InvegaAnon
Bluelighter
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I think I will be emotionally normal soon. I just want my sexuality back. It's like I feel something kicking to get out, but it's trapped and suppressed. My groin very clearly isn't numb anymore, it never is. Very blunted sensation usually, but it feels like the rest of my skin.
I want everyone reading this to know you CAN get your intelligence back, you CAN get your emotions back. Even if not all of it, you can get 90%. I felt like I was faking emotions a lot, just trying to feel something. If you do that naturally, you're on the right track. If you have no thoughts, just try to think. Narrate what you are doing yourself, even if you have to do it out loud.
My hormone test looks like I'm trying to ovulate, but I am slow to, since I didn't ovulate yet at the time of the test and I was past day 14. I don't know if something is wrong with my estrogen or not. There is nothing wrong with my egg supply as far as I know. Last I knew, I probably have more eggs than other people my age. I hope it stays that way. My FSH goes up and down like it should. Metformin lowered my testasterone and A1C like it should, and I only need 500mg a day. Testasterone is in the normal range, but I still want it to be high again some day for gender reasons. It dropped my A1C a whole point and it's out of the borderline prediabetic range. They wanted me to do 1000 but I just don't need that much medication. More than that could be detrimental to my hormonal profile, even. My cycle could be normal in a couple more months. It's probably taking longer because I'm taking less than most people.
I want everyone reading this to know you CAN get your intelligence back, you CAN get your emotions back. Even if not all of it, you can get 90%. I felt like I was faking emotions a lot, just trying to feel something. If you do that naturally, you're on the right track. If you have no thoughts, just try to think. Narrate what you are doing yourself, even if you have to do it out loud.
My hormone test looks like I'm trying to ovulate, but I am slow to, since I didn't ovulate yet at the time of the test and I was past day 14. I don't know if something is wrong with my estrogen or not. There is nothing wrong with my egg supply as far as I know. Last I knew, I probably have more eggs than other people my age. I hope it stays that way. My FSH goes up and down like it should. Metformin lowered my testasterone and A1C like it should, and I only need 500mg a day. Testasterone is in the normal range, but I still want it to be high again some day for gender reasons. It dropped my A1C a whole point and it's out of the borderline prediabetic range. They wanted me to do 1000 but I just don't need that much medication. More than that could be detrimental to my hormonal profile, even. My cycle could be normal in a couple more months. It's probably taking longer because I'm taking less than most people.
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