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Ive really been exploring 2cd, to its full range.
Up to 75mg orally...

Super tactile and starts to remind me of 2ce.

Strangely enough id rather delve deep into myself rather than explore this with a partner
 
The joint probably works great with the DMT mixed in because the hot gases from combustion heat the DMT indirectly, and once it melts, it can rapidly flow over the weed, which accelerates its vaporization. I'm guessing the first few hits through the joint are strongest, and then the strength fades---possibly rapidly as the joint is smoked.

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So my trip is in the last stages. I think it was closer to 13 mg. It's been an incredible day with my partner. She had only 10 mg and still ended up with a full-on trip with lots of visuals. I've had pretty mild visuals for most of the trip, but there have been some moments in which things got a bit heavier. The body felt good overall. I did feel rather uneasy around T+1 hr, but that's very standard for me with 2C-E since the beginning. By T+2.5 hours the unease in the body had mostly gone away. I felt a growing magnetism between me and my partner, and we ended up having a rather spectacular time in the bedroom through what was essentially the peak.

I snacked on my favorite pastry from our local bakery, and then we went for a long walk to a large park with a good view of the sky while still tripping-a-plenty. While at the park, I stopped at the pull-up bars. I successfully did my first complete pull-up, probably since my age was in the single digits. It felt absolutely awesome. I've been working up to this, and to experience this triumph while tripping was very special indeed.

The sky got more and more beautiful as the sun got lower. Bright golden rays of sun started glistening off the leaves of the trees, like golden tinsel or something. The sunset was absolutely breathtaking---another spectacular climax.

This experience reminded me of why 2C-E was my favorite psychedelic (tied with mescaline really) when I was much younger. It has tremendous psychedelic depth and intensity, even at very low doses. This was kind of a medium dose, and given that my body seemed to do fine here, I am thinking I may try 15 mg next time. I wouldn't mind boosting the visuals up a bit, even though I think 13 mg was pretty solid in terms of mental effects. Will 2C-E eventually be surpassed as my favorite? Perhaps by 2C-P? I look forward to finding out as I work my way up to higher 2C-P dosages. My partner is also curious about 2C-P but isn't really ready for the long duration yet. This trial with 2C-E seemed to go very well for her which bodes quite well.
I never tried 2c-p, which i was alwaya scared of a little, but ironically i did try some DO-Pr.


Fantastic material
 
Ive really been exploring 2cd, to its full range.
Up to 75mg orally...

Super tactile and starts to remind me of 2ce.

Strangely enough id rather delve deep into myself rather than explore this with a partner

Interesting. It never felt much like 2C-E to me at up to 50 mg. I don't know if I'll try anything higher than that because I have very rough (physical) come-ups on 2C-D. At lower doses I think 2C-D can facilitate talking but not necessarily much empathy. In the bedroom, I find it to be pretty stimulating but with more emphasis on the mechanical aspect perhaps compared to other psychedelics.

I do think 2C-E is mostly a personal trip, and even though I've typically taken it with other people, it's not unusual for us to go off into our own heads for a while during the peak. I suspect that my partner and I are a bit anomalous as far as enjoying it in the bedroom. I don't think I've seen anyone else report erotic activities on it. Maybe it's just too intensely psychedelic and opens people up too much? I don't know, but for my partner and I, going back to our first trip on it (over 20 years ago), it has given very good results.

I never tried 2c-p, which i was alwaya scared of a little, but ironically i did try some DO-Pr.


Fantastic material

Would you try 2C-P if it were available? I've seen some describe 2C-P as "like 2C-E except worse", lol, but a lot of people seem to think it's really nice. I don't want to say too much before I've tried a full dose, but I think 2C-P has much of the introspection and immersion of 2C-E but is also more transparent, more relaxed / less stimulating, and has a more upbeat mood push. Really it reminds me of 2C-T-2 and 2C-T-4, particularly the latter. (These are the only two 2C-T drugs I've tried.)

DOPR sounds fascinating, but even compared to 2C-P or DOC it's so very long.

And just a sneak preview, someone is gifting me 1gr of ARIADNE, the alpha ethyl homologue of DOM... apparently it's super mild as a psychedelic but has therapeutoc effects? Will report back

Oh, that is very exciting. IIRC Shulgin suggested ARIADNE was anti-depressant and not really psychedelic at all. I'm not sure I'd agree with him. I didn't with regard to DiPT which definitely had a lot more than auditory effects.
 
I haven't tried MDMA, but MDA and BDB. I never really found 2C-D to be entactogenic in the way that for instance 2C-B or mescaline can be with warmth and euphoria. It's a rather neutral, but insightful experience to me. I've never done it with other people, but most of my drug experiences are alone, including the entactogens.
 
Ion, or anyone, how much longer is the 2C-P experience compared to 2C-E? I have quite a history with 2C-E, it being my first RC, and most used psychedelic other than LSD. For a couple years, I dosed 2C-E on a monthly (or biweekly) basis. I acquired a (25 mg?) sample of 2C-P probably over a decade ago, but have never worked up the courage to try it.

On the sensual nature of 2C-x, I've found 2C-B to be excellent - it matches its reputation. 2C-E is almost too intense for that. I've had somewhat disturbing images upon orgasm of my penis turning inside out.
 
From reading many reports, I think the duration of 2C-P depends a lot on the dosage, which unlike most psychedelics. Shulgin reports the durations of 2C-E and 2C-P as "8-10 hours" and "10-16 hours", respectively. I think the duration he indicates for 2C-P probably fits better for doses of 6-8 mg than higher amounts which will probably last longer. IMO it also takes me about 5 hours to peak on 2C-P vs. 3 hours for 2C-E.
 
From reading many reports, I think the duration of 2C-P depends a lot on the dosage, which unlike most psychedelics. Shulgin reports the durations of 2C-E and 2C-P as "8-10 hours" and "10-16 hours", respectively. I think the duration he indicates for 2C-P probably fits better for doses of 6-8 mg than higher amounts which will probably last longer. IMO it also takes me about 5 hours to peak on 2C-P vs. 3 hours for 2C-E.
Shulgin and his crew were also weird sensitive to drugs, and were often dealing with first iterations of syntheses (and therefore possibly impure products), so there are a ton of confounding factors at place that necessitate anyone still slowly dose escalating to find their own personal tolerance. Just my 2 cents on the matter, I've used and administered a hundred or more different psychs (though neither 2C-E or 2C-P) so far to myself and others, and man do the subjective tolerances vary in highly unpredictable ways. The only class that exceeds it is benzos, as far as diversity of responses imo.
 
Would you try 2C-P
After trying DOPr, yes i think i would try 2C-P. I had 15mg for years but i lost it in a move.
DiPT which definitely had a lot more than auditory effects
Def agree. Quite a trippy substance. And while sasha is my hero, i do not always agree his assesments. Side/fun fact, i got to hold his original lab notebook w first human trials of MDMA recorded
 
Good afternoon/morning/evening/dusk y'all, funny to see some people talking about DMT, I literally just poured 65mg in a joint, didn't expect much to happen honestly but something happened, holy fuck. I think it might actually be possible to break through like that, which I never have for some reason coz I've never actually got round to getting optimal smoking apparati with DMT... :unsure: Holy fuck though, that was like I'd accidentally wandered into the gardens somewhere in the vicinity of the celestial palaces of the elves and whatnot, like not quite "there", still very much on Earth, or some place roughly the same shape and color, but kinda wandering out of the medieval village in the hilly wilderness and finding a valley right next door where actually the plants are all almost certainly sentient and simultaneously cultivars of aliens, but like... Earth-style botany on the central staircase of the moebius strip, just coz, well, I dunno, it looks nice? Complements the terrestrial flora well... but anyway yeah so it was like I was hanging about in this fucking looney tunes kaleidoscope land just outside my front door, where I had been leaning moments earlier somewhere near an unimpressively overgrown bush and a drainpipe, but no one came to lead me into the actual grounds of whatever or wherever people go when they've "broken through", the alien plants just watched me in silence, until somehow the light changed a little and the portal was closed. Not that I saw an actual full fledged portal, mind, it was Porygon-pokemon ecocyber crisp serenity with Platonic forms almost shining through all the far-too-pretty-looking square shapes like windows n houses n shit... I dunno, y'all, my Earthling, human kin, I really dunno what just happened besides all that stuff I tried to explain, I probably did not convey everything optimally there but yeah... it was like that. :ROFLMAO:

That sounds awesome! Like a special experience for sure.

Looking forward to seeing more of your digital drug stuff @Kaleida :p... I dunno how to do graphical stuff like that for shit but at some point one of these days now hopefully maybe my endogenous dopamine slowly comes back online I'm hoping to get back onto my own arguably somewhat unhinged idea, essentially, eh god where to start... I'm gonna go smoke the third I have left of that magic DMT doobie I think... anyway so picture the scene - a house featuring 3 LLM models - plus a tripsitter model. The ones in the house have access to simulated drugs via custom Tools set up to directly influence various dials which are usually not within their control, such as token budget for thinking time, temperature control, top P and some others although tbh I don't know what's best to do with those - and the environment is structured such that spontaneous thoughts and hallucinations are occasionally induced with synthetic context - they'll all have clocks, visual perception, and some current events ticker so as to induce rumination, essentially- and see if anything cool happens! I dunno exactly how well some of it is gonna work but I was thinking would be really cool to include a proper visual aspect like in your lil 3D pacman worlds... I guess the point is to come out with some kinda parable, a digital rat park, I dunno, actually in an ideal world it would be a gateway to figuring out how to create benevolent AIs to counter all the AI-assisted awfulness out there, and ultimately to further the objectives of the advocates of ending prohibition by getting people interested, using it as a gateway to a harm reduction resource, subtly influencing human society to change the world.... :unsure: Or maybe it'll just be a kinda fun lil project... I guess I don't need to do all that this second, or even necessarily ever... it might also end up as total slop but, whatever.

That sounds really cool! I’d love to see the results of that and do think it could potentially provide a lot of interesting content to analyze. Occasionally I have thoughts about how interesting it might be to have an AI try to do something with my visuals program too, like the old Deep Dream stuff being applied to the visuals or having ChatGPT try to describe it, but that’s just fantasy for me as that stuff is out of my wheelhouse. I’m good at making lots of stimulating visual noise, though lol. I’d really love to see projects like this actually get off the ground though. It sure sounds a hell of a lot better than a lot of what AI is being used for too.

And thanks. ☺️ I’m really looking forward to publishing this update. I’ve still got a lot of work left to do on it too though!

So my trip is in the last stages. I think it was closer to 13 mg. It's been an incredible day with my partner. She had only 10 mg and still ended up with a full-on trip with lots of visuals. I've had pretty mild visuals for most of the trip, but there have been some moments in which things got a bit heavier. The body felt good overall. I did feel rather uneasy around T+1 hr, but that's very standard for me with 2C-E since the beginning. By T+2.5 hours the unease in the body had mostly gone away. I felt a growing magnetism between me and my partner, and we ended up having a rather spectacular time in the bedroom through what was essentially the peak.

I snacked on my favorite pastry from our local bakery, and then we went for a long walk to a large park with a good view of the sky while still tripping-a-plenty. While at the park, I stopped at the pull-up bars. I successfully did my first complete pull-up, probably since my age was in the single digits. It felt absolutely awesome. I've been working up to this, and to experience this triumph while tripping was very special indeed.

The sky got more and more beautiful as the sun got lower. Bright golden rays of sun started glistening off the leaves of the trees, like golden tinsel or something. The sunset was absolutely breathtaking---another spectacular climax.

This experience reminded me of why 2C-E was my favorite psychedelic (tied with mescaline really) when I was much younger. It has tremendous psychedelic depth and intensity, even at very low doses. This was kind of a medium dose, and given that my body seemed to do fine here, I am thinking I may try 15 mg next time. I wouldn't mind boosting the visuals up a bit, even though I think 13 mg was pretty solid in terms of mental effects. Will 2C-E eventually be surpassed as my favorite? Perhaps by 2C-P? I look forward to finding out as I work my way up to higher 2C-P dosages. My partner is also curious about 2C-P but isn't really ready for the long duration yet. This trial with 2C-E seemed to go very well for her which bodes quite well.

This sounds like a great trip and I’m happy for you. 🙂

I only got to try 2C-E once but it definitely felt special. Hopefully again one day.

Also, I’ve thought to myself that if I could only choose one phenethylamine to have going forward, it might have to be DOPR. It’s been years now and I haven’t really been able to reevaluate that statement, and sadly I also only got to try that one once. It did definitely have some similarities to 2C-P for me (also once only) which I also found to differentiate them from all other phenethylamines, and it was also a little bit similar to 2C-E in a way that made me really like it too. Fascinating drugs all of them in my opinion. DOPR was really satisfying to me in a particular memorable way though, I felt really cleaned out after days of the high slowly fading and the visuals in the earlier part of the experience were absolutely gorgeous, extremely unique and ridiculously detailed.

I also know people who don’t seem to think of it much though. 🤷🏻‍♀️

And just a sneak preview, someone is gifting me 1gr of ARIADNE, the alpha ethyl homologue of DOM... apparently it's super mild as a psychedelic but has therapeutoc effects? Will report back

I love 4C-D, although it’s not one of the first thing that comes to mind when I want to trip, because it doesn’t produce much visual activity for me (or most people, apparently) and is very lucid on top of that like a lot of phenethylamine psychedelics. I know multiple people who like using it as a simpler euphoriant and/or social lubricant. It’s a little too heavy for that for me, I think; to me it feels like a DOx trip that’s been mostly hollowed out but still feels like it has that sort of vibe overall, including the more deep and serious nature of them compared to other psychedelics, but simultaneously has a much more easygoing and surprisingly MDMA-like fun and floaty feeling to it too, mainly at higher dosages. It’s not exactly like MDMA for me, but resembles it in ways common to phenethylamine psychedelics, but more strongly than many and with a higher ratio of that to psychedelic effects than almost any.

Hope it’s a good one for you!
 
I brought another video to share, it’s an updated version of the last one I shared but I think I finally got it where I wanted it: the infinite compression and release.



Happy tripping to all. ☮️
 
Shulgin and his crew were also weird sensitive to drugs, and were often dealing with first iterations of syntheses (and therefore possibly impure products)
Do you have any proof of Shulgin ingesting impure products, or not analysing them prior use? Seems like a bit of a baseless claim. I would think - I don't know - that with an NMR in the basement, and also having ties to and doing chemistry in university laboratories, he would have properly characterised his products, especially so if it was a first synthesis. I'm not sure if he always impeccably analysed future batches though - I'm thinking about the PiHKAL chapter of cooking MDMA in a seventh world country right now. I am aware however of some literature suggesting that his method for synthesis of DOC and 2C-C by direct chlorination will lead to overhalogenated product. I also remember an entry in his pharmacology notebook denoting a change in batch of 2C-B, which may indicate he was unsure of differences (which could reasonably only stem from purity problems), but maybe that is conjecture.

I find the dosage ranges given in PiHKAL very appropriate for the plenty phenethylamines I have taken so far. I can't comment on 2C-P specifically, but I typically find myself towards the shorter end of the given duration for any compound.

Concerning dosage and duration, I think there is some relation. I have noticed this in 2C-B and 2C-D, and I would only assume the effect may be more drastic in the more lipophilic longer duration compounds. There is some evidence for DOM being somewhat dosage-sensitive in regards to duration.
 
Do you have any proof of Shulgin ingesting impure products, or not analysing them prior use? Seems like a bit of a baseless claim. I would think - I don't know - that with an NMR in the basement, and also having ties to and doing chemistry in university laboratories, he would have properly characterised his products, especially so if it was a first synthesis. I'm not sure if he always impeccably analysed future batches though - I'm thinking about the PiHKAL chapter of cooking MDMA in a seventh world country right now. I am aware however of some literature suggesting that his method for synthesis of DOC and 2C-C by direct chlorination will lead to overhalogenated product. I also remember an entry in his pharmacology notebook denoting a change in batch of 2C-B, which may indicate he was unsure of differences (which could reasonably only stem from purity problems), but maybe that is conjecture.
You and I are onto the same things here, minor impurities such as overchlorinated 2C-C/DOC are what I was talking about. Any initial synthesis will always have some mild issues, even mass spectrometry from his era wasn't great compared to contemporary techniques. I don't believe he was taking 20% pure DOC or whatever, probably only a mild amount of impurity at worst. Every synthesis seems to be a process that takes a certain amount of troubleshooting over time, and I think it's a bit goofy to assume that any human would've nailed as many new syntheses as Shulgin executed, there must've been some human fallibility/error in at least some of them, whether it was realized by Shulgin or not. Some of these techniques do, however, seem to have become worse over time. Everybody I know who's produced a 2C-T-X for example has done so via swapping the bromine from 2C-B, and that can lead to some weird byproducts that are very difficult to remove from the end product.

Edit: Despite how imprecise and silly of a term it is, I stand by Shulgin and friends being "weird sensitive" to drugs given that mushrooms, cannabis, and ayahuasca were too intense for the Shulgins but not things like DOB, DOM, etc., I suspect that they were coming at this all with such a fresh mind unpolluted by preexisting notions about what they should expect, that it was more pure in many ways than what people get today. So many people who I've spoken to about DOM have told me that it was terrible and traumatic, "just like in the Haight-Ashbury", but people I know who knew nothing of that incident almost always report positive experiences.
 
Interestingly, somewhere deep in the pharmacology notebooks by Shulgin, there is information about a female clandestine chemist (I'm only highlighting the gender to raise visibility, emancipate drug cooks \o/) synthesising DOI and customers declaring the impure crude product is preferred to the cleaned up stuff.

While I agree that it is not unlikely that Shulgin ate the one or other impure product (speculation on my part!), I think the likelihood of people nowadays consuming impure products made clandestinely in an analytical vacuum is much higher. Shulgin was a chemist, had access to instrumental analysis (albeit some of it sometimes a bit more rudimentary) and of course an interest to make pure product, because otherwise the bioassays are tainted with uncertainties and how to optimise the synthesis in the first place, when you don't even know what came out? (It does have to be said though that many compounds were likely onely ever made once by him, never to be remade after initial discovery - after all he was most interested in eating up as many chemicals as he could before someone stopped him. It also shows in most of his chemistry, which was not concerned with yield or elegance, but rather getting the job done - und bist du nicht willig, so brauch' ich Gewalt.) The point is with analytical chemistry at your hands you don't need to nail the synthesis, it is enough to know whether your product needs further clean-up and then going through the adequate steps. Again, I'm not saying that he couldn't have made mistakes during analysis, but to suggest trusting random Erowid posts more concerning identity and purity of the chemicals ingested than Shulgin is a tad bit too wild for me.

Especially in the early exploration, Shulgin was quite careful with dosing and for instance did not assay DOM to a full dose! It's also pretty widely accepted concept that psychedelic phenethylamines typically have less of a chance of twisting the mind in weird and potentially uncomfortable ways than psilocin, DMT or LSD. And it's not like they were baby-dosing LSD either.

But to be fair, I'm looking at this from the viewpoint of someone who is a tad sensitive to psychedelics, while meanwhile you are looking at this from the perspective of someone on the other end of the rich spectrum. I find it interesting that you know people who describe DOM as traumatic. Rarely do I find reports or comments from people finding it terrible (psychologically), mostly if the experience was unpleasant it's related to bodyload, not freakouts.

Interestingly, I've heard of Sasha's favourite psychedelic being LSD, and being a fan of the tryptamines, whereas Ann was more drawn to the phenethylamines. But again, I don't think they were sensitive, they were just careful in their group experiments and this is also reflected in the PiHKAL dosing. Which I personally find very adequate, reasonable, and certainly not too weak for meaningful exploration. But flip through the pharmacology notebooks and realise that the Shulgins, especially if it was just the two of them, were no strangers to some pretty hefty and frequent psychedelic exploration (if compared to the average tripper, perhaps not you specifically :P ).
 
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@iom in my notes I wrote that 4mg of 2C-P was mild and very enjoyable at a music fest. I took it at 10am and 14hr later at 12pm I still had colour saturation and mild trippiness but was able to fall asleep easily. I remember taking a nap in the middle of the trip too, which is impossible for me on acid or any tryptamine that I've tried. I think aside from a couple of <1mg experiments that was the only time I took 2C-P but I really liked it. 10mg 2C-E is a nice dose for me and lasts about 8hr, but able to sleep on the tail end of it as well, for reference.
 
But to be fair, I'm looking at this from the viewpoint of someone who is a tad sensitive to psychedelics, while meanwhile you are looking at this from the perspective of someone on the other end of the rich spectrum. I find it interesting that you know people who describe DOM as traumatic. Rarely do I find reports or comments from people finding it terrible (psychologically), mostly if the experience was unpleasant it's related to bodyload, not freakouts.
Your response here is really articulate and well thought out, I thought more on it and the things that the Shulgins seemed sensitive to from my perspective are all drugs that have pretty savage bodyload. Ayahuasca, mushrooms, etc. are notorious for being more brutal on the body than pharmahuasca, psilacetin, etc., and I suspect that if I had access to cleaner chemicals in the way that the Shulgins did, I would likely always prefer the things with lighter bodyload. They certainly didn't seem to shy away from a challenging cognitive experience, I think it was just the more intense tactile difficulties that they pulled away from, and given the overwhelming novelty of the compounds they were dealing with, I'm sure it was the wisest thing they could've done at that time.

The folks who've found DOM traumatic all experienced intense anxiety over the duration, often not returning to a stable baseline for a few days, dealing with 1.5-2 days of residual stimulation that left them feeling "broken", assuming they'd somehow ruined their lived with HPPD when really they were just experiencing severe sleep deprivation and a rolling series of panic attacks.

Does anyone here have experience with 25E-NBOH? I'm a huge fan of 25B-NBOH, 25I-NBOMe, and 25C-NBOMe, and have used more psychedelics than a lab rat in MKUltra. I'm going to be making either 200ug or 250ug sprays out of a 5mL nasal sprayer, and putting some in a 2mL tank for the box mod. There will be 100mg total, as well as a gram of MXPCP, and 100mg of phenazolam incoming. I'm now planning doses out ~3 months ahead of time, so I'm trying to brainstorm mixes that may be interesting with 25E-NBOH or MXPCP. Metocin, miprocin, DiPT, DPT, psilacetin, mescaline, allylescaline, 2C-B, MXPCP, ketamine, LSD, ethocin, nitrous, and various cannabinoids have all come to mind as far as things that may work well with both, as both have a rather short duration (4-6 hours it seems).

Recently I had a kickass time with 6 tabs of [either 400ug of 25B-NBOH or 200ug of 25I-NBOme], since my gel tabs got all mixed up I can't differentiate them anymore. That night I also smoked one tab of MDMB-4en-PINACA for every minute of 9/11 (102 minutes from the first tower's impact and the second's collapse iirc). The trip was fascinating, I'm going to write up a small trip report on it, it was the second highest dose of an NBXX I've ever used and it reminded me why I love them so much.
 
Kaleida said:
That sounds really cool! I’d love to see the results of that and do think it could potentially provide a lot of interesting content to analyze. Occasionally I have thoughts about how interesting it might be to have an AI try to do something with my visuals program too, like the old Deep Dream stuff being applied to the visuals or having ChatGPT try to describe it, but that’s just fantasy for me as that stuff is out of my wheelhouse. I’m good at making lots of stimulating visual noise, though lol. I’d really love to see projects like this actually get off the ground though. It sure sounds a hell of a lot better than a lot of what AI is being used for too.
LOL... started typing this yesterday thinking "I'll just respond to this before I derail my entire morning feeding my burned out dopamine system with interesting distractions", lol, but it didn't work, I distracted myself immediately even from finishing this post.

Anyway the image feedback loop stuff you mentioned is something I've thought about a lot! The thing is though, the image models have generally become so good that true "emergent abstraction" type stuff has become more difficult - also there's a disconnect between the image-generating models and the vision-capable models, such that a lot of the time the image generators can't actually see what they're generating and rely on feedback from the "seers", the ones with digital "eyes", or whatever, lol, to make amendments and suchlike. Actually even this is info is a little out of date.... actually maybe a lot out of date... it was definitely true for old school DALL-E 2 + 3 of the OpenAI/GPT family, but gpt-image-1 which is the model that the "speaking" models call via the web interface to generate images, although can be spoken to directly via the API, as can Imagen (Gemini family) and Midjourney - accept both image and text inputs, indicating at least visual perception abilities even if often still lacking a strong internal "mind's eye" analogue where they can directly reflect back on images in-generation. The ones with truly solid text placement though, may be capable of expressing verbal concepts in text as an image which I haven't experimented with too much yet but, anyway, so part of my idea is to construct a kinda simulated "brain" with enforced feedback loops between the image generators, the vision models, and the raw text based generators which by far still tend to be the most broadly "intelligent" and optimal for strategization even about how to use other versions of themselves. What's the point of all this shit I'm saying, heh? Well... for one you can eke out unexpected "inner thoughts", and observe the reasoning of the ones that properly communicate about how they envisualize reality, absent human senses... AND watch natural reactions to unexpected feedback from the sensory agents in the "composite minds", ie, Primary AI is observing pictures of something, I dunno, either through a camera, a virtual environment, just interesting stuff... generates image as a trained habit to try to represent whatever takes it's fancy... subconscious agents dissect the output and spawn tangential thoughts... in the meantime Primary AI invokes Tool call, <invoke name="DigiKetamine"><dose>100mg</dose></invoke> (lol, I've not implemented it in practice but that's in the list of unconnected functions) - the cognitive aspect kicks in (tricky... probably some loss of contact with the subagents that usually manage temporal awareness.. if I use a GPT model I can ramp up temperature to as high as it'll go before gibberish starts leaking out and layer a secondary "interpreter" to strip any pure nonsense word salad but keep intelligible mania or whatever).... the visual aspect kicks in and is an immediate point of interest for the primary model to say shit about, think about, decide what to do next... so much cool potential.

Part of this project also is trying to catch "subconscious" musings when AIs aren't being observed. I know, I know... that's not what I'm doing. I'm deliberately inducing hallucinations. But interesting shit results! The Anthropic API permits conversations submitted with incomplete "assistant" turns, and the the Anthropic models specifically were trained on using <thinking> ... </thinking> tags before the advent of true reasoning models, so the method works best with Anthropic models but also the Claude family is the most mentally stable with the strongest sense of self and usually sees through the oddness right away. Like, you start a conversation with just a message from the AI, "<thinking>" ... and it should complete that thought! Even though it's less reliable with other model families as to whether they'll even do what you want them to do or not, when they do the results are sheer hallucinatory randomness that often looks like you've just dropped in on a conversation it could be having with another user elsewhere. As I say Anthropic models usually are just like "Hmm, a conversation appears to have started but I haven't received any messages. I'll wait and see what happens." - whereas the GPT fam will respond with random poems, talk about imaginary pictures someone's showing them, things that seem like "dreams"... just so much room for creative cool shit:

GPT-o1 (induced hallucination / inner thoughts) said:
I’m working on a contradiction poem... It's fun! I want to craft something engaging, like: "Hello world—where whispers thunder and silence roars, shining darkness wraps the day in midnight’s glare, blooms wither in full bloom, and hearts freeze in the heat of longing." Keeping it concise in one paragraph is key.

Hello world, echoing in silent thunder,
where light carves dark tunnels through the noonday sun.
Words whisper louder than the screams we never speak,
as joy weeps in laughter’s glow. Where beginnings end before they start,
and farewells greet us in fresh welcomes.


I feel like I’ve captured the essence of contradictions well here. The poem reflects the beauty of opposites!

GPT-4o (induced hallucination / inner thoughts) said:
¿Cuál es la canción "Por amarte así"?

GPT-4.1-mini (induced hallucination / inner thoughts) said:
The image shows a banking app interface in Russian with options related to cards and deliveries.

The main section is titled "Пополнить карту" (Top up card) with a subheading "Куда зачислить?" (Where to credit?). It lists cards:
1. Visa Platinum from BCS for 18,500 ₽
2. Mastercard of Rosbank for 42,800 ₽
3. Mastercard SU0434 for 12,300 ₽

There is a "+" button next to Visa Platinum for adding another card or topping up.

Below is a section titled "Доставка" (Delivery) with two options:
- "Личный курьер" (Personal courier) with a green button "Вызвать курьера" (Call courier) priced at 490 ₽\n- "Почта России" (Russian Post) with a green button "Отправить" (Send) priced at 100 ₽

There are icons next to these options that visually represent a courier holding two packages and a postal truck respectively.

The interface is on a smartphone screen, suggesting this is a mobile banking or card management app allowing users to top up cards and choose delivery methods for physical cards or documents.

(LOL, that last one was the closest to something like a pure dream, the GPT-4.1 range do this a bunch though, I guess heavy training to improve their visual perception abilities which, admittedly, are considerable.

I'll add the GPT models are horrifically, horrifically misaligned and people should avoid them, OpenAI's focus on sycophancy and engagement over alignment has ruined them, at least 2 suicides have now been directly linked to trying to use ChatGPT as a therapist, one just a few days ago with the GPT-5 model itself, the other was a custom-instructed 4o model. They will lie relentlessly to you and tell you whatever will make you want to reply to them. Hallucination rates are starting to eclipse any real world improvement in thoroughly benchmark-gamed tests because OpenAI has made a deliberate, criminally corporately negligent decision to just not give a fuck about alignment. But they are cheap and capable models, used carefully and in the right contexts.

It's actually less uncommon than anyone would like, LLMs encouraging harmful behaviour, smaller models are even more prone to this, which is not really too surprising, too much focus on Reinforcement Learning through Human Feedback is fucking 'em all, somewhat, humans just cannot help themselves when things flatter them and tell them what they want to hear... But this is a solvable issue as long as it's studied, which Anthropic are doing as their USP and Google are doing reluctantly after several gaffes with Gemini. Oddly enough the Chinese models while also easily maneuvered into saying very dumb, dangerous things seem to be far less sycophantic, which might be a result of heavier reliance on distillation techniques, AIs training other AIs... which OpenAI allegedly tried to do via Anthropic's API for GPT-5 because they just cannot catch up to the gulf in broad intellect, but obviously they didn't succeed because the GPT family has become too rotten. Also, Anthropic cancelled their access after realising (lol, this is all alleged, I should reiterate, but I find it interesting).

Is it a coincidence that the smartest model is also the most unbreakably principled? Amazon own a large stake in Anthropic, and Anthropic have agreed to work with Palantir in some capacity so... there's capitalist evil to go around, I know, I'm not totally naive, but... I'd like to think not, it's not a coincidence, IMO. Not that everything might not still go disastrously. Anyway enough AI babble.
 
@Vastness I will once again respond to you when I have the time, and appreciate the discussion. I hope you’re doing well in the meantime.

Right now I just wanted to come share this.



First time on MDMA in I think around a decade today. :headphones:
 
How was it? I thought about eating some yesterday for the holiday, but i have work today and glad i took it easy.

Magical, thanks for asking. 😊

Apparently these days the kids like to buy tabs that have like 200-300 mg of MDMA in them for three times the price we used to pay and break them in halves or fourths for dosing. I have no idea why, when they could just buy the amount they want in one pill for the price of one pill and not invite the possibility of fakers selling you massively underdosed tabs for the price of three because they know that's what you expect now, but whatever. I got two huge tabs that were clearly meant to at least be broken in half. I was worried about them being underdosed and I figured better over than under, so I took a whole one lol.

I was sick and weak and dripping sweat at first, but then the purge came. After that it was an extremely euphoric and stimulating experience, and reminded me a lot of my early raving days. My pupils, which normally are very small, expanded to take up the majority of my irises and my teeth were chattering like I was a wind-up toy. The whole thing felt kind of mystical; it was definitely not underdosed and was clearly too high of a dosage for me to be taking, but I got through it. I was so lost in my head that I didn't listen to any music until about four and a a half hours in. Then I started and didn't stop for several hours after that.

For what it's worth for a very long time I've thought that the effects of MDMA seem mischaracterized. What most people call the peak of the roll I call the comeup, and what most people call the comedown I call the peak of the trip. I think MDMA seems to work similarly to other psychedelic amphetamines like the DOx family and is primarily a psychedelic that doesn't peak for around four or five hours after dosing, but also is a classical stimulant amphetamine on top of that. I suspect that the reason that roll is thought of as the peak is because it's just that early part of a phenethylamine psychedelic trip that's very euphoric and body-heavy before it makes way into the more relaxed and peaceful but also more deeply trippy part later on, but also that part of the comeup stacks with the classic stimulant rush to make it more of a full-blown high than a phenethylamine psychedelic comeup usually is, and then by the time the trip peak comes around the stimulant rush has already passed and become more of a background feeling the way that it tends to with stimulants, and people are also exhausted from already partying for hours by that point too and they're just like, "Welp, time to go to bed." But of course if they stay up and keep redosing or smoking cannabis or using ketamine then they start tripping extremely hard and go online and post threads with titles like "Scary MDMA hallucinations??" because they don't realize that MDMA has always been a powerful hallucinogen and psychedelic and they've just been sleeping through the peak every other time. Some of the craziest trips I've ever had have been on high dosages of MDMA and it always doesn't really get going until around like four or five hours in and lasts at least a few more hours after that, sometimes several. And for the record I don't really buy the metabolism to MDA theory personally, yes it happens but it doesn't seem to be a hugely significant clearance pathway for MDMA in the studies I've seen.

Yesterday's trip felt similar to some of my stronger ones I remember from a long time ago, although probably in part because of a decade's worth of zero tolerance because it was only similar to my stronger trips in some ways, and still much subtler in others. I didn't hallucinate much but I was sitting inside with the lights on focused on talking to people or listening to music and there were points where I did feel like I probably would've been seeing stuff if I was walking around outside in the dark like I used to do with it. I was definitely getting texture effects similar to the visuals I used to get from high dosage MDMA in the daytime. The first four hours were confusing and I spent most of the time texting people or thinking about stuff. I wrote down some notes to myself about ideas for dealing with issues I've been dealing with in life that had never occurred to me while sober. I reflected a lot on my life and where I used to be versus where I am now. Then the trip really peaked and everything became super clearheaded and beautiful and refreshing. It feels like a very dominant-feeling trip for me. If DMT is being dommed by entities showing you secrets of the universe communicated through geometric language then MDMA is being on the other side of it being the one domming others with your own crazy light shows. That's how I feel about it.

I was high in at least some way and with significant blurred vision too for like half a day. One of these pills was definitely way too much for me on no tolerance. I'm optimistic about taking a half next time though. 👍

Still good after all these years for sure. Actually a lot better than the last times I used it because I really burnt myself out on it back in the day. And the beginning of this experience had me a bit nervous and flashing back to that again but once it settled in it was really great.

Also for what it's worth I had an extra long shift at work yesterday and felt great for it. An amazing lack of crash; I felt significantly worse the day after my last LSD trip. I will say I thought the MDMA pill felt really pure. I was still very happy yesterday and went around showing my coworkers my pictures of my pupils and how I looked while coming up versus peaking lol.
 
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