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Recovery The 2023 Recovery Thread

Jnowhere said:
how about aud$0
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My drug expenses went from over $1200 to under $200.

That's $1000 less per month.

I'm proud of that.

I keep track of all my finances because I have a mortgage and children.

I didn't bust your balls about anything, dude. The tone of your message confuses me.

Good luck
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You, too.
 
Double blind test for that sweet dollar bill y'all

Keeps me healthy too. Like she gave me attention. I remember

I think I'm in love. No seriously. Girl is driving me wild.

 
AngelsandFairiesarereal: I really hope and pray that the sadness you seem to be having can be overcome. I don't know what to say, because I have let myself fall into the downward spiral of depression, sadness, hopelessness and self loathing. Don't let life get to you, the way it has me. You seem to have a kind heart and a gentle soul. Don't lose that. Bitterness, indifference and loss of interest in almost everything is no way to go through life, I know this because I let it happen to me.
 
Frog dreams you made fun of me. not mad, about me drinking up to 5 pots of coffee a day. Well, I just found it amusing, because of the precise numbers you gave, who has a spreadsheet for drug use expenditures? Just found the precise numbers amusing. Meant no offense by it, but who keeps track of precise numbers on recreational drug use, they are not tax deductible. So how much on alcohol, just kidding.
 
Jnowhere said:
AngelsandFairiesarereal: I really hope and pray that the sadness you seem to be having can be overcome. I don't know what to say, because I have let myself fall into the downward spiral of depression, sadness, hopelessness and self loathing. Don't let life get to you, the way it has me. You seem to have a kind heart and a gentle soul. Don't lose that. Bitterness, indifference and loss of interest in almost everything is no way to go through life, I know this because I let it happen to me.
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Thank you so much J, what a kind thing to say I really appreciate it.
I hope you’re doing okay tonight
Big hug 💜
 
tokayeahok said:
i overdosed today. i couldn’t take the pain of my tooth any longer. so i picked up, and the alpraz and fent synergized to the point of putting me under. i’m okay… no EMS or hospital due to having narcan at the house
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Oh hun, I’m so glad you’re okay & still with us
Please be gentle with yourself today/tonight okay
Gentle hug 💜
 
tokayeahok said:
i overdosed today. i couldn’t take the pain of my tooth any longer. so i picked up, and the alpraz and fent synergized to the point of putting me under. i’m okay… no EMS or hospital due to having narcan at the house
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Are you not supposed to go to hospital after an overdose anyway?

Mixing xanax with fent was never gonna end well mate. In general benzos and opiates are super dangerous. Xanax and fent are like the two strongest in each catagory.

Hope you're feeling better soon.
 
elgoucho9 said:
Are you not supposed to go to hospital after an overdose anyway?

Mixing xanax with fent was never gonna end well mate. In general benzos and opiates are super dangerous. Xanax and fent are like the two strongest in each catagory.

Hope you're feeling better soon.
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Yeah I know this, but when you’re in the throes of a xanax high you don’t make good decisions. it literally greys out the decision making part of your brain 😭

no hospital because i have narcan here and was hit by my mum with it.
 
tokayeahok said:
Yeah I know this, but when you’re in the throes of a xanax high you don’t make good decisions. it literally greys out the decision making part of your brain 😭

no hospital because i have narcan here and was hit by my mum with it.
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Ahh nightmare man. I did the same with valium and heroin once. Didn't need brought back round but i did go blue in the lips apparently.

This kind of scenario is why i don't like to have benzos around anymore. Too dangerous.
 
surprisingly my mum is being really supportive like every is back to normal before i OD’d…. which makes recovering from this a lot easier. since i feel like what’s going on around the house is key to my recovery. if she was bashing me and not spending time with me and insulting me, this wouldn’t make this any easier.

so she’s getting better with support and keeping my ‘recovery’ ball rolling :)
 
elgoucho9 said:
Ahh nightmare man. I did the same with valium and heroin once. Didn't need brought back round but i did go blue in the lips apparently.

This kind of scenario is why i don't like to have benzos around anymore. Too dangerous.
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i’ve been known the respiratory effects of the both combined, just like alcohol - the decision making was out the window. very dangerous. i shouldn’t have too many consequences in terms of withdrawal rebound. just one pill yanno. and i still have my birthday xans on deck if i get any gnarly physical feelings or can’t sleep, which i’m saving them just for that reason
 
Yes, you have to put them away for a while.

I had to put them away permanently.

It's almost like you need a babysitter when on them, I mean like a sitter. Almost.

I am so sorry. I truly am. Nothing ever good comes out of those benzo's, really.

They are good for sleeping, or in a strait jacket . I'm sorry. It's tough to even explain how much bad and terrible they are.

And then even the withdrawal. At least with opioid you have a chance and remember. It's very easy to black out and the withdrawal is beyond horrible.

please be cool.

is what I am saying. Be Careful. Please. <3 thnxxx 👍

fck bb it's too easy with that stuff. okay i will shut up

You still safe !!?!!!! 💗
 
tokayeahok said:
- the decision making was out the window. very dangerous.
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Anyway, I am so glad you were saved. That was such a Blessing !! And so are you !! 🤍🕊️

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Depends on the benzo's and opiates, and the quantity and tolerance. I was on two prescribed opiates for years( oxycodone and morphine,(Therapeutic doses) along with Ativan(2 mg, largest dose per pill of Lorazepam) but the opiates were no where near as strong as Fent and benzo's not as dangerous as Xanax( the ones you described are much more powerful). You may have also had a reset of tolerance, ( you were staying sober) that is how so many former addicts die. I'm glad you didn't join the 27 club. You said birthday was the 7th and aren't you 27, for a few hours anyways? I know you ain't a famous musician, but it would have been a trillion times worse. I don't know any or care about them. Be careful, next time try to find something not as strong and mixing with benzo's, is not for those whose tolerance may be down. Besides I doubt it was 1 MG of xanax( maximum usually perscribed) and Xanax is a killer( elgoucho 9) is right about them being strong. My doctor wouldn't give me Xanax. 10mg Valium not an issue, to help me get off Ativan, which doesn't seem to interact as severely as other benzo's with opiods( I never know what to call them.) Opiates or Opiods. Eh, but hay maybe you can spend your birthday at the dentist. Sorry, I am so glad you ain't a statistic. PLEASE BE MORE CAREFUL. Good luck
 
Relapsed friday night ( first mistake) and subsequently i had to relapse again saturday night to enjoy my saturday out since i had no energy..sunday was hard since i only had cbd ..it s just that i have social anxiety when going out so opiates help me but they dont bring good luck at all especially next day..benzos suck cause they get you as fcked up as h but with no euphoria just acting compUlsively and dangerous ..so..i wanna go out after a week of withdrawal when i did feel better but i become anxious and just feeling cold chills when waiting the bus..i need to stop thinking about ways to escape , not all people gonna like me but i need to socialize at some point so fck them
 
yeah compulsively dosing benzodiazepines to get the euphoria you so desperately desire is all out the window. it’s fucked.


woke up this morning and talked to a friend over the phone, a bath, and just enjoyed my morning. still freezing cold and sleepy even with coffee so might go back to sleep. who knows
 
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