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Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v. 10

BelieveinGod123 said:
Please explain how I'm Toxic and Immature?

Also I think your forgetting the PSSD you have is from the Invega you got. Just like everyone else here on this thread who is suffering after getting Invega. We all have
sexual dysfunction/ No libido from blocked dopamine receptors.

You probably made your PSSD worse taking an SSRI.
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Dude. You faked a suicide for attention. Do I need to say more? That was deeply childish and I get the impression that you're young. You sit around telling people they aren't healing because you don't believe in it.

I was recovering sexually before I took Prozac. I even had full libido back, then I had to take Ability for serotonin syndrome. It came back a bit after that, but Prozac has a month long washout period and PSSD hit me a month after I stopped Prozac. Invega doesn't give you PSSD, sexual dysfunction is a common side effect of all antipsychotics. Not everyone who takes an SSRI with invega gets PSSD, but it dramatically increases the odds of getting it, at least in the anecdotal evidence I've seen
 
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@foodcrisis
Thank you for understanding.
I'm still waiting to see a recovery.

Antipsychotics damage your Pituary Gland.
The Pituary gland also know as "Third Eye"
Is responsible for the ability to perceive the past, present, or future.

Which means you can't use your imagination as well as normal people. You need your imagination to think about the past, present, or future.

Your imagination is basically your Memory.
If you take away someone's imagination you are basically taking wiping away their memory.

No memory=No motivation=No pleasure

Word of advice:
Never take any antipsychotic Injection.
 
It can take people up to two years to recover from invega sustenna after their last dose. I've seen a few people take that long, some people take only 6 months, some people take a year. I've seen one person take three years and five years. The permanence of pharmaceutical fuckery is uncertain.

All you're doing is scaring yourself by convincing yourself you have irreversible brain damage

Read this very slowly: Trinza takes longer to recover from because it has a longer half life. I've seen people recover from Trinza, but they're less common in this thread because the people who move up to Trinza are most often people who need it and continue to take it.

So people who take Trinza and Hafyera are generally not here. That's unfortunate because if they were, you would see that they also recover.

You are going to be ok, BelieveinGod. I'm not ignoring anything about you, I'm trying to reassure you so you don't fucking kill yourself. I don't think what you're going through is permanent. I got fucking PSSD, which has a much lower recovery rate than an Invega injection and I didn't make it everyone else's problem. I didn't cry about "whaaaa I'm never going to recover!" I certainly didn't tell people they will never recover. I prayed hoping some higher power could hear me and I waited. I didn't doubt the people who recovered before I did. And here I am, comfortable and mentally functional again but not unscathed.

You're walking the path of a weak person. Stop acting like this.
 
Please please please can someone tell me if not being able to exercise is typical? It's been about 70 days
 
invega011024 said:
This is very important to me. Do you have an estimated time frame for being able to exercise/having the drive?
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For being able to exercise? You can do that now. I'm sure it feels almost impossible...but you can try something light such as using a pedal exerciser while browsing this forum. I did that while in the early stages of coming off the Invega shots and it helped minimize weight gain/gave me something to do.

For having the drive? That took me about 8-9 months.
 
8 months later//

Mentally I am stronger than pre invega.

mentally I am recovered but body has trauma.

Sexual desire is nearly strong as pre invega but not as intense as before.

I am not sure if this is good thing or not.

This is still recovering.


My interests has changed a lot.

I don't find interesting about things I loved before.

I don't like usually more intense and dopamine inducing activities.

I like more calm activities like reading books, studying, drinking tea in the nature etc.

Not that I didn't like those activities but I completely changed.


My past self last year is completely gone.

I am a new person with a strong painful experience that changed my life.

My interests.
People I meet.
Things I do.


I said I recovered 150% before because I feel like I am much better person than before
if my sensitivity of sexual thing recover(almost recovered but there is something missing), I would say I am 200% recovered.

Also I still have the fat in the belly that I gained in the initial stage of this invega injection.

I got 10kg initially without changing my diet habit, lost 5kg right now.

I never had this kind of fat in my body.

I never eat excess. I eat only 1.5 meals a day. Still there is this fat.

I think this means there is still invega left working on my body.


If this is true, I will be so much stronger and better person when this fat is gone(when invega is competely gone)

or it maybe my body is still adjusting my metabolic cycle.
 
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Man i wish there was a simple off switch in life. Why does sucide/ death have to be this awful painful experience.

My life is totally fucked i have no idea how I'm ever going to return to being a functional human being.

My parents will die and then I will be alone in life. Lucky I have a brother and sister.

What an actual fucking loser I am. Sitting at home rotting away. I am a shell of my former self.

Fulled with self loathing and regret. Can't even really enjoy playing video games or doing the things I used to becuase I constantly stress about my future. And regret my past.

I wish I was never born. It baffles me that people think bringing children into this hellscale of a reality is a good idea.

Anyways.
 
I love living with the knowledge i ruined my life and will most likely die destitute and probably never experience real joy ever again
 
IOSIP said:
Man i wish there was a simple off switch in life. Why does sucide/ death have to be this awful painful experience.

My life is totally fucked i have no idea how I'm ever going to return to being a functional human being.

My parents will die and then I will be alone in life. Lucky I have a brother and sister.

What an actual fucking loser I am. Sitting at home rotting away. I am a shell of my former self.

Fulled with self loathing and regret. Can't even really enjoy playing video games or doing the things I used to becuase I constantly stress about my future. And regret my past.

I wish I was never born. It baffles me that people think bringing children into this hellscale of a reality is a good idea.

Anyways.
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You don't have dream?

Don't you want to become independant?

What's your dream?
 
wbga said:
You don't have dream?

Don't you want to become independant?

What's your dream?
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I dunno dude I just have no idea how I'm ever going to recover from the devastation this whole incident has caused me.

Cant imagine live for another 40 years or whatever it may be. Just to fucking die one day anyways.

I've ruined everything and I'm scared.
 
IOSIP said:
I dunno dude I just have no idea how I'm ever going to recover from the devastation this whole incident has caused me.

Cant imagine live for another 40 years or whatever it may be. Just to fucking die one day anyways.

I've ruined everything and I'm scared.
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bro u just had 2 injections recovery is inevetible for you. I had more than 5x injections than you and I have hope of recovery so stay strong and give your brain time to adapt and recover.
 
IOSIP said:
I dunno dude I just have no idea how I'm ever going to recover from the devastation this whole incident has caused me.

Cant imagine live for another 40 years or whatever it may be. Just to fucking die one day anyways.

I've ruined everything and I'm scared.
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Try to think what you can do now.

Focus on the step.

Do what you can do.

Start small.

That's what I am doing.
 
I pray when we die we aren't reborn again. I've thought about this alot recently. We had no choices to be here in the first place. Sleep is an illusion. There is only consciousness. What if death is an illusion to. What if the moment we die we get reborn again. In some sick game of never ending life that no one fucking asked for in the first place. Life is such a mystery. Why are we here on this rock? Only to die. What's the fucking point.

No save states. No doubt overs. One fatal error and your life is fucked. And you just get to keep on living it. Is how I feel.
 
IOSIP said:
Man i wish there was a simple off switch in life. Why does sucide/ death have to be this awful painful experience.

My life is totally fucked i have no idea how I'm ever going to return to being a functional human being.

My parents will die and then I will be alone in life. Lucky I have a brother and sister.

What an actual fucking loser I am. Sitting at home rotting away. I am a shell of my former self.

Fulled with self loathing and regret. Can't even really enjoy playing video games or doing the things I used to becuase I constantly stress about my future. And regret my past.

I wish I was never born. It baffles me that people think bringing children into this hellscale of a reality is a good idea.

Anyways.
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Many people recovered. Believe in z Christ and pray. All love brother ✝️🤍
 
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