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Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v 8.0

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I didn't get my hair cut, I actually scheduled my appointment for Friday and remembered the wrong date.

I just had an orgasm that almost felt normal. I still have a lot of erogenous numbness, but that's been lifting this week. I'm probably just in a window though. I love having sensation windows, it reminds me my nerves probably aren't broken.
 
It's exactly 90 days since my last injection and I feel maybe 5% better. I'm slightly more alive, less sedated. I'm still severely anhedonic; I can't enjoy anything, not even music—it just sounds like noise. I also have zero motivation and zero concentration. I want to learn web development but I can't because I don't understand anything and I can't stay motivated to continue learning.

Surprisingly, I only put on 10 pounds since I started the injection, and I'm on a strict diet right now. I also still suffer from a blank mind and blank thoughts, which is so annoying. My brain literally feels empty. I also isolate myself. I lost my closest friends because of this and because of my psychotic episodes. When they found out about my psychosis, they just cut me off.

These are just some of the side effects I still have, and hopefully, by November, which marks the 9th month, I start to see major improvements. If just my anhedonia lifts, I would be the happiest person alive. I just want to enjoy video games and films again.
 
TonyTonyChopper said:
It's exactly 90 days since my last injection and I feel maybe 5% better. I'm slightly more alive, less sedated. I'm still severely anhedonic; I can't enjoy anything, not even music—it just sounds like noise. I also have zero motivation and zero concentration. I want to learn web development but I can't because I don't understand anything and I can't stay motivated to continue learning.

Surprisingly, I only put on 10 pounds since I started the injection, and I'm on a strict diet right now. I also still suffer from a blank mind and blank thoughts, which is so annoying. My brain literally feels empty. I also isolate myself. I lost my closest friends because of this and because of my psychotic episodes. When they found out about my psychosis, they just cut me off.

These are just some of the side effects I still have, and hopefully, by November, which marks the 9th month, I start to see major improvements. If just my anhedonia lifts, I would be the happiest person alive. I just want to enjoy video games and films again.
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Why god allowed them to inject us with neurotoxic drugs? Im still so suicidal because of it...
 
Youwillrecover said:
Why god allowed them to inject us with neurotoxic drugs? Im still so suicidal because of it...
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I don't personally blame God for all this, my marijuana use was a big contributor and another is my family calling the cops 3 times on me . The way I see it , maybe God allowed this to happen so after the injections leave our body, we can level up our character . Yes I was injected with invega 9 times but who knows, maybe with my diet I can lose 50 pounds and my life gets better. keep your head up we will get through this
 
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I hope everybody is doing good. Was recently kicked out of my house but honestly not bothered by it. Was trying to move out anyway and get away from my mom( The person who put me in this situation) so she can’t cause me to be in a even worse situation (if that’s possible) but it wasn’t the best move financially before all of this. Was actually going to kill myself once i got a place to stay and say my final goodbyes to everyone i loved but ended up linking up with a old friend from middle school and it’s been cool for the past couple days just smoking and trying to make money. Honestly the main thing we had in common when we was young was we was two horny mfs trying to holla at any good looking girls we seen and he’s still the same guy which is cool but unfortunately i can not be because of invega side effects. He doesn’t trip about it because he probably think im just mature or not as thirsty as him or smth but the more we hang out this summer i know it will eventually become more obvious and he’ll have more questions and shit but as for now we just really becoming close friends again after such a long time. Every now and then I consider suicide but never have made a plan or been 100% and being friends with him made me not want to do it more. Hopefully I could recover even if it’s not soon I just want to feel horny again or get erections and feel like a man so me and my bro can really have some fun experiences (no diddy/pause) I still have hope
 
I read that blue lotus might be good for anhedonia and sexual dysfunction. It's at the top of my list of things to try for PSSD if I'm not better in a year. Maybe some of you can try it too, it's legal in the USA except in Louisiana. You can smoke it or drink it as a tea or infused in a strong wine.

When this summer passes, it will be one year with improving PSSD. More and more, I feel like this too shall pass.
 
InvegaAnon said:
I read that blue lotus might be good for anhedonia and sexual dysfunction. It's at the top of my list of things to try for PSSD if I'm not better in a year. Maybe some of you can try it too, it's legal in the USA except in Louisiana. You can smoke it or drink it as a tea or infused in a strong wine.

When this summer passes, it will be one year with improving PSSD. More and more, I feel like this too shall pass.
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Where did you read that? can you link a source for Blue Lotus helping anhedonia?
 
I’ve tried using my PC a few times to play online games and have absolutely zero fun so I’m going to give it away to a friend because it’s going to waste here, I know I’ll never be interested in playing it again.

I am using the Xbox I setup in my bedroom from time to time but I’m still barely entertained, I setup a PlayStation too and had to use my PC monitor for 2x hdmi outputs but now my speakers don’t work.

For context, I had the PlayStation hooked up to the TV in the living room and I’d play it late at night when everyone was in bed, I never stay up late anymore so it’s no use there, I haven’t even turned it on in 7 months ffs. My Xbox was setup nicely next to my PC at a desk and I just can’t sit on a computer chair as it’s not comfortable like it used to be.

I‘m updating Fortnite on PlayStation atm sitting in bed because I‘m bored to death and trying to do other stuff to try and get better but this dreadful feeling still remains.

I just thought I’d rant here because no one else gives a fuck and the Psychiatrists are trying to “take me off the books” now. So they’ve completely destroyed my life by giving me two injections in the hospital then fucked it up further by forcing a third shot I definitely didn’t need.

I basically have no fun whatsoever and have been wishing I was dead every single day for 7 months now. I really don’t know what to do anymore.
 
DrZaius1 said:
I’ve tried using my PC a few times to play online games and have absolutely zero fun so I’m going to give it away to a friend because it’s going to waste here, I know I’ll never be interested in playing it again.

I am using the Xbox I setup in my bedroom from time to time but I’m still barely entertained, I setup a PlayStation too and had to use my PC monitor for 2x hdmi outputs but now my speakers don’t work.

For context, I had the PlayStation hooked up to the TV in the living room and I’d play it late at night when everyone was in bed, I never stay up late anymore so it’s no use there, I haven’t even turned it on in 7 months ffs. My Xbox was setup nicely next to my PC at a desk and I just can’t sit on a computer chair as it’s not comfortable like it used to be.

I‘m updating Fortnite on PlayStation atm sitting in bed because I‘m bored to death and trying to do other stuff to try and get better but this dreadful feeling still remains.

I just thought I’d rant here because no one else gives a fuck and the Psychiatrists are trying to “take me off the books” now. So they’ve completely destroyed my life by giving me two injections in the hospital then fucked it up further by forcing a third shot I definitely didn’t need.

I basically have no fun whatsoever and have been wishing I was dead every single day for 7 months now. I really don’t know what to do anymore.
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Shrooms would save you. Just sayin
 
Youwillrecover said:
Shrooms would save you. Just sayin
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I’m trying to buy some but I have to meet up with drug dealers which I cbf doing. I asked a few of them to post it to me but they’re all saying only f2f cash deal. If anything it’s more risky for them to do business that way.

How‘d they help you?
 
DrZaius1 said:
I’m trying to buy some but I have to meet up with drug dealers which I cbf doing. I asked a few of them to post it to me but they’re all saying only f2f cash deal. If anything it’s more risky for them to do business that way.

How‘d they help you?
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They called magic for a reason. Im soooo damn traumatised for being forcefully drugged on falsely diagnosis schizophrenia because i have cruel narcissistic witchy mother and cant stand her bullshit. They help me process it. All suffering dissapears and the feeling of well being arives. God medicine.
 
DrZaius1 said:
I’ve tried using my PC a few times to play online games and have absolutely zero fun so I’m going to give it away to a friend because it’s going to waste here, I know I’ll never be interested in playing it again.

I am using the Xbox I setup in my bedroom from time to time but I’m still barely entertained, I setup a PlayStation too and had to use my PC monitor for 2x hdmi outputs but now my speakers don’t work.

For context, I had the PlayStation hooked up to the TV in the living room and I’d play it late at night when everyone was in bed, I never stay up late anymore so it’s no use there, I haven’t even turned it on in 7 months ffs. My Xbox was setup nicely next to my PC at a desk and I just can’t sit on a computer chair as it’s not comfortable like it used to be.

I‘m updating Fortnite on PlayStation atm sitting in bed because I‘m bored to death and trying to do other stuff to try and get better but this dreadful feeling still remains.

I just thought I’d rant here because no one else gives a fuck and the Psychiatrists are trying to “take me off the books” now. So they’ve completely destroyed my life by giving me two injections in the hospital then fucked it up further by forcing a third shot I definitely didn’t need.

I basically have no fun whatsoever and have been wishing I was dead every single day for 7 months now. I really don’t know what to do anymore.
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Dude if you’ve been off for 7 months recovery is just around the corner , save that pc for when you anhedonia lifts .
 
Bonjour j'ai 28 et j'ai était hospitalisé j'ai reçu 4 injection haldol 3 ampoules je suis en congés depuis 8 mois , j'ai récupéré un peu mais je n'ai plus émotion je ne ressens plus la soif et la faim et j'ai plus de libido , je voudrais savoir si des personnes qui on pris de haldol on complètement récupérer milles merci
 
fenec said:
Bonjour j'ai 28 et j'ai était hospitalisé j'ai reçu 4 injections Haldol 3 ampoules je suis en congés depuis 8 mois , j'ai récupéré un peu mais je n'ai plus émotion je ne ressens plus la soif et la faim et j'ai plus de libido , je voudrais savoir si des personnes qui on pris de haldol on complètement récupérer milles merci
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