Lol I always planned on having an “exit plan” but never actually planned one. Thought I would be young and hot and poppin forever apparently and that my drug addiction would never take over my life and I would be ballin’ forever.
As long as you got “staying power” you can make a career out of it. At least in the 2010’s when I was in. I was always told my my agent and directors that I can have a real career in this bc I have staying power. But, heroin addiction.
The highlight of my career woulda been in like 2013 when I was the #1 searched actress on the internet, making 6 figures annually, had a dope ass crib in Calabasas with a pool and a view, drove a Benz AND a Maserati, got signed by the best agency in the biz who only takes A-Listers, got my first “star showcase” (a movie made all about me) that won awards, on top of several other AVN awards I was nominated for that year. I got to present awards too, at AVN that year. i wasn’t doing lil internet scenes anymore, i was starring in top dollar productions with real acting and storylines and I felt like a real actress. I was making MOVES. thought I had my demons and my addiction under control. I was on a high, got a real taste of fame. Got to really and truly live THAT LIFE. But I really lost myself too. I grew up in poverty, I really came from nothing. I forgot who I was and started acting like some spoiled Beverly Hills brat. I was cocky. But I was brought back down to earth real mf quick when shit hit the fan and I became homeless. And I’m grateful for it.
Skills? I definitely possess real acting chops. I loved that part of it and was good at it. I’m very very perceptive and good at reading people since I’ve been around every class of human there is. My resilience is my favorite skill forged during that time.
Thanks for the questions, those were some real good ones.