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Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v. 9

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wbga said:
Having suicidal thoughts or mental health struggles is never shameful or pathetic. However, it's concerning to see someone sharing suicide methods in a mental health support community, as this could harm other vulnerable people who are seeking help.
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I just asked where i can order it. People can kill themselves despite that
 
wbga said:
Then search for yourself.

Don't drag anyone involved in your stupid decision.
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Dont take it personally. You will recover fully from injections. Its the trauma of living with evil monsters combined with dehumanising me by some psycho doctors at mental hospital dw.
 
Youwillrecover said:
Dont take it personally. You will recover fully from injections. Its the trauma of living with evil monsters combined with dehumanising me by some psycho doctors at mental hospital dw.
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I know what you mean, these doctors are psycho and heartless for giving me this poison they took away my whole life I’m disabled now and can’t do anything else other than stare at the wall for 24/7
 
Youwillrecover said:
Dont take it personally. You will recover fully from injections. Its the trauma of living with evil monsters combined with dehumanising me by some psycho doctors at mental hospital dw.
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I will tell you this because you seemed like a spiritual person.

Every problem doesn't lie on the outside circumstances.

Don't blame others or outside for your problem.

I know it is hard to do it, but that's the only way you get the control of things and your happiness.

You said getting help from god by prayer worked for you, then try more.

You said hugging a girl would help.

Maybe the real problem isn't your mother.

Look more deeply into your mind.

You may just need a hug and love, especially from someone you respect or love.

To do that, you need to prepare yourself first.

Stop blaming others and become strong guy.

Calm your mind and be respectful to others not for them but for yourself.

Girl can sense that aura out of you.

The confidence.

Because girls are more fragile and emotionally sensitive than men, they want someone to rely on unconciously.

You need to make yourself first before blaming others.

Don't kill yourself, that will be the stupiest regret you can make.
 
wbga said:
I will tell you this because you seemed like a spiritual person.

Every problem doesn't lie on the outside circumstances.

Don't blame others or outside for your problem.

I know it is hard to do it, but that's the only way you get the control of things and your happiness.

You said getting help from god by prayer worked for you, then try more.

You said hugging a girl would help.

Maybe the real problem isn't your mother.

Look more deeply into your mind.

You may just need a hug and love, especially from someone you respect or love.

To do that, you need to prepare yourself first.

Stop blaming others and become strong guy.

Calm your mind and be respectful to others not for them but for yourself.

Girl can sense that aura out of you.

The confidence.

Because girls are more fragile and emotionally sensitive than men, they want someone to rely on unconciously.

You need to make yourself first before blaming others.

Don't kill yourself, that will be the stupiest regret you can make.
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Broooooooo i just wanna die even tho your advice is great and thank you for trying. But... Im broken. I cannot and dont want to experience this anymore. I never been this bad in my life and thats where they abuse me the most. You have no idea what it means to live with psycho parents. Combine it with constant fight or flight because they threaten me i cannot go independent because i barely have energy to clean my room. I live with monsters who are called mother and a father for some reason.
 
Youwillrecover said:
Broooooooo i just wanna die even tho your advice is great and thank you for trying. But... Im broken. I cannot and dont want to experience this anymore. I never been this bad in my life and thats where they abuse me the most. You have no idea what it means to live with psycho parents. Combine it with constant fight or flight because they threaten me i cannot go independent because i barely have energy to clean my room. I live with monsters who are called mother and a father for some reason.
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Well I can't relate to that much because my parents aren't that horrible but I don't expect much from my parents either.

I know they are mortal beings that will turn to ashes in the future.

That is of course including myself.

You don't know my pain either.

I am not talking about you not being on invega.

I have rare disease after mushroom induced psychosis(that was first and last psychosis I experienced in my lifetime),
I got something called Alien Hand Syndrome.

You don't know how horrible it is to lose your control over body in this way.

I think this is my first time revealing this.

I thought I was possessed by ghost or something.

But now I don't blame others for my consequences.

I feel broken too man.

Broken Broken.

I want to start my life again from the start.

But you don't know anything about life after death.

Killing yourself is never a solution for hard problem.

You can't escape the reality by killing yourself but overcoming them with your peace.

Difficulties that don't kill you makes you only stronger and wiser person.
 
Youwillrecover said:
Broooooooo i just wanna die even tho your advice is great and thank you for trying. But... Im broken. I cannot and dont want to experience this anymore. I never been this bad in my life and thats where they abuse me the most. You have no idea what it means to live with psycho parents. Combine it with constant fight or flight because they threaten me i cannot go independent because i barely have energy to clean my room. I live with monsters who are called mother and a father for some reason.
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If you are seriously contemplating suicide please contact a mental health expert or suicide help line.
While we can empathize with your suffering and pain, we are not experts and cannot provide the type of support that you may need.
 
wbga said:
Well I can't relate to that much because my parents aren't that horrible but I don't expect much from my parents either.

I know they are mortal beings that will turn to ashes in the future.

That is of course including myself.

You don't know my pain either.

I am not talking about you not being on invega.

I have rare disease after mushroom induced psychosis(that was first and last psychosis I experienced in my lifetime),
I got something called Alien Hand Syndrome.

You don't know how horrible it is to lose your control over body in this way.

I think this is my first time revealing this.

I thought I was possessed by ghost or something.

But now I don't blame others for my consequences.

I feel broken too man.

Broken Broken.

I want to start my life again from the start.

But you don't know anything about life after death.

Killing yourself is never a solution for hard problem.

You can't escape the reality by killing yourself but overcoming them with your peace.

Difficulties that don't kill you makes you only stronger and wiser person.
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All love bro. Life was beautiful to me before these mental hospitals. I see suicide as a conveniant way to do something rather then bad move
 
Youwillrecover said:
There is god there is after life just curious where does a soul of suicide person goes. Imma check hah
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You find the answer when you are alive not after death.

It is your choice where you go.

There is no such thing as heaven or hell in literal sense.

You are the god who make your own world.

Your decision of "killing yourself" is the consequence itself.

Where do you think you will go after that decision of harming yourself?

That's called ghost lingering here on earth with regret infinitely killing yourself.

You judge your life not others.
 
destroylonely said:
quite the opposite. the anhedonia is much better, but the physical symptoms are too much to bear. i'm not able to breathe properly, i keep wheezing and coughing hardly. these flu-like symptoms are making me so suicidal.
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I don't have coughing or wheezing but I have difficult breathing problem too.

Shortness of breath is more accurate.
 
Imma order kratom from Sweden. Maybe it will work. The thing is i need to be 24/7 high or i get suicidal baaaaad. Weed just runned out eh. If i can have 24/7 acesss to weed i survive. Not because im junkie but my nervous system is so wild without these cannabinoids
 
Guys I wish I am back to my normal self.

I was beautiful.

I could feel the happiness through little sunlight.

Little human interaction gave me hope.

Not that I don't feel it now.

This medicine is still blocking my aura shining.

I was more beautiful.

But I believe my aura will be more firm and shine really hard
when I am out of here.

That's my wish.

I want to shine and create some meaningful interactions.

I want to make people feel safe around me.

Hope you guys take this time as blessing too.

This will make you more beautiful person ever.
 
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