I’m aware first hand that’s why I said when I am very self destructive. It’s the same thought processes as suicidal ideation I suppose. I never want to kill myself but I will romanticize addiction and or terrorismAddiction is slavery and drugs always turn on you, if taken regularly and long enough.
Is that why she left? Have you considered a shrink?
I'd be careful about mentioning terrorism. There are a few members, some lurkers, robots and probably members of Law enforcement, who are stuck searching this site, they probably screwed up or pissed someone off.
No I get why you’d think that. No there was no infidelity, our relationship had been on the rocks for a minute and there was a sort of final straw that was related to something in the past. Fair I didn’t think about feds. I would never do it, it’s like people who want to die in a war. The Ira and YPG and groups like that. We have problems and break up on and off but this time it’s different. Probably no child support but that’s not what’s important to me. Definitely would be mine. My fiancé sort of isolated me so them leaving ends my world. We were both shitty partners but they’re the reason I’d been sober for the longest periods off my lifeYes I am, Hey, he said he was self destructive. There maybe deeper issues. If he is romanticizing drug addiction and terrorism and his pregnant ex fiancee left him, there could be problems he needs to deal with. Sorry to be direct, but feel good bullshit, ain't my specialty.
Im so sorry that you are feeling bad.Hey All
Yeah fvck this Buprenorphine shit that stuff is evil... I know it helps a lot of people that could die from street drugs but it's properly still fucking me over.
Totally cut down my drinking over past 5 days to 'normal' levels so I think I'm just gonna stop that shit now. Just tried to reduce so I didn't end up having a seizure.
BUT I am.still having some shitty physical WDs from the Buprenorphine. After 6 Weeks. This sucks and blows. A lot of bone aches and muscle aches still. Yawning goosebumps. The shits. Severe insomnia. I just don't sleep. RAS/RLS
Someday I wake up and for 2 hours feel OK. Then it just creeps back in slowly
When's this gonna stop man? It's endless . I rang the clinic yesterday and they said no way are you still in Buprenorphine WD it only last 2 weeks. So i just hung up. What a crock of shit. I'm so fucking depressed as well. May accept the trazadone my local GP is offering me...
She also put me on the MAX dose of loperamide 24mg as I was having major stomach issues and 12mg a day was t stopping it. Could this be prolonging WD?
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