WHY do you use drugs? Besides addiction..
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Ya know I got the idea from my great granparents rubbing rum or moonshine on my gums when teething.Phobophobic is writing this down...
Said maybe the rum will help.
Added comfort never hurts specially when one is about to lose it from pain in the face.
Peace
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My mum told me that her dad used to blow cigarette smoke in her ear to " help", with ear aches, good god
Dreamflyer
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Self-medication. Even though I'm on two antidepressants and have been in therapy for 20 years, I'm still an emotional wreck half of the time. But if I drink a few beers or take an Oxy, I actually feel "normal" for a few hours. I can eat, sleep, joke around, etc.
Well besides pain and anxiety i like them
MadHatterMike
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To try and be happy never felt happy the majority of life even as a child..with a few moments here and there I was like when your a teenager and get a crush on a girl and end up dating and butterflies rarely but that's it. Those few times...other than that the only times I've been happy are when high.
Prettyboy12
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I snort coke bc it’s fun and gives me energy
cosmic charlie
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Most of the drugs i use, like dissociatives and psychedelics i take to become one with the infinite and find peace in my human experience. They are massively rewarding to me and ive learned so many aspects in relation to this mystery of consciousness.
Of course i consume other types of drugs at times for hedonistic purposes but as im getting old ive developed a more healthy relationship with psychoactive substances in general. Im a work in progress
Of course i consume other types of drugs at times for hedonistic purposes but as im getting old ive developed a more healthy relationship with psychoactive substances in general. Im a work in progress
BourbonMac
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Because life sucks and reality bites. I use THC a lot and especially DMT these days, and kratom in the morning. Diazepam at night for anxiety although at this point I don't really need to be on it anymore.
plumbus-nine
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But it doesn't last. I was so happy when I finally got morphine from my doc, and the first few dosages were great of course but after some weeks or a few months it began to act as a pure depressant. The antidepressant effects are only there if I increase the dosage which isn't sustainable. A friend ended up taking 2.4 grams of morphine every other day and still got some depression between. My highest dosage were 600mg, then I realized that it wouldn't work out in the long term and quit. Also quit the antidepressant venlafaxine I was taking and after some time I began to feel better. I miss the morphine but more do I miss dissociatives, they are the best antidepressants I've ever encountered.
ColoradoOpiateGirl
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Trauma. Like most of us. And the best part about life, is the trauma keeps happening! And you don't know when it will happen next!
I've been in psychotherapy and on daily meds since my first suicide attempt at age 16. (36 now) Talk and drug therapy. It works to a point. It keeps me able to hold down a job, be a real mother and wife and not lose my shit. Only 3 institutionalizations in my whole life.
My parents met in a mental institution while in treatment for schizophrenia, I have a full blooded sister that was given up for adoption at birth that I didn't meet until I was 20, I was sexually assaulted and raped by my peers multiple times starting at age 4, was raised by said schizophrenic mom after parents got divorced, became an adult orphan at 29....list goes on and on (and on). Life is hard, everyone has their shit.
I have also had a wonderful life. But I am full of fear. Drugs make me feel "normal"....rarely euphoric or out of control just.....not crying LOL
GREAT THREAD.
I've been in psychotherapy and on daily meds since my first suicide attempt at age 16. (36 now) Talk and drug therapy. It works to a point. It keeps me able to hold down a job, be a real mother and wife and not lose my shit. Only 3 institutionalizations in my whole life.
My parents met in a mental institution while in treatment for schizophrenia, I have a full blooded sister that was given up for adoption at birth that I didn't meet until I was 20, I was sexually assaulted and raped by my peers multiple times starting at age 4, was raised by said schizophrenic mom after parents got divorced, became an adult orphan at 29....list goes on and on (and on). Life is hard, everyone has their shit.
I have also had a wonderful life. But I am full of fear. Drugs make me feel "normal"....rarely euphoric or out of control just.....not crying LOL
GREAT THREAD.
AlsoTapered
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Someone has to be 'first into man' for novel compounds and ethics suggest that it should be the designer.
Dreamflyer
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Morphine was probably my favorite opioid, but for some reason it gave me a hangover like no other. If I took it before bed, I'd wake up with the worst headache and nausea of my life. It seemed to feel "dirtier" than the newer ones. I've done Oxy/Percocet, Vicodin, Opana, Dilaudid, Methadone, Demerol and Tramadol, and none of them made me feel sick the way that morphine did.
That's probably a good thing though, because I liked it waaaay too much!
MadHatterMike
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Same^ idk why but morphine especially the high mg ones the dark blue ones I think if I remember right would give me a headache before long even while high..weird.
AlsoTapered
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Histamine release?
Morbid Sea Cow
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Existence is pain, drugs make existence slightly more tolerable
plumbus-nine
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I am currently abstinent because I can't source anything decent but my reason would be escapism. To escape from boredom, from my fcked up life and past. But I used even before that, like Morbid Sea Crow already said, existence is pain.
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