AngelsandFairiesarereal
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Good luck with tapering and your programOne cup coffee. 2 foils fentanyl. ( Tapering). A menthol cigarette 60mgs Methadone (only back on program for 2 weeks)

Good luck with tapering and your programOne cup coffee. 2 foils fentanyl. ( Tapering). A menthol cigarette 60mgs Methadone (only back on program for 2 weeks)
We've talked before about common struggles with chronic pain, but I'm curious about how you don't fall to just sleeping every day away using this many sedatives? I'm stacking a nearly equivalent amount of stimulants as I am sedatives just to keep my eyes open while handling chronic pain.Tramadol & xanax … then woke back up and some more tramadol and half a clonazepam, orange juice and coffee. Kind of a crappy pain day so maybe I’ll add Robaxin and naproxen.
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lol I don’t know I’m a little hyperactive naturally (even though people always say I seem calm … it’s a weird combination). I’m also really small and doctors have told me I have a fast metabolism or that I metabolize things quickly … but honestly that was years ago and sometimes I wonder if certain doctors even know what they are talking about. Current doctors say that I’m hypervigilant from PTSD & I’m also an insomniac. I’m also addicted to coffee and drink it all day and night (so after all my rambling here maybe the only thing that made sense was the coffee thing … tho I was still like this before I drank coffee). *Also tramadol sometimes feels like a stimulant to me a little bit.We've talked before about common struggles with chronic pain, but I'm curious about how you don't fall to just sleeping every day away using this many sedatives? I'm stacking a nearly equivalent amount of stimulants as I am sedatives just to keep my eyes open while handling chronic pain.
The caffeine makes sense, I range from 400-600mg a day, but would easily reach a gram per day if I allowed myself. Chronic pain is definitely something else, I've found my most successful strategy to be alternating pharmacokinetic mechanisms. Spend a few days going hard on the THC tincture, then a few days focusing on ketamine, then a few focusing on kratom, then a few focusing on gabapentin/soma/benzos/ghb, then repeating.lol I don’t know I’m a little hyperactive naturally (even though people always say I seem calm … it’s a weird combination). I’m also really small and doctors have told me I have a fast metabolism or that I metabolize things quickly … but honestly that was years ago and sometimes I wonder if certain doctors even know what they are talking about. Current doctors say that I’m hypervigilant from PTSD & I’m also an insomniac. I’m also addicted to coffee and drink it all day and night (so after all my rambling here maybe the only thing that made sense was the coffee thing … tho I was still like this before I drank coffee). *Also tramadol sometimes feels like a stimulant to me a little bit.
Sorry that was a ramble and a half lol … maybe the real answer is I have no idea and I’m loca lol.
I’m really sorry you have chronic pain too, it really is a bitch isn’t it? Do stimulants make you feel happy, like dopamine? Or just balance out the sedatives? I used to do a lot of coke back in the day and would drink beers to balance it out, but quit that seven years ago.
I hope you’re having a good night amigo
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No don’t be sorry for your rant, I like your rantsThe caffeine makes sense, I range from 400-600mg a day, but would easily reach a gram per day if I allowed myself. Chronic pain is definitely something else, I've found my most successful strategy to be alternating pharmacokinetic mechanisms. Spend a few days going hard on the THC tincture, then a few days focusing on ketamine, then a few focusing on kratom, then a few focusing on gabapentin/soma/benzos/ghb, then repeating.
The stimulants vary heavily. Just off the dome, as far as stimulants go I think I've sampled amphetamine (as pharma adderall, dexedrine, and eurospeed), methylphenidate, 4-fluoromethylphenidate, methamphetamine, bupropion, DMAA, 6-APB, DMAE, DMHA, ephedrine, MDPM, caffeine, NEP, MDA/MDMA if those count, theobromine, atomoxetine, yohimbine, myriad gas station dick pills, theacrine, and methylliberine. I would say that they only bring happiness if you have things to apply the energy/focus they induce towards. Stimulants with nothing to do just generate gigaboredom, but stimulants with a lot to do feel great, if that makes sense.
I usually use bupropion and caffeine as a baseline to counter the kratom and THC-O I use for chronic pain management, but the others just make me exceptionally productive relative to my normal, somewhat sluggish pace. I suspect that I'm metabolically flipped from you in a way, I'm a wide-built, stocky, slow metabolizer. An old friend of mine was the inverse, an exceptionally fast metabolizer and it was always wild to take a matching dose with him and still feel it so many hours after he did.
On the topic of stimulants feeling "fulfilled", I find each one has its own character. Phenidates (especially 4F-MPH) gives me what I've often called "vampire poppy-seed syndrome", referring to the historical vampire deterrent of scattering innumerable poppy seeds in front of the coffin, as vampires would be forced by involuntary compulsion to count the seeds. Amphetamine hollows me out emotionally so I tend to go easy on it nowadays, but meth is smoother and leads into a flow state of hyper-productivity, but the hangover is a bitch. I've never had a hangover or any comedown/negative aftereffects from MDA, 6-APB or MDMA, but amphetamine and methamphetamine both have perfectly emulated the feeling of when I got hit by a Tampa city bus. Yohimbine and ephedrine are the feelings of pure adrenaline and can be applied anywhere but have annoying thermogenic effects. Random gas station dick pills are interesting, they're fascinatingly applicable as study aids and make it so that I don't cough as much when smoking weed. That antitussive side effect has often led me to become as high as possible in combination with them, which may be why to this day, high potency cannabis extracts and spice are the best drugs I've come across for erotic qualities. To this day I have no idea what was in countless of those pills, they'd usually have little or no text on the package, and the cashier at this bodega would sell me pure ephedrine tablets, these random dick pills, tianeptine, halal food, but they could not speak English, Spanish nor French so I had no chance at communicating. I got hit by that HART (Tampa area) bus while on ephedrine from that very bodega, in fact.
Some of these stimulants really shine compared to others. Ephedrine for example makes me feel infinitely resilient, I got hit by that bus and kept on skateboarding. The next day I felt like I'd been dropped off of a moving airplane, but throughout that entire night I was just pouring sweat, aggressively skating alone in the Temple Terrace neighborhood of Tampa, which has rather constant 24/7 traffic. Methamphetamine and amphetamine have led to more productivity in my life than anything other than bupropion or caffeine, countless projects completed, skills learned, days-long benders of music making and working out and the sort. NEP is unique in that it's an empathogenic stimulant that also turns most people, myself included, into degenerate gremlins. Much like the variance in sedatives, stimulants all exhibit novel characteristics which somewhat reflect their structure-activity relationship (SAR), but really what all of the messages add up to is the sum message of "don't always trust the SAR".
Sorry for the rant, been a long day (DPT both orally and intranasally, DiPT, 2C-B, DXM, THC-O orally, Bupropion both orally and intranasally, and Caffeine)
Lolgives me what I've often called "vampire poppy-seed syndrome"
You got hit by a bus? Damn that's too crazy, sorry to hear.I got hit by that HART (Tampa area) bus while on ephedrine from that very bodega, in fact.
there's two more pages til making another version of this thread, i nominate @Psychlone Jack or @AngelsandFairiesarereal to make the next one whenever it reaches 250, since you guys have been regular contributors to it for a long time... maybe think of a good title!
Nothing to worry about tbh, mostly due to skateboarding I've been hit by moving vehicles over ten times. Sometimes it's concussion inducing, and I'm at 10+ with concussions too, but really most concussions occurred because of slipping on ice. Part of the benefits I draw from cannabis and psychedelics is the neuroprotective and neuroregenerative side effects of those drugs.You got hit by a bus? Damn that's too crazy, sorry to hear.
The etizolam box mod solved all of my still-awake woes. I don't use it often but, man, in combination with cimetidine last night it was knockout fuel. A couple of days ago I insufflated 60mg of bromonordiazepam which wears off in a week or so as well, so I'm still riding out that beautivul Valium-ish glow.Hope you’re chillin’ by the time you’re reading this![]()
100% summed up nicely.Stimulants with nothing to do just generate gigaboredom, but stimulants with a lot to do feel great, if that makes sense.
Aw you’re so sweetLadies first though if @AngelsandFairiesarereal wants it.![]()
Are you tapering off your methadone? If so how is your taper going? What made you want to go down? What support system do you have or your just tried of being on the program? I'm always interested in how people get of methadone? I've done it twice. Both times were completely different.Morning blueworld
Well seeing its Monday and back to routine. Had a wild weekend but paid for it as usual.
15mg Methadone
20mg diazepam
1mg clonazepam
Malawi cob.
Gonna maybe go make coffee. Oh and this weekend included. Needed the extra benzos for the day as it's a busy one up a head and I know I'm gonna get worked up a few times, so just more for prevention as I already wanna rip someones head off.
Oh and the weekend involved some ludes. Was after we smoked that I called it quits and went home.