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Opana313

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So why do we or YOU continue this game of addiction? Speaking on behalf of any substance you feel the erge to do daily/ several times a day..

Mine is because I want to feel great and have an awesome day..but MOSTLY because I want to stock pile up on a plethora of my favorites so I have them at any time but also be in the state of living without addiction and just chipping, take it or leave it but best believe I'll have it.

Not sure if this is from a fear of never seeing said drug(s) ever again or because I keep failing at that main goal, of being the master of my own will and being able to use at random instead of all the time. This is how I fail bc the addiction forces me to eventually finish all that I have left.

I am not exactly sure but subs have given me this power to maintain without DOC and stock up..but you know.. all good things must come to an end or good riddance? All in all the subs are to keep me clean not to capitalize for a great relapse. Yet this game continues.
 
For the buzz mostly without the buzz its like taking physically addictive ibuprofen . Same as really because when i have a good buzz i have a great day am kind and well-mannered with everyone
 
These days i only use cannabis vaporised mainly medicinally but sometimes im high as well helps me focus on games and enjoy music more
I think back a good few years when i used substances like Ecstasy i used to use it so i could have a good night out. Depressive episode? Gone, i wont be depressed ill be buzzing. Social anxiety? gone ill be buzzing whats your name where you from and what you on lol
Shame about the comedowns tho i dont regret any of those nights though! at least i have something to reference the waves of my life my mind and my mood with
 
I agree with everyone's opinion..main reason is to feel at peace..but why have I not been able to maintain a sense of peace on my own, my own way without the tools of drugs?

I was also contemplating long and hard about how I wouldn't be an addict if the shit wasn't so stigmatized. It is strange, if booze were to become illegal tomorrow but drugs were at every gas station...I would be an alcoholic looking for my next bottle instead of wanting drugs.
 
Opana313 said:
So why do we or YOU continue this game of addiction? Speaking on behalf of any substance you feel the erge to do daily/ several times a day..

Mine is because I want to feel great and have an awesome day..but MOSTLY because I want to stock pile up on a plethora of my favorites so I have them at any time but also be in the state of living without addiction and just chipping, take it or leave it but best believe I'll have it.

Not sure if this is from a fear of never seeing said drug(s) ever again or because I keep failing at that main goal, of being the master of my own will and being able to use at random instead of all the time. This is how I fail bc the addiction forces me to eventually finish all that I have left.

I am not exactly sure but subs have given me this power to maintain without DOC and stock up..but you know.. all good things must come to an end or good riddance? All in all the subs are to keep me clean not to capitalize for a great relapse. Yet this game continues.
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I've had an extremely hard and traumatic life and being on drugs is the only way I can cope.
 
I'm somewhat autistic and I can't feel like a normal human without them. I also have IBS (gut pain) - which is common in people with autism. For a while, as I was growing up, I was able to cope with my issues, but as I reached my early 20s, I was unable to form true deep relationships. So I not only felt empty inside all the time, but also had chronic gut pain. So long story short, after trying many different drugs, I found kratom, which I loved. Now I'm an opioid addict.
 
To get thru life. Ive been sobering up lately, its been years since Ive went 4 days sober and could just sit and appreciate everything around me. But damn life is so boring sometimes, I have to get a pill cocktail. Stressed?? Hydros + xans. Having a good day and wanna have a great night listening to music and sitting in my room?? Hydros + xans. Depressed?? Hydros + bars. I want to learn to play the piano to try and focus my energy elsewhere besides drugs. A friend of mine told me I have a hard time expressing my feelings thats why I have a drug problem. It makes sense.
 
Escapism mostly. It's amazing to just forget all the negative shit that's going on in my life. But there's also a social aspect to it. As if you're part of a secret society of some kind. I'm also more social when I take drugs like weed or alcohol. I also love gardening and being busy with plants and harvesting. So making drugs is just a fun time for me even without using them.
 
Psychoactive_Gardener said:
But there's also a social aspect to it. As if you're part of a secret society of some kind. I'm also more social when I take drugs like weed or alcohol. I also love gardening and being busy with plants and harvesting. So making drugs is just a fun time for me even without using them.
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Totally agree,

that and also the fact that my baseline is shit, having diabetes type 1 and adhd, so my baseline it's not super cool to begin with,
some stuff like kratom (and alcohol and weed in the past) creates some light alternate support, another baseline that makes me more content with how my body feels and reacts to things.
 
Escapism is a perfect answer imo..lord knows.

pharoah said:
To get thru life. Ive been sobering up lately, its been years since Ive went 4 days sober and could just sit and appreciate everything around me. But damn life is so boring sometimes, I have to get a pill cocktail. Stressed?? Hydros + xans. Having a good day and wanna have a great night listening to music and sitting in my room?? Hydros + xans. Depressed?? Hydros + bars. I want to learn to play the piano to try and focus my energy elsewhere besides drugs. A friend of mine told me I have a hard time expressing my feelings thats why I have a drug problem. It makes sense.
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I suppose but I think once the mind decides oh I love this shit right here(like for me the first time I took oxy) and it was just a weekend thing, or a hangover tool to being something I need for work, and then all of a sudden you also need it to relax in the shade on a day off, to becoming all the time. Very stressful indeed especially if you do not get a consistent prescription. Fucking A Right?
 
Synaps3 said:
I'm somewhat autistic and I can't feel like a normal human without them. I also have IBS (gut pain) - which is common in people with autism. For a while, as I was growing up, I was able to cope with my issues, but as I reached my early 20s, I was unable to form true deep relationships. So I not only felt empty inside all the time, but also had chronic gut pain. So long story short, after trying many different drugs, I found kratom, which I loved. Now I'm an opioid addict.
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I have Asperger's and I've been told I don't understand how to be a normal human. I don't have gut pain but I've always felt like I don't belong. I'm so different from everyone else the way. I think that it's difficult to feel that separated. So as a teenager I've used alcohol and then I luckily found MDMA.

Now I tend to use entheogens and empathogens, and yes I say empathogens because I actually scored a zero on the Sasha Baron Cohen empathy scale for people with autism spectrum disorder. An actual zero out of 80.

MDMA and like substances make me feel like I belong at least for a little while.
 
For a lot of reasons…one is that reality is just too gritty and raw to just get through without some chemical assistance, ya feel me? Another reason is, it’s BORING to just be sober all the time, or even just poison yourself occasionally with alcohol (cuz that’s what you’re doing, technically.) Also, I have ADHD, and I prefer uppers, so I guess you could say I’m self-medicating (was just FINALLY diagnosed last January, never took meds for it.)

 
So I can do and say what I feel in the moment without worrying if it'll come out right or if I'll embarrass myself or be rejected.

Without it I'm afraid to touch the person I'm in a relationship with. It's irrational as fuck but I can't move past it. I'm afraid to talk. Especially about anything serious.

I call meth liquid courage.
 
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