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Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v11

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I had a margarita tonight. I feel it a little bit, but it’s nowhere close to how it was before.

It feels like there’s a huge boulder in my body that’s blocking any good feeling.
 
InvegaAnon said:
There's a ton of people who had misdiagnoses who recovered. I don't have a list of links or anything, but they're out there.

The theory that this is actually permanent brain damage is nonsense I think. I don't feel lobotomized anymore, I have feelings again.
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The term brain damage really doesent mean anything. That is unless theres some actual damage that the brain was exposed to. Invega simply fucks with your brain for awle but you will get better eventually

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rawbanana said:
I had a margarita tonight. I feel it a little bit, but it’s nowhere close to how it was before.

It feels like there’s a huge boulder in my body that’s blocking any good feeling
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I wish i could feel 1 margarita lol. My tolerance to gaba drugs like benzos, zopiclone and alcohol is rather high sadly
 
paranoid android said:
The term brain damage really doesent mean anything. That is unless theres some actual damage that the brain was exposed to. Invega simply fucks with your brain for awle but you will get better eventually



I wish i could feel 1 margarita lol. My tolerance to gaba drugs like benzos, zopiclone and alcohol is rather high sadly
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It was a pretty strong margarita lol
 
rawbanana said:
I had a margarita tonight. I feel it a little bit, but it’s nowhere close to how it was before.

It feels like there’s a huge boulder in my body that’s blocking any good feeling.
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This is good news. You felt it a little bit is a sign of it coming back. It is a sign of recovery albeit slow.
 
I have booked myself out for the week to keep busy after getting over the flu. CBT tomorrow, a dentist appointment the day after that then a hairdresser appointment the following day after the hairdresser and then another acupuncture the day after that. Also got to figure out what I’m getting for my mum for her birthday tomorrow after I pick my son up from school today. I can’t stress this enough but keeping busy really helps. At 5 months off my motivation has somewhat improved, mind isn’t so blank when having conversations, human emotions are all there and I’m feeling quite alright to be honest… only thing that has me down a bit is how much weight I gained on invega so struggling with self image a bit.
 
demileigh said:
I have booked myself out for the week to keep busy after getting over the flu. CBT tomorrow, a dentist appointment the day after that then a hairdresser appointment the following day after the hairdresser and then another acupuncture the day after that. Also got to figure out what I’m getting for my mum for her birthday tomorrow after I pick my son up from school today. I can’t stress this enough but keeping busy really helps. At 5 months off my motivation has somewhat improved, mind isn’t so blank when having conversations, human emotions are all there and I’m feeling quite alright to be honest… only thing that has me down a bit is how much weight I gained on invega so struggling with self image a bit.
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It’s good to see you improving so quickly.
 
demileigh said:
Yeah absolutely. I don’t even like talking about it cause it’s that bad. I would one hundred percent rather be injected with invega like I was than to be in psychosis
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I dont talk about it either. It was so fucking horrible. It reminded me alot of the delirium caused by dramamine which i was stupid enough to take once as a kid. The weird thing is my brother kept telling the stupid shrink to just give me a antipsychotic but she didnt want to give me any drugs. She thought my psychosis was caused by weed. She also said to my brother that i belonged in jail for my violent behavior towards mostly security guards at the psych ward and also 1 stupid doctor. So ya the person that was supposed to help me thought i belonged in prison lol.

We finally got a new shrink and he put me on invega which honestly at the time was such a relief. Fuck psychosis it was worse then invega for sure

I also had cotards syndrome which is a whole other level of fucked. Basically you think your dead. I thought the psych ward was hell or purgatory which i have to admit it kinda was at times.
 
demileigh said:
I have booked myself out for the week to keep busy after getting over the flu. CBT tomorrow, a dentist appointment the day after that then a hairdresser appointment the following day after the hairdresser and then another acupuncture the day after that. Also got to figure out what I’m getting for my mum for her birthday tomorrow after I pick my son up from school today. I can’t stress this enough but keeping busy really helps. At 5 months off my motivation has somewhat improved, mind isn’t so blank when having conversations, human emotions are all there and I’m feeling quite alright to be honest… only thing that has me down a bit is how much weight I gained on invega so struggling with self image a bit.
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What was your dosage and number of injections?
 
anonymoususer777 said:
@paranoid android did you sperm improve with higher testosterone? Do you have hypogonadism? How are your energy and motivation levels now?
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There was nothing wrong with my sperm production before i went on test. I did have low test and also my testicles may have shrunk abit because of the invega and abilify. Im not sure to be honest its hard to tell but i think they did shrink. My energy has improved so much since going on test. I have the energy of a teenager again its great
 
I do see a pattern that people who actually had psychosis like @demileigh and @paranoid android do have a quicker and easier recovery than people who did not have psychosis. But there are cases like @rawbanana who had psychosis but have a harder time recovering. This is not to say that people who are misdiagnosed do not recover ..buti wouldlike to see more stories and examples of such people. I wonder if the person who made the invega doc can shed some light on this please?
 
paranoid android said:
There was nothing wrong with my sperm production before i went on test. I did have low test and also my testicles may have shrunk abit because of the invega and abilify. Im not sure to be honest its hard to tell but i think they did shrink. My energy has improved so much since going on test. I have the energy of a teenager again its great
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Testosterone injections are known to shrink testicles
 
anonymoususer777 said:
Testosterone injections are known to shrink testicles
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They didnt shrink mine anymore then they may have already been shrunk. It was hard to tell really and when i asked the stupid gp i had if invega or abilify could cause that she said no. As it turns out she was wrong of course but she didnt give a fuck anyway
 
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Seeing my family doctor today, i would tell him i’am really disappointed on how researcher from university hospital acted like regular uneducated doctors.

I would tell him that my ankle still hurt after 8 months, and this is because probably my sleep has been damaged from risperidone.

At the end of this week i have appointment with sleep clinic where i already did a sleep exam before risperidone so it will be nice to repeat the exam so we can compare the two to see what happened to my sleep, but they already told me They don’t want to repeat the exam (probably they don’t want that something came out and they want to keep hidden the fact risperidone damaged me).
 
I loved my psychosis/mania whatever you want to call it. First time in my life I felt powerful and life was meaningful. Everything was beautiful during that time. I was in awe of everything around me. It was nice, but it wasn’t real. It felt amazing though. Intensely euphoric I could feel music buzzing through my bones and weed felt incredible.

I never hurt anyone or caused problems… I just was confused and my parents called the cops on me cause I was giddy and laughing to myself a lot. I really didn’t need such intense medication… but alas, it happened. I’m stuck like this now and it’s kind of a tragedy. It’s hard to imagine life ever having meaning ever again.
 
RisperdalConsta50mg said:
Seeing my family doctor today, i would tell him i’am really disappointed on how researcher from university hospital acted like regular uneducated doctors.

I would tell him that my ankle still hurt after 8 months, and this is because probably my sleep has been damaged from risperidone.

At the end of this week i have appointment with sleep clinic where i already did a sleep exam before risperidone so it will be nice to repeat the exam so we can compare the two to see what happened to my sleep, but they already told me They don’t want to repeat the exam (probably they don’t want that something came out and they want to keep hidden the fact risperidone damaged me)..
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You sound abit paranoid. Why would a clinic care if risperdal caused all those problems or not? It's nothing out of there pocket

rawbanana said:
I loved my psychosis/mania whatever you want to call it. First time in my life I felt powerful and life was meaningful. Everything was beautiful during that time. I was in awe of everything around me. It was nice, but it wasn’t real. It felt amazing though. Intensely euphoric I could feel music buzzing through my bones and weed felt incredible.

I never hurt anyone or caused problems… I just was confused and my parents called the cops on me cause I was giddy and laughing to myself a lot. I really didn’t need such intense medication… but alas, it happened. I’m stuck like this now and it’s kind of a tragedy. It’s hard to imagine life ever having meaning ever again.
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Psychosis and cotards was absolutely the worst thing i have ever experienced. I thought i was absolutely dead though i couldnt figure out how i died. For awile i thought it was because i overdosed or something. I thought the psych ward was purgatory or hell i think purgatory though because think i was waiting to go to heaven or hell. I thought the nurses where trying to kill me even though i was already dead. I certainly never felt any euphoria from it.

I would take any antipsychotic to stop that shit goddamn that was terrifying.. I had pretty severe PTSD from the psychosis and cotards syndrome and also from my experience in the psych ward. Being thrown in solitary 6 times or so really fucked with my head. That and the endless noise of people yelling and stuff al night. Hearing people getting dragged off to solitary for not taking their meds and stuff. Shrooms and s ketamine helped my PTSD alot though. I still have some PTSD though it is alot better then it was

Fuck all that right off.
 
rawbanana said:
I loved my psychosis/mania whatever you want to call it. First time in my life I felt powerful and life was meaningful. Everything was beautiful during that time. I was in awe of everything around me. It was nice, but it wasn’t real. It felt amazing though. Intensely euphoric I could feel music buzzing through my bones and weed felt incredible.

I never hurt anyone or caused problems… I just was confused and my parents called the cops on me cause I was giddy and laughing to myself a lot. I really didn’t need such intense medication… but alas, it happened. I’m stuck like this now and it’s kind of a tragedy. It’s hard to imagine life ever having meaning ever again.
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At some point you have to realize that even your own family don’t want you to be more happy than them. I realized that yesterday.

It’s seem that my “family” is more happy now, that i’am in agony than before, when I was healthy, surrounded by girls, friends, had a nice shape etc..

We take as garanted that our family want the best for us and live for our happyness and healthy life, (as it should be normally), but sometimes (more likely than we can tought) it’s our own family that don’t want us to be more happy and healthy than them.

Toxic relatives are the most dangerous, and you have to realize if this is your case, just make yourself these three questions:

1: Do they will do that same thing on themselves? NO!

2: By doing what they did to me, they helped me? NO!

3: Are they supporting me in this moment? NO!


So.. Is they behaviour the same behaviour of someone Who love me, protect me, and wish the best for me? NO!
 
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