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☮ Social ☮ PD Social Talk Thread 2022-2023 v. Year of the Phenethylamine

I had a perma-tolerance after my years of tripping WAY too often (but note that even once weekly tripping for a long time will produce quite a bit of "perma-tolerance"). It took me 3 solid years to start to get my ability to fully enjoy psychedelics back, of not tripping even once (well I did once after about a year and a half, but only confirmed I still had a monstrous tolerance).

Even once I started again, I still had a higher than normal tolerance. But the good news is that, years after that, of not tripping very often or with any constant regularity (that is, I might trip 2 weeks in a row, or I might take 2 months off, I am not ever just counting the day until my next trip), I have the least amount of tolerance I have ever had. I seem actually more sensitive to psychedelics than I was even when I started. Which is awesome. :) For years I thought I had fucked myself over for life.
 
Well, humans all over have the same desire to solve problems and figure out the world. In the course of that, it is necessary to study shapes, and from shapes arises geometry and trigonometry, as you begin to understand the relationships between numbers in shapes. As that understanding evolves to the point that you have developed trigonometry (and you would, because those are the relationships between the numbers... math is fascinating to me because it is one of the few things we can make 100% factual statements with, either directly or abstractly), you would arrive at the concept of a perfect circle. A circle is a shape that everyone has observed, obviously not mathematically perfect circles, necessarily, but every culture will have developed a word to describe that shape that is roughly a circle. And then through the study of math, they will arrive at the concept of a perfect circle. You couldn't do otherwise. Math (in all its forms) is a universal truth that becomes self-evident through observation and study. That's why it arises independently across the world. There isn't another possible way to conceptualize a perfect circle... a culture could not have evolved its sciences enough to have even grappled with the math of shapes, but once they do, they will understand circles.

Interesting thoughts, I appreciate them. :) After I make dinner and take a shower and stuff I will read your posts a little more carefully.
God is both necessity and desire, indeed! :)

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If phenomena can be determined to have no inherent existence except when being observed, does this then mean that they can be unobserved? If they can be unobserved, doesn't this in fact disprove the existence of a prime observer (god)?
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Describe an unobserved phenomena. I'm waiting. =) Best case is you will describe nonsense. Hundun.

(Remember "observe" doesn't just meen "see". Blind people observe. Deaf people observe. Helen Keller observed.)
 
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Not sure how many of the folks who used to post/visit here when I was last active in early 2015 are still around - but to those who are, and to everyone else, hey. It's been a while. After I got clean from IV and opioids, and took an extended break from everything, I ended up abandoning this site and essentially ghosting everyone - IRL and online friends and associates alike. I've reconnected with a few people since, but not many. So if we used to talk and I vanished on you, I have to apologise. I also want to apologise to anyone that I might not immediately recognise or remember - as unfortunately thanks to how heavily I was abusing a lot of things back in those years, my memory is a little hazy at best.

Anyway I missed BL, and I especially missed PD, so thought I'd check in.

How has everyone been? :) Hope you're all having a lovely week ❤
Good to see you! I have been poking around a bit lately again myself. Revisiting my youth these days lol. Weird the memories that come back simply from going on an old message board.

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I think the deaths from 5-MeO-DMT are usually due either to vomit aspiration, drowning, or drug interactions. Ibogaine affects heart rhythms in multiple ways, of which QT prolongations is but one. I have not heard good reports of people being treated effectively when it gets bad. Lots of drugs cause QT-prolongation. Some (Benadryl) don't seem to be that risky. Others (methadone) are apparently roughly equivalent to ibogaine. The number of recorded ibogaine fatalities when I last checked was 17, although there are undoubtedly more. I've read of at least one in a pseudo-clinical setting where it was not reported because of concerns regarding the surviving partner's life insurance payout. The fact that deaths can occur days later also complicate attempts to measure them. I think that efforts to screen for risk factors (dehydration, methadone use, pre-existing heart conditions) are a positive step, but I don't know that we'll have good data for many years as to how effective they are at completely screening out risk.

Yeah, I’m sure there’s more than we think, but it’s still not a lot compared to basically anything else that can kill you. I was mainly pointing it out because SuperPsych was just raving about DMXE. Even ketamine kills many times more people a year than ibogaine and 5-MeO-DMT combined and I’m not trying to call ketamine particularly deadly by saying that.

After ten years of tripping, my friend finally tried nitrous last night. They had an experience that I'd read about plenty, but neither of us had experienced before: they took 20mg of miprocin, and after two hours had not gotten above a very, very weak +. They are exceedingly experienced with miprocin, and knew that 45min was the absolute longest they should ever expect to wait, even on a full stomach. They were frustrated and were tempted to take a 5mg booster. I said, just take the loss and call it a night. I suggested taking a few balloons of nitrous, as that will often kick my brain into recognizing that it's tripping. I told them to take several lungfulls back to back, holding them in, but apparently holding one cartridge worth for ten seconds was plenty intense. It never got them going. They vaped some EPT sullenly and gave up.

Three hours after dosing, they suddenly started tripping. Only a light, attenuated ++ likely due to tolerance, but a big shift. Very weird.

I’ve seen that happen and experienced it but I think capsules were always involved. Here’s an excerpt from my 50 mg report where I happened to use one:

“Most notable to me at first was that the capsule seemed to drastically slow down the onset from how I'm used to eating it just straight; I'd normally feel that kicking in hard within about fifteen to twenty minutes, but this time at about an hour I was honestly starting to wonder if the chemical had somehow degraded despite the fact that it still looked completely white. However, just as I was having these thoughts, I moved my hand and there they were: tracers, tracers, and tracers of tracers. They went from nothing to almost blinding, creating too many copies to see through the spaces of, stacking upon each other, and just floating in front of me wherever I tried to look.”

It was weird. No more capsules.

Nitrous does help me with that too most of the time. I used to do it at the beginning of every trip.

The following morning, a different friend told me that they couldn't sleep, so they hit their wax pen. Ended up in hyperspace. Full moon? lol

This is how those experiences always happen for me. THC when you’re tired but can’t sleep in total darkness is like a dissociative without the anxiolysis.

My one dose with it was on the low end and while it was not the craziest of experiences by any means, it definitely left me with an evil aftertasted that lasted all week.

I do remember this about your experience but for what it’s worth, I think most of the reputation probably came from the trips themselves. I was a big fan of reading those early DPT trip reports back in the day, they were almost as “hilarious” as salvia and datura reports. There were literally almost none of them below 100 mg insufflated, some involving multiple doses, and going at least as high as 250 mg, and often involving multiple friends doing it at once just because they heard that it’s strong. It’s nuts but it’s not like I can really blame people with the lack of information that was available at the time, they were mostly the DPT pioneers.

I wanted to revisit 4-AcO-DET. I haven't had the 4 hydroxy sub, but so far this one doesn't feel all that weird or alien. I quite liked it the two times I tried it.

To be clear, it’s the same as DPT for me, where it’s just superficial and not about how it “feels” for me. I’ve taken both 4-HO-DET and 4-AcO-DET and they both feel astoundingly ‘normal’ to me, almost like psychedelic deliriants. And yes I do say that also because they look alien and demonic.

Smoking 30 mg of 4-AcO-DET is actually the most I’ve experienced this visual quality from anything in most ways, the few exceptions being some 5-MeO-EiPT-related… things. But at the same time my feeling was just enthralled and manic, in a detached way. It was the most visually crisp psychedelic trip I’ve probably ever had with realistic painting-like imagery being significantly more common than any sort of geometric or other sensory effects. I could feel the life in the demons who I could see watching me and sense that they expected me to be a shaman who would conquer the netherworld with my love and unite the forces of light and darkness. Smoking 30 mg of DPT produced a trip that was similar but with less going on, more dissociative and distanced.

5-MeO-PiPT is pretty different from the -MiPT in my experience, too.

I’d like to try it one day. I bet it’s more soft.

Like when I've had to take a crap while tripping I'll be getting sucked into the tippy wallpaper and will be tripping quite hard but as soon as I'm walking around again I'm barely tripping.

“Shitting on Acid.” I knew some guys in college who wanted to write that book.

I had a perma-tolerance after my years of tripping WAY too often (but note that even once weekly tripping for a long time will produce quite a bit of "perma-tolerance"). It took me 3 solid years to start to get my ability to fully enjoy psychedelics back, of not tripping even once (well I did once after about a year and a half, but only confirmed I still had a monstrous tolerance).

Even once I started again, I still had a higher than normal tolerance. But the good news is that, years after that, of not tripping very often or with any constant regularity (that is, I might trip 2 weeks in a row, or I might take 2 months off, I am not ever just counting the day until my next trip), I have the least amount of tolerance I have ever had. I seem actually more sensitive to psychedelics than I was even when I started. Which is awesome. :) For years I thought I had fucked myself over for life.

This is pretty much how it went for me too. It’s easy to feel sad about “never getting to trip / trip hard again” but in my experience there’s never any guarantee you won’t be back in it again eventually.
 
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Like when I've had to take a crap while tripping I'll be getting sucked into the tippy wallpaper and will be tripping quite hard but as soon as I'm walking around again I'm barely tripping.
Visuals are always the most intense for me on the can. Don't know why, but taking a psychedelic dump seems to always kick it into overdrive.
 
Even just peeing will do it for me. I almost felt like I was going to pass out from the intensity of it on AL-LAD.
 
Having anxiety when i consume caffeine now, i thought it was just in my head but its real. I felt completely fine all morning and then i drank a strong cup of coffee and thirty mins later wham, that anxious feeling came over me. Made the drop to 1.25mgs of Zyprexa and ive held to it, pretty sure thats what is causing it. What a demon drug that stuff is, hate it so much.

Ive been struggling to taper off it for 8 months now its just so terrible and difficult. The withdrawal effects are so unpleasant and exactly like benzo WD, so any of you that have been through those know where im coming from. It was the biggest mistake ever going back on that stuff. The last time i went off it years ago i was taking boatloads of benzos and opioids so i think i just never noticed the withdrawal symptoms.

Im pretty deadset on making the complete jump off over the next month. Im about to start taking 1.25mgs every other night for a couple weeks and then every three days and then just trying to stop all together. I would seriously advise people not to go on this drug, if you truly need an anti-psychotic there is other options that are so much easier to come off when that time comes.

Wish me luck 🙏
 
Argh I wish I could trip tonight but I'm trying to wait until the eleventh so I can trip at this edm show.

Last weekend was this guy live. I snorted like 5mg of 25b-NBOH plus mdma and didn't trip as hard as I wanted to. Tolerance on that stuff is a beast.
 
I’ve seen that happen and experienced it but I think capsules were always involved. Here’s an excerpt from my 50 mg report where I happened to use one:

“Most notable to me at first was that the capsule seemed to drastically slow down the onset from how I'm used to eating it just straight; I'd normally feel that kicking in hard within about fifteen to twenty minutes, but this time at about an hour I was honestly starting to wonder if the chemical had somehow degraded despite the fact that it still looked completely white. However, just as I was having these thoughts, I moved my hand and there they were: tracers, tracers, and tracers of tracers. They went from nothing to almost blinding, creating too many copies to see through the spaces of, stacking upon each other, and just floating in front of me wherever I tried to look.”

It was weird. No more capsules.

Yeah I never use capsules for taking psychedelics, it always dramatically impacts the experience, and in an inconsistent way. I always just dump the powder on my tongue and because I'm a freak then I purposely try to fully taste it. But you can dump a powder on your tongue and wash it down without tasting it much. people think of gelatin capsules as not having any impact on absorption but my experience suggests otherwise.

Visuals are always the most intense for me on the can. Don't know why, but taking a psychedelic dump seems to always kick it into overdrive.

Bathrooms in general do it for me. Not sure why, something about the lighting and small space maybe? And they're usually tiled, and usually quite bright/white, which makes visuals seem to get a lot stronger.
 
In a really bad place right now they just transfered my probation up north here and now i have to start reporting in person. And they also wanna tour any address im gonna move to, so the landlord is probably gonna get sketched out and not even let me live there. I cant handle all this stress anymore honestly and dont think i do this much longer.

Wish i just stayed in jail and finished out the time instead of going to this program/halfway. Im just not good at being on supervision like this i always violate it and i just have a feeling inside like its right around the corner. I try and act like im okay but im so depressed and hopeless inside. Cant even do the FXE now cuz im scared they are gonna do a dip stick test and it can trigger a false positive.
 
In a really bad place right now they just transfered my probation up north here and now i have to start reporting in person. And they also wanna tour any address im gonna move to, so the landlord is probably gonna get sketched out and not even let me live there. I cant handle all this stress anymore honestly and dont think i do this much longer.
The old saying it is easy to get into the system but hard to get out. The goal is to get out and stay out. Charlie, anything you do speak and act from the heart like you do here. One foot in front of the other. The first thing I would do is ask the transferring powers if there is assistance. Spotlight your work. The next person you have to speak too. Stay ahead of it until they forget about you. We all know wise asses and a-holes. You are a kind person. That shines through. Use that. It will serve you and keep the Faith. Don't forget you have a little anxiety from the meds so keep it all in perspective.

No it is better you are out. And don't project. And do some deep breathing. You know it will work out.
 
Been doing a lot of high end associative thinking lately about the way different STEM disciplines fit together. This morning I was thinking about music theory in relation to math in relation to chemistry (harmonics connects music to physics to chemistry since matter is vibrating) and it occurred to me that there should be a way to view the periodic table of elements in relation to the Fibonacci numbers.... Kind of relating back to the good old "rabbit problem" and ways to stack together recurring quantized shapes like particles. And sure enough after some googling -- there is! Tickled with myself that I was able to predict it. This is all the reading I've done on it so far but there's a very deep rabbit hole to go down here! Thought some of you guys may be interested.


The article doesn't go into it, but part of what's going on is that the elements that fall "in between" the Fibonacci numbers tend to be more reactive, I believe, based on the number of electrons in their outer valence shell as one of the main trends. Which is part of why carbon, with it's four outermost electrons (half the full shell) is able to form the backbone of so much organic chemistry.

Recently had a couple DOC trips for the first time in over 8 years (have barely touched psychedelics since before my cancer) and it's got my brain firing on all gears! Spiral out my swirly friends!

Edit -- you know, "reactive" isn't necessarily the right term for it in general... More reactive as far as covalent bonding is concerned is perhaps a better way to look at the ones that fall in series with Carbon (that trend just on the organic side of the semimetal line). The ones that are further away from that series to be more ionically reactive, out to the point where they suddenly become nonreactive (noble gas series).

Images to go along with it for anyone that doesn't want to click the link. The visuals definitely help.

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Notice how new groups in the standard periodic table tend to recur in a similar pattern as how the new color pairs recur in the classic depiction of the Fibonacci rabbit problem:

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The old saying it is easy to get into the system but hard to get out. The goal is to get out and stay out. Charlie, anything you do speak and act from the heart like you do here. One foot in front of the other. The first thing I would do is ask the transferring powers if there is assistance. Spotlight your work. The next person you have to speak too. Stay ahead of it until they forget about you. We all know wise asses and a-holes. You are a kind person. That shines through. Use that. It will serve you and keep the Faith. Don't forget you have a little anxiety from the meds so keep it all in perspective.

No it is better you are out. And don't project. And do some deep breathing. You know it will work out.

My counselour was talking with me for awhile and im feeling better. She thinks that the tour isnt gonna be a big deal and that i should just try and not get myself so worked up always thinking the worst is going to happen. Just have to keep on the path and work and save money and things should be okay. I just get myself so worked up sometimes.
 
Been doing a lot of high end associative thinking lately about the way different STEM disciplines fit together. This morning I was thinking about music theory in relation to math in relation to chemistry (harmonics connects music to physics to chemistry since matter is vibrating) and it occurred to me that there should be a way to view the periodic table of elements in relation to the Fibonacci numbers.... Kind of relating back to the good old "rabbit problem" and ways to stack together recurring quantized shapes like particles. And sure enough after some googling -- there is! Tickled with myself that I was able to predict it. This is all the reading I've done on it so far but there's a very deep rabbit hole to go down here! Thought some of you guys may be interested.


The article doesn't go into it, but part of what's going on is that the elements that fall "in between" the Fibonacci numbers tend to be more reactive, I believe, based on the number of electrons in their outer valence shell as one of the main trends. Which is part of why carbon, with it's four outermost electrons (half the full shell) is able to form the backbone of so much organic chemistry.

Recently had a couple DOC trips for the first time in over 8 years (have barely touched psychedelics since before my cancer) and it's got my brain firing on all gears! Spiral out my swirly friends!

Edit -- you know, "reactive" isn't necessarily the right term for it in general... More reactive as far as covalent bonding is concerned is perhaps a better way to look at the ones that fall in series with Carbon (that trend just on the organic side of the semimetal line). The ones that are further away from that series to be more ionically reactive, out to the point where they suddenly become nonreactive (noble gas series).

Images to go along with it for anyone that doesn't want to click the link. The visuals definitely help.

0OptKGm.jpeg

Notice how new groups in the standard periodic table tend to recur in a similar pattern as how the new color pairs recur in the classic depiction of the Fibonacci rabbit problem:

CjDs4Qk.jpeg


620Y03r.jpeg

LCD9Kfo.jpeg


4CmQcew.jpeg

fo0EGpo.png
A couple more good visualizations to go along with this, and some more comments that I lazily copied and pasted from IMing with ebola? (Oh btw ebola is doing well if anyone has wondered over time lol, not sure how often he shows up here)

For some reason Cesium breaks the general trend there of families and the rabbit problem tho, at 55. Perhaps it's technically a start of some new undescribed series.

The halogen series starts on a magic number I believe because it falls on either side of a Fibonacci number in two ways.... Atomic number 9 and 7 valence electrons in the second shell. 3, 6, and 9 as magic numbers also being important for periodicity in general. A symmetrical series as opposed to the symmetry breaking series described in general by Fibonacci style sequences (the Lucas numbers also relate but I have yet to read much about that rabbit hole. The Quora answer linked explains it better tho about how the periodic table is a series of forming and breaking symmetries)

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Some combination of this table and the first periodic table make it easier to visualize what I was saying about how new periodic families tend to occur along with the new color series in the original Fibonacci rabbit image

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Having anxiety when i consume caffeine now, i thought it was just in my head but its real. I felt completely fine all morning and then i drank a strong cup of coffee and thirty mins later wham, that anxious feeling came over me. Made the drop to 1.25mgs of Zyprexa and ive held to it, pretty sure thats what is causing it. What a demon drug that stuff is, hate it so much.

Ive been struggling to taper off it for 8 months now its just so terrible and difficult. The withdrawal effects are so unpleasant and exactly like benzo WD, so any of you that have been through those know where im coming from. It was the biggest mistake ever going back on that stuff. The last time i went off it years ago i was taking boatloads of benzos and opioids so i think i just never noticed the withdrawal symptoms.

Im pretty deadset on making the complete jump off over the next month. Im about to start taking 1.25mgs every other night for a couple weeks and then every three days and then just trying to stop all together. I would seriously advise people not to go on this drug, if you truly need an anti-psychotic there is other options that are so much easier to come off when that time comes.

Wish me luck 🙏
I thought you were past that for some time... good luck finally getting off dude, nasty stuff. Horror stories everywhere.

I'm still on Seroquel, 100mg a day which isn't much but it does a good job at giving sleep and keeping me relatively stable (the dose shouldn't do much but the sleep is like a reset every night). It has changed me, or maybe it's just the absence of constantly destabilizing myself even more through drug abuse, or just 2 years older. I'm so much cooler these days, I just do and don't get inside my head as much, I retain my cool much better. Friends, girls, family, work...

I had a couple people tell me that I've changed a lot since whatever period before Seroquel, like I'm more fun and not as out there or something, lol. I didn't appreciate the comments, because despite everything I still think I was mostly the same, at least outwardly irl. And I've been very bored ever since. Guess it's the better version =D ... I was very obsessive though, and I can't even describe about what, sometimes I get glimpses of anxiety and all the things that are wrong but I just move past it. It's good to be past that.
No psychedelics either and no intention of taking any, I don't think I would like the shock of suddenly seeing everything that has been dampened for so long either. Life huh, we march ahead
 
So overcome with anxiety, it really ruff. My girlfriend is gonna be here in a few hours and it bringing me wlot of drugs. Gonna take some Carisoprodol and Pregabalin, will deff help my state. And the we are gonna rent a hotel and do n2O and fool around. I have some work to do making Bromazolam solutions for her. I got this one 40ml vial that has 160mgs Bromazolam in it 4mg/ml.

Obviously that is way to strong so im taking two new 30ml amber vials and splitting it between the two and filling the rest up with ethanol and shaking the fuck out of it. Im gonna show her the amount to take like half a ml maybe slightly less as she gets a feel for it. Really wanted to take that FXE but im pretty bugged out about the drug test, its not worth going back to jail over.

Nine months from now i will be able to do what i please again. Its not that far away and i can make it, then i can have some months where on my day off i get to a nice half gram of FXE or vape some O-PCE. It will be nice, have a few other dissos lined up that im gonna get as well. Thought about taking Memantine today but after it destroyed my sleep couple weeks ago im hesitant.

Have a good day folks 🙂
 
Yeah man, 9 months isn't very long, I was worried you had years to go or something. You can definitely do 9 months. :) And as you said, then you're totally free. it's more than worth it. It's just dissociatives man, you have way better things in your life (like your girlfriend.... freedom... and psychedelics really soon, when you finish getting off the antipsychotic :))
 
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