3:30 am, no sleep, its obvious I will never sleep again, its pointless even looking at the fucking thing.... Two benadryl, 300 mg gabapentin, and nothing!
It's so fucking hard, so sorry to hear you are going through such misery, but I promise you that you will sleep again.
I have no experience with tramadol as I allways saw it as a very dirty thing, but when an opi addiction gets seriuos, with heroin at least, I learnt to don't expect great things sleep wise in the first month, maybe some improvement after 20 or so days. And I won't tell you about mdone.
I guess that you can't get hold of any better than gabapentin and benadryl, but those aren't strong enough meds to help in a wd. Maybe enough doses of gabapentin could somehow help, but, to actually get some relef worthing that name, you are clearly in need of healthy doses of Lyrica and benzos for sone days, maybe zopiclone
Sadly, there isn't much that we can do for you from the other side of a phone screen, just offer you our support and understanding.
I honestly hope things improving for you, man. You are totally out of hope and that is normal, but don't let all this shit fool you: you have done the very worst of it by now, that's the only truth, and yiur suffering already reached it's worse, it didn't kill you and now it just have to start leaving. It isn't over by now, but it eventually will be, and it will happen sooner than later, at the teo weeks mark where you are at now.
Let us just go for these last miles!

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