Look at this good recovery story i found in older version
Aug 23, 2021
Hey there everyone. I haven’t posted in forever, and I can see why some people don’t. Once you get better, you start needing this place less and less. However, I promised myself that if I got better, I’d make sure to come back and let people know that you can recover. I got the two standard loading doses in early January 2020. If you look at my post history, you can see my journey and how bad it was. I was convinced my life was over, and I was legitimately planning suicide. Invega is a unique brand of suffering that even now, is almost impossible to comprehend. It’s a living hell, where death feels like mercy. I lost all sexual function, motivation, emotion, intelligence, physical fitness, etc. Every thing in life that could possibly bring even the slightest pleasure was ripped away, for what seemed like an eternity.
At times I was bummed that others seemed to be recovering much faster than me. I was still suicidal 6-8 months in. My birthday is in June, and that was the worst birthday of my life. I had improved a little bit, but was still miserable. I remember about 8 months in, after showing some signs of improvement, someone asked me if I could live the rest of my life at this level if recovery stopped there and that was my new baseline. The answer was an immediate no. I’d rather be dead. However, around Christmas (11 months in), I was starting to feel a bit better. I spent some time with family and even started talking to my friends again. From then until now, I’ve had gradual improvements and milestones. I reconnected with pretty much all of my best friends, and have hung out and had great times. I have a sense of humor and laugh a lot. Before this, I was an artist and creative person in general. I could draw very well, loved to write stories/poems, and was great with digital art. These are also things I thought were gone forever, but I’ve done them all recently. In fact quite a few people have been impressed with my recent art and writings. I’ve also been on dates, made out with several girls, even had sex for the first time in over a year. For a young 25 year old man those sort of things are important. That’s how old I was when I first got the shot. It’s crazy to think I’m actually 27 now.
My last birthday was spent miserably. I didn’t care to do anything at all. My birthday this year was spent vacationing with one of my best friends. Partying, going to amusement parks, riding jetskis, going to the beach, talking to girls. It’s night and day compared to last year. I play tons of videogames now and I love them. My hand eye coordination and reflexes are good enough now to memorize all sorts of complex combos in fighting games. I’ve even won online tournaments. I also love music again, and get excited for movies and tv shows again. As of now, I’m back on the market for jobs, and I have interviews coming up.
Covid shut the world down at the perfect time for me because it essentially gave us a free year where everyone was expected to be home doing nothing. It makes it a bit easier to explain why I’ve been ignoring friends, or things like gaps in employment history. I also got unemployment which paid extra because of covid, and I was able to live off of that without having to do something such as claim disability. Overall, there’s a ton I could say, and there are also certain challenges I still face. However, I have definitely improved enough to live a life again. I plan to stick around and help out others for a while.