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How careful do I need to be with mixing diazepam and alcohol.

SpiralusSancti said:
Gotta be only one in the universe. You should be called Brandman. Do counterfeits of Xanax work for you?
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It is impossible for me to get counterfeits here in Brazil, I can get benzo at the drugstore easily, I have a printable version of a prescription so I can buy whenever I feel like, I just rotate between drugstores.

It's not like I Get high off benzos, I don't even like downers. I just use them for a bad insomnia or to end a coke session.

Generic brand is pocket change cheap over here, the brand one is 5x or more, more expensive. It's called "Frontal" here, made by Pfizer.

EDIT: for example I only need 0.5mg of Frontal on it's own, and you actually feel it hitting like in 15min. Very big difference compared to the generic brands.
 
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Will be trying again with 600mg diazepam, 75mg zopiclone , 1 litre of vodka and a shit tone of grapefruit juice.
 
SpiralusSancti said:
O that's cool. Here they are always separated and for years it seems that trend if forward less bitter and red grapefruit.
Do you plan to put some music on during your experimentation?
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I can't taste the difference because when u buy in a tin it comes in juice and all mixed up
 
I definitely , having done a lot of reading believe that people can 100% die of a broken heart. I know the most common way of this happening is when you lose a spouse, studies have shown that bereavement can reduce life expectancy. But also people take their own lives from heartache, for example I'm going to do this because missing my children has broken my heart.
 
benladdie3000 said:
I definitely , having done a lot of reading believe that people can 100% die of a broken heart. I know the most common way of this happening is when you lose a spouse, studies have shown that bereavement can reduce life expectancy. But also people take their own lives from heartache, for example I'm going to do this because missing my children has broken my heart.
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Yeah a lot of things surprisingly can kill and a lot of things can surprisingly be survived too.
Away from eyes isn't away from heart. Don't broke your children's heart.
 
benladdie3000 said:
No music for me mate, probs just TV like before
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Kinda thought so. Not sure why.
I personally support different exit strategies as it's a shame to see a waste of a good individual. Will you at least donate your organs? Idk what's the politic on suicide victims but it's definitely possible to do suicide by meds and leave most of your organs fine. Like, they ain't gona transplant brain anyway.
 
SpiralusSancti said:
Yeah a lot of things surprisingly can kill and a lot of things can surprisingly be survived too.
Away from eyes isn't away from heart. Don't broke your children's heart
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I 100% agree with you but I can't go on. Everyday I wake up either angry or in tears. My relationship is struggling because of it, and iv tried going back to work (im a nurse in the UK) and I collapsed in tears during a training day. I miss them so so much, and our bond was so close, they were my life, I tailored my whole life to being a dad and it just tortures and disturbs me daily. Even my partner and my friends say I'm not me anymore. I also look on my social media and it's glaringly obvious if you know the timeline and scroll through the pictures that iv gone from being a very happy family orientated guy with a career and a good home , to a complete and utter mess. Iv tried a lot of things from meds, to self medication, alcohol, gym, martial arts, spending time with my partners children (I know it's not a substitute), treating myself with retail therapy, volunteering my time, going back to work, counselling, seeing a psychiatric nurse weekly, talking to my girlfriend. Also, my nan who basically may aswel have been my mum left us in may (suicide) at the age of 69. And I don't have an outlet to turn to anymore. My ex has completely and systematically bit by bit broken me down as a punishment for leaving her, this ranges from at first limiting my time with my children to when she wanted to go out partying to eventually cutting it out completely and telling me to go court, making false allegations up about me and writing horrible stuff about me on socials. I just want out
 
SpiralusSancti said:
Kinda thought so. Not sure why.
I personally support different exit strategies as it's a shame to see a waste of a good individual. Will you at least donate your organs? Idk what's the politic on suicide victims but it's definitely possible to do suicide by meds and leave most of your organs fine. Like, they ain't gona transplant brain anyway.
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Yea obviously my brain is broken/flawed. Here in the UK your automatically a donor unless you opt out.
 
benladdie3000 said:
I 100% agree with you but I can't go on. Everyday I wake up either angry or in tears. My relationship is struggling because of it, and iv tried going back to work (im a nurse in the UK) and I collapsed in tears during a training day. I miss them so so much, and our bond was so close, they were my life, I tailored my whole life to being a dad and it just tortures and disturbs me daily. Even my partner and my friends say I'm not me anymore. I also look on my social media and it's glaringly obvious if you know the timeline and scroll through the pictures that iv gone from being a very happy family orientated guy with a career and a good home , to a complete and utter mess. Iv tried a lot of things from meds, to self medication, alcohol, gym, martial arts, spending time with my partners children (I know it's not a substitute), treating myself with retail therapy, volunteering my time, going back to work, counselling, seeing a psychiatric nurse weekly, talking to my girlfriend. Also, my nan who basically may aswel have been my mum left us in may (suicide) at the age of 69. And I don't have an outlet to turn to anymore. My ex has completely and systematically bit by bit broken me down as a punishment for leaving her, this ranges from at first limiting my time with my children to when she wanted to go out partying to eventually cutting it out completely and telling me to go court, making false allegations up about me and writing horrible stuff about me on socials. I just want out
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Bond between you and children didn't magically go away but it will if you kill yourself. Idk man, you felt on your skin what it means when someone close to you sucides.
 
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