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Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v 8.0

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paliperidonevictim2005 said:
i dont think its caused permanent damage i think its because of invega but it should come back to normal trust me if you were permanently damaged you would have no improvement which you talk about
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I have no improvement whatsoever.Im seeing a specialist to help me with the damage.If it doesnt work,after that...I'm done.I am so enraged what this individual did to me...really enraged! But the only thing I can do is get better and concentrate myself and forget what this bozo did to me.But man I am mad.My own stupidity.Should never trust these clowns in the medical field.
 
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cmf77 said:
I have no improvement whatsoever.Im seeing a specialist to help me with the damage.If it doesnt work,after that...I'm done.I am so enraged what this individual did to me...really enraged! But the only thing I can do is get better and concentrate myself and forget what this bozo did to me.But man I am mad.My own stupidity.Should never trust these clowns in the medical field.
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same man so much regret wish i never trusted my ex 2 days before i went to the hospital, wish i never had depressive episodes over the horrific things she did to me, wish i never ran away from home and told the police to take me to the hospital thinking they would help, wish i never had a meltdown over insomnia like a little bitch in the hospital and just became a man and endured it that oldhead scumbag doctor wouldn't have injected me with this poison then
 
paliperidonevictim2005 said:
i dont think its caused permanent damage i think its because of invega but it should come back to normal trust me if you were permanently damaged you would have no improvement which you talk about
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No, hypopituitarianism is permanent. Put me in the "never recovered" pile already. I have NAFLD so it's probably going to worsen that down the line. I'm probably going to eventually die from this.

Once I'm diagnosed I'm going to write a goodbye post and just stop posting here, unless something good happens to me.
 
InvegaAnon said:
No, hypopituitarianism is permanent. Put me in the "never recovered" pile already. I have NAFLD so it's probably going to worsen that down the line. I'm probably going to eventually die from this.

Once I'm diagnosed I'm going to write a goodbye post and just stop posting here, unless something good happens to me.
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i dont think its hypopituitarism it could just be short term from invega lots of people who recovered had low hormones at first and got it back what if its something to do with your gender
 
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InvegaAnon said:
No, hypopituitarianism is permanent. Put me in the "never recovered" pile already. I have NAFLD so it's probably going to worsen that down the line. I'm probably going to eventually die from this.

Once I'm diagnosed I'm going to write a goodbye post and just stop posting here, unless something good happens to me.
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i hope my testosterone is normal in fact it should be high because i have wet dreams like every week
 
cmf77 said:
I have no improvement whatsoever.Im seeing a specialist to help me with the damage.If it doesnt work,after that...I'm done.I am so enraged what this individual did to me...really enraged! But the only thing I can do is get better and concentrate myself and forget what this bozo did to me.But man I am mad.My own stupidity.Should never trust these clowns in the medical field.
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Didn’t you say you’ve been feeling things you couldn’t feel since before the shot? That sounds like improvement to me
 
paliperidonevictim2005 said:
i dont think its hypopituitarism it could just be short term from invega lots of people who recovered had low hormones at first and got it back what if its something to do with your gender
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I also have low thyroid stimulating hormone, or at least it declined since the last time, when it was healthy. My reproductive hormones are rock bottom. I'll get more tests done. Thanks for telling me about other people who had low hormones though. That gives me something to hold onto before the tests I'll get done.

Did anyone else have really bad levels and it bounced back? Everything I had screened made by the pituitary gland declined or is completely trashed.
 
InvegaAnon said:
I also have low thyroid stimulating hormone, or at least it declined since the last time, when it was healthy. My reproductive hormones are rock bottom. I'll get more tests done. Thanks for telling me about other people who had low hormones though. That gives me something to hold onto before the tests I'll get done.

Did anyone else have really bad levels and it bounced back? Everything I had screened made by the pituitary gland declined or is completely trashed.
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for sure❤️ men have 3 sex hormones one of mine is normal because my loads are normal colored, the other produces testosterone and then testosterone all of them are probably fine because i have wet dreams weekly usually also i take a herbal supplement moringa but doubt it could cure low t if i had it so i think thats my natural amount i read many places wet dreams are a sign of high testosterone all the people who fully recovered and sexually most likely have normal hormones or they could tell im also one who bounced back at first i had watery semen and total erectile dysfunction now i have partial ed and normal colored semen if my testosterone is normal i think invega blocking dopamine is whats causing ed still but ill find out for sure in a month when i get it tested
 
paliperidonevictim2005 said:
for sure❤️ men have 3 sex hormones one of mine is normal because my loads are normal colored, the other produces testosterone and then testosterone all of them are probably fine because i have wet dreams weekly usually also i take a herbal supplement moringa but doubt it could cure low t if i had it so i think thats my natural amount i read many places wet dreams are a sign of high testosterone all the people who fully recovered and sexually most likely have normal hormones or they could tell im also one who bounced back at first i had watery semen and total erectile dysfunction now i have partial ed and normal colored semen if my testosterone is normal i think invega blocking dopamine is whats causing ed still but ill find out for sure in a month when i get it tested
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I also got PSSD. I was starting to bounce back sexually but then I took Prozac...
 
paliperidonevictim2005 said:
😔i hate reading these it makes me feel like ill never recover😔
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You probably will. Something went really wrong with me. I'm not schitzophrenic, I shouldn't have even had this drug. The psychiatrist should have known better. There should have been therapists or people I could trust to talk to about my delusions there.
 
InvegaAnon said:
You probably will. Something went really wrong with me. I'm not schitzophrenic, I shouldn't have even had this drug. The psychiatrist should have known better. There should have been therapists or people I could trust to talk to about my delusions there.
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yea im hoping its not permanent for you there are ways to treat your condition as well yeah i also have extreme regret of my several decisions which all led me up to this poison regret every fucking day feel like all i do is burn bridges
 
its not our foult. We never knew what this poison is. The fucking call this medicine?? They shpul help not destroy😭😭😭
 
paliperidonevictim2005 said:
same man so much regret wish i never trusted my ex 2 days before i went to the hospital, wish i never had depressive episodes over the horrific things she did to me, wish i never ran away from home and told the police to take me to the hospital thinking they would help, wish i never had a meltdown over insomnia like a little bitch in the hospital and just became a man and endured it that oldhead scumbag doctor wouldn't have injected me with this poison then
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Don't blame yourself. Everyone has to get burned by the medical community somehow in order to learn not to openly trust it as we're taught to. We were just unlucky that this was our "burn".
InvegaAnon said:
No, hypopituitarianism is permanent. Put me in the "never recovered" pile already. I have NAFLD so it's probably going to worsen that down the line. I'm probably going to eventually die from this.

Once I'm diagnosed I'm going to write a goodbye post and just stop posting here, unless something good happens to me.
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hypopituitarianism is permanent depending on the cause. If your hormones are affected by medication it stands to reason that they will stabilize once the medication is removed. If you take synthetic hormones that may also affect your pituitary gland.
bojana said:
I am done with this shit. I dont deserve living like this
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You will be okay Bojana. You should be almost to a place where you can notice improvement if you are close to approximately ten months. I wish this forum was more positive for you. You were always positive and I fear to hear this hopelessness from you.

UPDATE: I've been doing well. My baby is two months old and gives me the butterflies every day. Life is chaotic with four children but I wouldn't have it any other way. I don't really go out much right now because I'm still breastfeeding. I keep busy keeping house, running after the two-year-old, drawing when I can, and taking the older kids to sports. I recently submitted the paintings I achieved while pregnant to the city arts page.
I've had no psychotic relapse. My historic "cycle" is once every two years so I should expect one in summer of 2024. I'm going to try to have things set up with a respite house then. When I get too stressed I can see myself wanting to cope with spiritual delusion and delusion of grandeur, but I'm better able to talk about it with my husband now. Healthy releases are everything. He and I attend therapy once every month and a half.
Occasionally I think of this forum and how you all are doing. I think I finally understand why people don't come back once they recover. It's really hard to read and remember all of this true despair. It's also really difficult to grapple with the question "did I really recover?" Because 1. The experience of being on invega is so unbelievable that it defies reality 2. Recovery IS subjective and something you can choose not to believe in 3. The trauma caused by invega, not the effects of invega, will always have affected you and your life in a way. It's so much easier just to forget about it altogether. It doesn't help that half this forum are also junkies who are just wondering when they can feel a hit again.
I pray for all of you guys & the worst suffering on earth that you are experiencing. It's hard to believe in rebirth when you are literally experiencing being the living dead, but life exists past invega. The way is narrow but you can get there.
I've turned my messages off because I had some people from this forum harassing me about being dishonest about recovery that I didn't want to hear from. I also don't like to think about invega every time I check my email inbox. But just hold on - if I could make it you can too. Maybe it helps to think of invega recovery like Wesley's rebrith in the Princess Bride - a gradual reanimation. I think a lot of us are expecting something like a birth canal experience - a sudden alleviation - and this is not the case.
 
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Kaatrina said:
Don't blame yourself. Everyone has to get burned by the medical community somehow in order to learn not to openly trust it as we're taught to. We were just unlucky that this was our "burn".

hypopituitarianism is permanent depending on the cause. If your hormones are affected by medication it stands to reason that they will stabilize once the medication is removed. If you take synthetic hormones that may also affect your pituitary gland.

You will be okay Bojana. You should be almost to a place where you can notice improvement if you are close to approximately ten months. I wish this forum was more positive for you. You were always positive and I fear to hear this hopelessness from you.

UPDATE: I've been doing well. My baby is two months old and gives me the butterflies every day. Life is chaotic with four children but I wouldn't have it any other way. I don't really go out much right now because I'm still breastfeeding. I keep busy keeping house, running after the two-year-old, drawing when I can, and taking the older kids to sports. I recently submitted the paintings I achieved while pregnant to the city arts page.
I've had no psychotic relapse. My historic "cycle" is once every two years so I should expect one in summer of 2024. I'm going to try to have things set up with a respite house then. When I get too stressed I can see myself wanting to cope with spiritual delusion and delusion of grandeur, but I'm better able to talk about it with my husband now. Healthy releases are everything. He and I attend therapy once every month and a half.
Occasionally I think of this forum and how you all are doing. I think I finally understand why people don't come back once they recover. It's really hard to read and remember all of this true despair. It's also really difficult to grapple with the question "did I really recover?" Because 1. The experience of being on invega is so unbelievable that it defies reality 2. Recovery IS subjective and something you can choose not to believe in 3. The trauma caused by invega, not the effects of invega, will always have affected you and your life in a way. It's so much easier just to forget about it altogether. It doesn't help that half this forum are also junkies who are just wondering when they can feel a hit again.
I pray for all of you guys & the worst suffering on earth that you are experiencing. It's hard to believe in rebirth when you are literally experiencing being the living dead, but life exists past invega. The way is narrow but you can get there.
I've turned my messages off because I had some people from this forum harassing me about being dishonest about recovery that I didn't want to hear from. I also don't like to think about invega every time I check my email inbox. But just hold on - if I could make it you can too. Maybe it helps to think of invega recovery like Wesley's rebrith in the Princess Bride - a gradual reanimation. I think a lot of us are expecting something like a birth canal experience - a sudden alleviation - and this is not the case.
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I'm around 55%-60% recovered at more than 2 years off. It still sucks hard, it is not worth it.
 
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