot compete with people without cognition damage, basically i dont understeand a thing and i don’t realize what is happening and what i have to do, where i have to go, where enemies and ally are, basically i just can’t play, i give up.

So i go for a cigaret but outside my home were some dude smoking a very good weed (i notice from the smell) and i remember when i was at 100% of my cognitive faculties, smoking weed and playing videogames and even being very skilled in doing that, now, 15 months after these injections i cannot play videogames anymore, i cannot smoke weed anymore.

Everybody keep tell that “this is not permanent damage” and “we will recover” but bro.. 15 months.. I can’t just play a videogames, something that a 6yo child can do, i cannot smoke weed, i have altered state of consciusness like if I’m drunk-feverish and is not even possible to play or enjoy a game like that.

This is so fucked up, there is nonfucking way to have all these sympthoms for 15 months but then a day waking up healed, i don’t buy nonsense bullshit like this.

What I have left? No mire weed, no more games, chemically castrated, my consciousness is perma damaged since 15 months. Fuck that all, fuck this nonsense thing.
 
RisperdalConsta50mg said:
I came to buy BATTLEFIELD 6, I Just had some 2-3 games and i realized how much i can’t follow the envoirment and i cannot compete with people without cognition damage, basically i dont understeand a thing and i don’t realize what is happening and what i have to do, where i have to go, where enemies and ally are, basically i just can’t play, i give up.

So i go for a cigaret but outside my home were some dude smoking a very good weed (i notice from the smell) and i remember when i was at 100% of my cognitive faculties, smoking weed and playing videogames and even being very skilled in doing that, now, 15 months after these injections i cannot play videogames anymore, i cannot smoke weed anymore.

Everybody keep tell that “this is not permanent damage” and “we will recover” but bro.. 15 months.. I can’t just play a videogames, something that a 6yo child can do, i cannot smoke weed, i have altered state of consciusness like if I’m drunk-feverish and is not even possible to play or enjoy a game like that.

This is so fucked up, there is nonfucking way to have all these sympthoms for 15 months but then a day waking up healed, i don’t buy nonsense bullshit like this.

What I have left? No mire weed, no more games, chemically castrated, my consciousness is perma damaged since 15 months. Fuck that all, fuck this nonsense thing.
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Oh, i forgot, I’m 2 months with tinnitus, i fucking keep hearing this noise h24 and i never had nothing like that in my life, but yes we will heal, sure bro.

It’s like if they cut off one of our leg and we are here like that “yah hang on it will grow back and you will walk like before again”

Fuck that shit for real fuck that I was normal now i’am a retarded because they make a permanent brain imbalance to me because they tought I had a brain imbalance.

The irony here man.. The irony. Fuck that shit i dint deserve this bullshit i already born because of a rape and i grow up without a family and a father, always be that one out of place and i already suffered enough in my life even without that shit happened to me.

Fuck this life and this world, fuck all.
 
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