Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v. 10

but I heard hawkins used it.. no? where does he get the message?
Hawkins calibrated meth heroin cocaine as satanic drugs. But medical marihuana with low THC% was calibrated as medicine. Erva Santa Maria. That's why when i smoke i feel soo good and have no problems
 
Brother is dont do meth i only preach the gospel of my messiah David Hawkins. For I have seen the light. He will shepherd us through these dark times.

Praise be to him for what has been written transcends time and space. He gets me so fired up.

Thank you brother.
Namaste Brother. So happy to see you coming to the light side. Jesus heals. Amen ✝️🩵
 
Hawkins calibrated meth heroin cocaine as satanic drugs. But medical marihuana with low THC% was calibrated as medicine. Erva Santa Maria. That's why when i smoke i feel soo good and have no problems
Can you teach us more about him? Is he still alive somewhere? Is he giving you direct teachings?
 
Can you teach us more about him? Is he still alive somewhere? Is he giving you direct teachings?
His divine teachings are in form of books and spiritual talks. You can get them online. Get into light side brothers. Kundalini can heal everything.
 
When does the anhedonia go away? I've seen people post about anywhere from 6 months to 2 years.
It takes years to recover from anhedonia.
Especially from injections.

I only had 1 injection.
One year has passed. I am still suffering.
Anhedonia and many other side effects.

I don't think I will be recovered in another year either. My brain still feels fried.

Each year that passes after you stop the medication. It does get a little better.
 
How is your relationship with your parents?
They still try to infantilise control me lower my self esteem and emasculate me but i live im my homie adrian flat and my mother told me if will get the therapy she will support me financialy so i plan to order session today so i will get money for renting apartament as a support while i get more money from my job. We had court agreement that said exactly this.
 
When i say to her or in court that father brutally beat me with a belt when i was a child they go crazy. That's how much obsessed they are with perfect family facade. That's why they sued me because my friend Adrian send them my message of my testimony about how violent this home was that we planned to post it to their friends neighbours and Facebook. The day i was about to post it 2 cops came to my room and i was brutally handcuffed and send one day to prison and interrogated by sergeant 2 hours but he released me and he wrote evidence to court that was beneficial to me because he believed me. He said "you shoot yourself in foot by living with them". If he was dumb he could believe their lies and manipulation and i would be in prison for weeks waiting for court. They are trully narcissistic evil people. But God sees everything. I dont even care i wanted just them to leave me alone but they were threatening me with court and hospitalization while i was calm and doing nothing wrong just minding my own business so i had to have protection from this false diagnosis of schizophrenia by finally exposing what happened to me Bartosz to all people that knew this family. That's why they went crazy.
 
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It takes years to recover from anhedonia.
Especially from injections.

I only had 1 injection.
One year has passed. I am still suffering.
Anhedonia and many other side effects.

I don't think I will be recovered in another year either. My brain still feels fried.

Each year that passes after you stop the medication. It does get a little better.
That's good that it gets a little better. It's scary that you're still suffering. Are you able to feel joy at all?
 
It lessens alot from where you are now simply over the first few months. But it lingers and is hard to say when it really goes away. But the fiest few months are brutal. Your brain has no dopamine right now. That's the reason fort he akathisia I suspect.
Is that your experience? I'm getting really discouraged by people saying that after a year, it still feels like day 1.
 
That's good that it gets a little better. It's scary that you're still suffering. Are you able to feel joy at all?
As of joy. No not any. But I have to keep pushing everyday because I know it's the medication making me feel this way. I know one day the injection has to detox fully from my body. Then my brain will have to start to recover.

In the beginning I couldn't do anything at all.
Now 11 months later. I can watch videos and listen to music but I don't get any enjoyment out of it like I used to before.
 
When i say to her or in court that father brutally beat me with a belt when i was a child they go crazy. That's how much obsessed they are with perfect family facade. That's why they sued me because my friend Adrian send them my message of my testimony about how violent this home was that we planned to post it to their friends neighbours and Facebook. The day i was about to post it 2 cops came to my room and i was brutally handcuffed and send one day to prison and interrogated by sergeant 2 hours but he released me and he wrote evidence to court that was beneficial to me because he believed me. He said "you shoot yourself in foot by living with them". If he was dumb he could believe their lies and manipulation and i would be in prison for weeks waiting for court. They are trully narcissistic evil people. But God sees everything. I dont even care i wanted just them to leave me alone but they were threatening me with court and hospitalization while i was calm and doing nothing wrong just minding my own business so i had to have protection from this false diagnosis of schizophrenia by finally exposing what happened to me Bartosz to all people that knew this family. That's why they went crazy.
@TonyTonyChopper can you read this Brother please?
 
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