I still kind of hope you can consider going to the doctor &/or ER to get checked out … seizures can be scary/dangerous. My brother has epilepsy and it didn’t get bad until his thirties. I’ve seen him go through a lot & it can be a bit scary. He can’t drive now until he doesn’t have a seizure (he’s had a bunch of them throughout the last year & a half) for a certain amount of months & I understand that you’re worried about that … but now he’s safer & getting on the right meds and MRI. I know I’m throwing a lot at you (and I’m not even telling all my brother has gone through) …. but I just want you to know you are important, your life & health are all important. You can always (even though there might be some obstacles to go through) get around and deal with what comes from an appointment and getting checked out. Heck, the appointment may go waay better than you think & you might get piece of mind, or a good med to make sure you’re safe & still be able to drive.
Anyways, sorry I hope any of that made sense I’m super sleep deprived, just want to make sure you’re okay. You don’t have to make any major decisions, it’s just an appointment or ER visit to start.
Sending you support and a hug