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๐ŸŒŸ๐ŸŒŸ Social ๐ŸŒŸ๐ŸŒŸ Gibberings ver. CCXIX - "what's new, c*nty chops?"

Jackal said:
It did not taste as it smelled

It wasn't BAD, just for something that smelled spectacular the flavour was something of a let down

Nice aftertaste though. Think I fucked up the grating the meat of a coconut and roasting in until golden brown before adding water and making coconut paste

I might just add coconut paste to my kitchen supplies before doing again
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I looked up making curries from scratch on You Tube whilst on 4 months of Covid Lock Down / Furlough. I was fed up with those crappy curry pastes from a jar. I've never found a good one yet despite trying several brands.

I was astonished by the amount of time and work it takes to make 'proper' Asian curries from scratch.

I think one of them was like 12 hours, including prep and cooking time to make the base masala etc, and then the same amount of time again to make the specific curry itself.

I would have liked to have given it a go, but that amount of effort and work is just not feasible or worth it imo.

Fortunately there's some very good quality, proper authentic curry houses near me, and I'll happily pay them the equivalent of 2 hours of my wages for 2 take out curries, considering the curries are nearly always very good and the amount of time it saves.

I ended up having a few bashes at making Chinese special Fried Rice dishes instead, which was a lot easier and less time consuming, and the results were pretty good.
 
Bleaney said:
I looked up making curries from scratch on You Tube whilst on 4 months of Covid Lock Down / Furlough. I was fed up with those crappy curry pastes from a jar. I've never found a good one yet despite trying several brands.

I was astonished by the amount of time and work it takes to make 'proper' Asian curries from scratch.

I think one of them was like 12 hours, including prep and cooking time to make the base masala etc, and then the same amount of time again to make the specific curry itself.

I would have liked to have given it a go, but that amount of effort and work is just not feasible or worth it imo.

Fortunately there's some very good quality, proper authentic curry houses near me, and I'll happily pay them the equivalent of 2 hours of my wages for 2 take out curries, considering the curries are nearly always very good and the amount of time it saves.

I ended up having a few bashes at making Chinese special Fried Rice dishes instead, which was a lot easier and less time consuming, and the results were pretty good.
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That's true - but you can make a lot of the various base pastes etc in large enough batches that you can store enough for a future 30 days of quicker curry prep

My missus kicks my ass at making asian curries but I make more authentic indian than her
 
I think making Asian curries is probably harder for me to get right with the more abstract ingredients to us westerners.

On another note having not worked for a while, I've got a couple of job interviews this weekend. With the job role I will mostly be left to my own devices, which is ideal ideal an anti social stoner, just the way I like it.
Fingers crossed, would be nice to have some money and my own life again. ๐Ÿ™
 
Jackal said:
That's true - but you can make a lot of the various base pastes etc in large enough batches that you can store enough for a future 30 days of quicker curry prep

My missus kicks my ass at making asian curries but I make more authentic indian than her
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That's pretty ambitious, making coconut paste from scratch.
Is your missus Cambodian? Sometimes reading your posts I want your life!
 
Well that was a particularly heavy weekend. Mate back from offshore must have bought 15 or more bags off the albos to snort.

Then fucked off to the girl I've been seeing washed up 3 with the ammonia. Head blown to bits.

Went out sat came to and it was Tuesday morning I'd had no sleep and spent ยฃ500 ๐Ÿ˜ฃ then to top it off realised my cars brake pads are fucked which I need fixed for the new job I'm due to start tomorrow night....
 
Taken the edge off the weekends antics with 10mg martin dows Diaz and a few peronis. Bit of Jamie Webster in the background ๐Ÿ‘Œ
 
When moving some things around yesterday, I found a strip of pharmaceuticals that I had stashed in a hiding place. This was completely unexpected as I had absolutely no recollection of doing that. I couldn't see what it was at first, and I hoped it would be something good like a strip of Etilaam Etizolam, or some Hemofarm Lorazepam, or maybe something far more exotic and exciting. But unfortunately, it turned out to be just Modvigil Modafinil, of all things.

Really pretty much the last thing I wanted as I'm trying to do without Modafinil for some time, whilst I taper down on benzos. I had flushed the last few Modafinil pills that I had a week or 2 ago. I couldn't resist 'one last dabble' today from the unexpected windfall but the rest will have to go.

I really hate to be so wasteful, but unfortunately at this stage and in these circumstances I can't rely on will power alone.

One day going in the wrong direction isn't going to completely derail me, as I know it's rare to get a perfect run of every day going perfectly to plan. Just not really going to happen.
 
LoginNotSecure said:
Today was a good day, dupuytren's contracture. Don't pop one of them every day.
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damn, sounds nasty

kinda related to trigger thumb in any way?

I was a week from having surgery on trigger thumb which had lasted months and was getting extremely sore by then. I dropped 200ug (genuine dose) lsd and the next night I noticed that my thumb was now toitally fine! wtf. Gotta be causational surely. So, lsd cures trigger thumb! (or at least can do)
 
House to myself for a week, the angel on my right shoulder didn't stand ร  chance. Leave booked but couldn't get hold of my fella, so got a few bags of each from a shotter. Wasnt expecting much but fuck me both very good, small, but then that's hackney for ya.
 
Bleaney said:
When moving some things around yesterday, I found a strip of pharmaceuticals that I had stashed in a hiding place. This was completely unexpected as I had absolutely no recollection of doing that. I couldn't see what it was at first, and I hoped it would be something good like a strip of Etilaam Etizolam, or some Hemofarm Lorazepam, or maybe something far more exotic and exciting. But unfortunately, it turned out to be just Modvigil Modafinil, of all things.

Really pretty much the last thing I wanted as I'm trying to do without Modafinil for some time, whilst I taper down on benzos. I had flushed the last few Modafinil pills that I had a week or 2 ago. I couldn't resist 'one last dabble' today from the unexpected windfall but the rest will have to go.

I really hate to be so wasteful, but unfortunately at this stage and in these circumstances I can't rely on will power alone.

One day going in the wrong direction isn't going to completely derail me, as I know it's rare to get a perfect run of every day going perfectly to plan. Just not really going to happen.
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how's the taper going?
 
Forever Changes said:
how's the taper going?
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I did flush the rest of that Modafinil so it's heading back in the right direction again now. I seemed to have convinced myself that I needed loads of stuff to get to sleep that I actually dont, because the CBD and Valerian pills have gone, as well as the several nightly whiskies. I'm now on to reducing my clonazepam by 5% every night until I reach a point of being unable to sleep, and will then pause on that dose and wait for my body to catch up, before continuing with further reductions.. So far I'm still sleeping easily, and for too long, and it's hard to get out of bed in the morning, so I'm clearly still taking too high a dose of Bzs.

The thing is though is that it's much easier to do all this while I'm not working. I have no stress or anxiety. Although the longer I remain out of work, that will gradually start to become a source of financial stress and anxiety in itself.

So yeah.

I'm turning up to the job centre today for my first meeting with no nothing - no benzos nor kratom nor modafinil. They will see more of the uncamoflagued me, and I'm telling them about my ASD and potential ADHD so that they will understand something of my difficulties with finding work and keeping it, and getting past interviews, especially without medications.

I've finally figured out that benzos help me deal with the ASD sensory overload of busy crowded noisy places, they dull my oversensitivity and help me cope without issues. (I mean, I've been aware of this for some time, it's just suddenly become much clearer as to how much of an issue this is.) As well as mostly eliminating the feeling of social awkwardness. It's no wonder I'm so drawn to benzos, but I really haven't figured out how I'll be able to get through interviews and hold down a job without them. They help a great deal in several ways, but the biggest problem with them for me is that they will very likely be making my ADHD symptoms worse.

Figuring out the true root cause of drug usage is a big step and it's taken me so long, but at least I've finally got there. Not sure what comes next though.

Maybe if I do get an ADHD diagnosis and put on ADHD meds that will help.
 
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