This message will be like my last two: extemporaneous.
First, I want to include some of the products I ordered during this Invega experience. This is in no way me recommending that you buy or use any of these products. This site has a firm position on not allowing members or staff (I presume) to recommend, suggest, or diagnose anything to anybody on this site.
1. SOME OF THE PRODUCTS I USE/USED
A. ORDER PLACED March 18, 2024, TOTAL $14.31:
Nature's Way Premium St. John’s Wort Herb, Promotes A Positive Outlook*, 700 mg per serving, 180 Vegan Capsules
B. ORDER PLACED September 4, 2024, TOTAL $156.03 (Delivered September 7th):
Royal Detox - All-in-One Cleanse | Zeolite, Cilantro, Chlorella, Spirulina, Apple Pectin | Full Body, Liver, Colon Detox | Supports Energy, Mood, Immunity, Gut Health, Reduced Inflammation 90 Capsules
Zeolite Pure | Full Body Detox Cleanse | Safe, Gentle, & Effective Energy Booster That Supports Gut Health, Mental Clarity, & Healthy Inflammation Response | Original Zeolite Powder (400 Servings)
Tongkat Ali Extract 200 to 1 for Men (Longjack) Eurycoma Longifolia, 1020mg per Serving, 120 Capsules - Men's Health Support with 20mg Tribulus Terrestris (Third Party Tested) by Double Wood
envitamin Ultimate Multivitamin Multimineral and Superfood with 42 Fruit and Vegetable Blend, 60 Count
NOW Supplements, Selenium (L-Selenomethionine) 100 mcg, Essential Mineral*, 100 Tablets
Nature's Bounty L-Arginine, Supports Blood Flow and Vascular Function, 1000 mg, Tablets, 50 Ct
C. ORDER PLACED September 18, 2024, TOTAL $200.48 (Delivered September 21st) (This order contained more products):
Semapro - Extreme Semen Volumizer and Male Energy Formula - All Natural Endurance, Stamina & Health
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Maxxi Clean Fubienfit Shilajit Pure Himalayan Organic - 20450MG Shilajit Capsules - Premium Shilajit for Men - with Ashwagandha Ginseng and More Fulvic Acid for Men/Women - 120 Capsules
Sports Research Triple Strength Omega 3 Fish Oil - Burpless Fish Oil Supplement w/EPA & DHA Fatty Acids from Single-Source Wild Alaska Pollock - 1250 mg, 90 ct
Mucuna Pruriens Extract Capsules - Dopamine Boosting Supplement - 210 Count, 1,000mg Per Serving, 20% (from Velvet Bean) (for Mood and Motivation Support) Third Party Tested by Double Wood
D. ORDER PLACED October 6, 2024, TOTAL $193.64 & *$39.99 (Delivered October 9th):
USDA Organic Mullein Drops for Lungs - Mullein Leaf & Licorice Extract Supplement - Made in USA - Lung & Bronchial Cleanse for Smokers - Respiratory Health Support - As Liquid, Tincture, Tea - 4 fl oz
Carlyle Red Clover Capsules 1200mg | 200 Count | Trifolium Pratense | Non-GMO, Gluten Free | Red Clover Blossom Extract Supplement
Nature's Way Vitamin C with Bioflavonoids, Immune Support*, High Potency Vitamin C per 2-capsule serving, Promotes Collagen*, 1,000 mg per 2-Capsule Serving, 250 Capsules (Packaging May Vary)
RidgeCrest Herbals ClearLungs Extra Strength, Natural Lung, Nasal Health Formula, Bronchial, Respiratory, Sinus, Mucus Support (60 Caps, 30 Serv)
Dr. Tobias Lung Health, Lung Support Supplement with Vitamin C, Butterbur, Quercetin & Bromelain, Lung Cleanse & Detox Formula for Bronchial & Respiratory System, Non-GMO, 60 Capsules, 60 Servings
JOYLI Hemp Gummies - Natural Lung Cleanse with Mullein Leaf & Reishi Mushroom - Extra Strength Clean Lung Support Supplement with Vitamins A, C, D & E - Sugar-Free, Vegan, Non-GMO - 60 Edibles
NOW Foods Supplements, Glutathione 500 mg, With Milk Thistle Extract & Alpha Lipoic Acid, Free Radical Neutralizer*, 60 Veg Capsules
Nature's Way Premium Herbal Pau d'Arco Inner Bark, Traditional South American Ingredient, 1,090 mg per serving, 180 Capsules
Horbäach Echinacea Extract Capsules 1300mg | 300 Count | Vegan, Non-GMO, Gluten Free Supplement
Mullein Leaf Extract for Lung Detox 3500 mg - Echinacea | Oregano | Quercetin | NAC - 15-in-1 Lung Support Supplement - Cleanse for Smokers - Made in USA - As Drops, Tea, Tincture, 60 Vegan Capsules
*Asthma Relief,Bronchial Health,Lung Cleanse and Detox by OmniBreathe,30-Day Respiratory Wellness Supplement,Naturally Reduce Cough & Clear Mucus/Phlegm for Smokers in 24H,60 Veg Capsules (Delivered Oct. 15th)
2. INVEGA IN GEMATRIA/GEMATRIA RELATED TO INVEGA
A. The end of Invega (135); fully breathe (135); pulmonary (135); God has healed them (135).
B. the Invega cure (138); sexual healing (138).
C. The cure for Invega (177); mullein extract (177).
D. Pau D'arco Inner Bark (171); anti-inflammation (171).
(There are more things I ascertained through Gematria, which I achieved with the help of angels.)
3. PROOF OF GEMATRIA
A. Jesus (74); Messiah (74).
"One of the two which heard John speak, and followed him, was Andrew, Simon Peter's brother. He first findeth his own brother Simon, and saith unto him, We have found the
Messias, which is, being interpreted, the Christ. And he brought him to
Jesus. And when Jesus beheld him, he said, Thou art Simon the son of Jona: thou shalt be called Cephas, which is by interpretation, A stone." - John 1:40-42
Messias, Greek form of
Messiah.
"Messiah: the leader and liberator of the Jews, promised by the prophets and looked for as the restorer of the theocracy... the Messiah (in Christian use): Jesus, as fulfilling the prophecy of the Lord's Anointed..." - The World Book Dictionary (1971 Edition)
B. God is (54); Love (54).
"He that loveth not knoweth not God; for
God is love." - 1 John 4:8
C. The Messiah (107); eternal life (107).
"For the wages of sin is death; but the gift of God is
eternal life through
Jesus Christ our Lord." - Romans 6:23
D. private (91); liberty (91); dark (34); free (34); oneness (91); one (34).
"A man can be himself only so long as he is alone, and if he does not love solitude, he will not love freedom, for it is only when he is alone that he is really free." - Arthur Schopenhauer
E. happy (66); freedom (66).
"The secret to happiness is freedom..." - Thucydides
F. spirit (91); liberty 91).
"Now the Lord is that
Spirit: and where the
Spirit of the Lord is, there is
liberty." - 2 Corinthians 3:17
G. sin is (70); folly (70).
"The thought of foolishness is sin: and the scorner is an abomination to men." - Proverbs 24:9
"folly: 1. a being foolish; lack of sense; unwise conduct... 2. a foolish act, practice, or idea; something silly... 3. a costly but foolish undertaking... 4... a. wickedness b. wantonness." - The World Book Dictionary (1971 Edition)
"I count religion but a childish toy,
And hold there is no sin but ignorance."
- Christopher Marlowe, "The Jew of Malta"
"ignorance: lack of knowledge; quality or condition of being ignorant... ignorant: 1. knowing little or nothing; without knowledge... 2. caused by lack of knowledge. 3. showing lack of knowledge:
an ignorant remark. 4. uninformed; unaware.
He was ignorant of the fact that the town had been destroyed.
"My people are destroyed for lack of knowledge: because thou hast rejected knowledge, I will also reject thee, that thou shalt be no priest to me: seeing thou hast forgotten the law of thy God, I will also forget thy children." - Hosea 4:6
"O LORD, how great are thy works! and thy thoughts are very deep. A brutish man knoweth not; neither doth a fool understand this. When the wicked spring as the grass, and when all the workers of iniquity do flourish; it is that they shall be destroyed for ever: But thou, LORD, art most high for evermore." - Psalm 92:5-8
H. free (34); grace (34).
"
grace: ...5.
Theology. a. God's
free and undeserved favor to and love for mankind; influence of God operating in man to improve and strengthen..." - The World Book Dictionary (1971 Edition)
I. Samael (Heb.) (131); the angel of death (131); It Follows (131); impurity (131).
"Thus hast thou hanged our life on brittle pins,
To let us know it will not bear our sins." - Francis Bacon, "Psalm 90, Lines 23-24"
"...sin, when it is finished, bringeth forth death." - James 1:15
"
It Follows is a 2014 American horror film written and directed by David Robert Mitchell." - wikipedia.org
"Carefree university student Jay Height goes to a movie with her boyfriend Hugh. Hugh points out a girl in a yellow dress, whom Jay says she cannot see. Unnerved, Hugh asks that they leave. Later, Hugh and Jay have sex for the first time in his car, after which he incapacitates her with chloroform. She wakes up tied to a wheelchair, where Hugh explains that he has passed something to her through intercourse – she will be pursued by an entity that only they can see, which can take the appearance of any person." - idem. (It Follows movie)
J. Jesus Christ (151); miracle worker (151); trust in Him (151).
"But Jesus turned him about, and when he saw her, he said, Daughter, be of good comfort; thy faith hath made thee whole. And the woman was made whole from that hour." - Matthew 9:22
"This beginning of miracles did Jesus in Cana of Galilee, and manifested forth his glory; and his disciples believed on him." - John 2:11
"Now when he was in Jerusalem at the passover, in the feast day, many believed in his name, when they saw the miracles which he did." - John 2:23
"And a great multitude followed him, because they saw his miracles which he did on them that were diseased." - John 6:2
"miracle man: 1.
Informal. a man who accomplishes something unusually difficult or previously thought impossible. 2. a man who performs miracles; wonder-worker." - The World Book Dictionary (1971 Edition).
"miracle worker: A person who claims or is alleged to perform miracles. (figuratively) Someone who accomplishes a difficult task." - wiktionary.org
"Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on thee: because he trusteth in thee." - Isaiah 26:3
26 + 3 = 29 (numerical value of "calm")
"peace: ...4. quiet; calm..." - The World Book Dictionary (1971 Edition)
Isaiah 26:3 (76); safety (76); win peace (76); relieve (76).
"shalah/shalav (Heb.): to be tranquil, secure, or successful... prosper, safety, happy." - The New Strong's Expanded Exhaustive Concordance of the Bible Red-Letter Edition
"shalvah (Heb.): security... prosperity; peaceably; quietness; abundance; peace." - The New Strong's Expanded Exhaustive Concordance of the Bible Red-Letter Edition
"shalowm/shalom (Heb.): safe; well; happy; friendly... welfare; i.e. health, prosperity, peace... prosperous, rest, safety,... wholly... Shalom, as a noun, means "peace, completeness; welfare; health... in tranquility; at ease... wholeness..." - The New Strong's Expanded Exhaustive Concordance of the Bible Red-Letter Edition
ease (30); peace (30).
"relief: 1. the lessing of, or freeing from, a pain, burden, difficulty, etc. 2. something that lessens or frees from pain, burden, difficulty, etc.; aid; help. 3. help given to poor people; something that makes a pleasant change or lessens strain..." - The World Book Dictionary (1971 Edition)
"peace: 1. freedom from war or strife of any kind.... 2. public quiet; order; security..." - The World Book Dictionary (1971 Edition)
"eirene (Greek): peace; one; quietness; rest... freedom from molestation..." - The New Strong's Expanded Exhaustive Concordance of the Bible Red-Letter Edition
perfect (73); union (73)
God is able (74); healing me (74).
"whole: 6. not injured, broken, or defective... 7. a. well; healthy. b.
Archaic. restored to good health, as from disease, an injury, or a wound; well again. C.
Obsolete. (of a wound) healed." - The World Book Dictionary (1971 Edition).
"whole: Old English
hal "entire, whole; unhurt, uninjured, safe; healthy, sound; genuine, straightforward... Old High German, German
heil "salvation, welfare"..." - etymonline.com
"oneness: quality of being just one, unity, union..." - etymonline.com
"oneness: A single undivided thing, seen as complete in itself." - wiktionary.org
easiness (91); liberty (91).
"easiness: The state or condition of being easy; freedom from distress; rest... Freedom from difficulty; ease..." - Wordnik
K. Apartment 7A/71 (2024 movie); Azazel (71); the rich (71).
"Interpreting Lev.16:8–10 from the perspective of a later time, the rabbis seem to have identified Azazel as the Devil, or as one of the Devil’s infernal chieftans." - Evelyn Dorothy Oliver and James R. Lewis, "Angels A to Z (Second Edition)"
"A struggling young dancer finds herself drawn in by dark forces when a peculiar, well-connected older couple promise her a shot at fame." - imdb.com, "Synopsis of Apartment 7A"
"He raises a toast, "Hail, Satan", which Terry joins in on. She begins to dance artistically to "
Be My Baby", and reaching the window, throws herself out to her death." - wikipedia.org, "Words about the movie Apartment 7A"
L. suffer (75); eternal (75); hellfire (75); perish (75); Be My Baby (75).
4. WORDS ON INVEGA
When it comes to gang-stalking and Invega, I liken gang-stalking to a 2 to 6 month year old baby slapping me in the face. In comparison with that, Invega is like a bomb coming at me full speed. That being said, my perception of me in response to Invega is flicking or knocking it down with a pinky or thought in my mind. (P.S. When it comes to gang-stalking, I am not talking about sonic weapons directed towards me...)
If you scramble Invega around, you get "gave in." And Invega certainly causes docility, however temporary or long-term.
Having faith is the key. Trusting in the LORD for higher wisdom is also. Looking for natural and spiritual remedies for the dis-ease called Invega Sustenna, etc.
"Miracles are not contrary to nature, but only contrary to what we know about nature." - St. Augustine
"Faith is to believe what you do not see; the reward of this faith is to see what you believe." - idem.
My Invega journey from February 2024 'til now has been like Algebra and Calculus. Healing has come in spurts, as well as gradually. And I've been able to predict some things to a T. And other things with estimation I've been able to project.
I'm definitely grateful to God that he gave me the willpower and peace of mind to be able to fast 3 days and 3 nights without food and drink (3 times) during June and July of this year. It was one of the major breakthroughs in my recovery. I'm totally healed in Jesus' name. But the full manifestation is still taking place. And whenever that happens I will update you all. Every month I get better and better... And since taking Mullein and Pau D'arco, among other things, my lungs have gotten better and better and better. Most always daily, and sometimes even hourly I've noticed improvement. Higher doses of the Mullein capsule product I have quickens the recovery, but may not be safe long-term nor relatively short-term.
Breathing or chest healing is like kicking a field goal. First the kick is real low, then it eventually goes slightly under the crossbar, then a little over it, to finally back to normal or exceptionally well above it, right where it needs to be. And recovering emotions fully works in junction with it. The brain, of course, plays some part in this, too, as with sexual function. And just as the brain plays a major part in sexual function, so does the chest area, pulmonary and cardiovascular...
Running has also proven effective against the side effects, withdrawal symptoms, or negative reactions of Invega. I think paranoid android and Kiaf found that out, or by doing some form of exercise. I've invented exercises/workouts during Invega. Some for the chest and other areas. Stretching, from my experience, proves good, too.
5. WORDS ABOUT BLUELIGHT MEMBERS
Of all the recovery stories, Kiaf's sounds most legit. And if not, one of the most legit. CrimsonThornX's does as well. And when I say hers sounds most legit, I mean of the very detailed stories or accounts of recovery from Invega. And KAATRINA, or Stacey Kimbell, had a believable story or experience as well... She's way more brilliant than most of the dummies at MIT (which is what 99.68 percent of the students are who have enrolled there), who couldn't produce anything during our Invega experience. Shout out also to the true genius Donnie Yeshua and PhucInvega, and some few others. InvegaAnon has a bright mind. She's a true intellectual, whether or not she connects things in cahoots with her intellect. She showed great wisdom with niacin and pelvic floor exercises or knowledge... May she achieve Vulcanhood more often. Maymay is magnetic, and so is her appearance. Youwillrecover seems to have that old wisdom of the ancients, which is greatly beneficial.
Kudos to "deficit" for standing up to the task of helping a member who went to him for help. I may not agree to his decision wholeheartedly (totally), but I do agree with him having the courage, heroism, and beneficience he displayed toward her. And neither do I agree with paranoid android's complete behavior, but he did great assisting his fellow moderator in the time of need. The moderators have, for the most part, been great, during my experience here. Bluelight is way better than reddit, that's for sure, according to my experience and opinion.
"Take no one's word for anything, including mine—but trust your experience." - James Baldwin, "The Fire Next Time"
Many people appear to be trolling on this thread or forum. And definitely trolling in doubt.
Dr. Zaius has probably been the most, or one of the most, faithful people in describing his torture with Invega. He shows authentic consistency, whether or not he's honest or false. Lifeline also did a very good job with that, until he successfully recovered fully from it, or so he says.
Daniel Barber (also known as dirtyinvega), along with Ross Jason Boehm Lai on YouTube, are commendable for their testimonies of, and perseverance through, Invega. They reveal what Johnson and Johnson and Janssen Pharmaceuticals are really doing: purposely destroying lives, and idiotically without remorse. (We all deserve not just million-dollar (law)suits, but multi-million, or more in reparations or compensation. It's really not much difference than getting hit wrongly by a vehicle. None of us received "adequate informed consent." I was almost completely lied to about Invega. One of the only or few things the doctor told me right about Invega was that it was a medication (or something like that). But the more appropriate description of Invega is: it's poison to the human body, and that's how our bodies interpreted it, and the inflammatory responses are proof... Getting injected with Invega is like going to a hospital for Tylenol and receiving rat poisoning instead...)
(And for everyone's information, I neither like nor desired any medication for what some may interpret psychosis. I didn't truly consent to any anti-psychotic medication. I just more so agreed to go through the process to receive medication because my Mom thought it was a good idea. And, in some ways, she was or is right. But she never would have known they would have given me junk. And, yes, gang-stalking by others did contribute to the incident which led to me ending up in a behavioral center, which, of course, was voluntary, though some of what led to the voluntary commitment was involuntary or not according to my freewill. This all occurred in February. The doctors were, for the most part, fun to be around or in the presence of. But that one dumb decision by Dr. Gillespie in Beaumont, Texas, pretty much destroyed my view of the behavioral center as a decent place. Yes, gang-stalking went on in there. And I wasn't the only person to recognize this, who was a patient in there.)
The only asterick I give "fenec" is for that poem he made after one of my posts got deleted by a moderator. He's been very exceptional, loving, appreciative, intelligent, a genius, beautiful, special, among other great things.
No matter who you are, I appreciate the goodness you directed my way, whether or not you turned (against me) later on. And whether or not you felt you had good enough reason for doing so.
Though his suffering has somewhat been unorthodox, based on my determinations of a sufferer of anti-psychotic medication, TonyTonyChopper has been a ray of sunshine to us here. And a very skillful writer/typer he is.
Peace and Love! And GOD bless you all.
(started typing at 1:29 p.m., and finished typing at 7:08 p.m., November 15, 2024, Central Time)
by Joshua A. Guillory
(first posted at 7:14 p.m., 11-15-2024)
