Still tripping pretty hard, work was so busy i really got my ass handed to me tonight it was ruff. It was distracting me from how much i was altered but as soon as i clocked out and left the restaurant i realized i was still just as dissociated as i was this morning, this 120mg dose is a real beast.
Literally got zero sleep last night i was so fucked up and then at 10am i got desprete and i G'd myself out on purpose, got three hours. G'd myself out again and got another three hours and then my boss called me frantic saying the restaurant is insane and that i need to come there right now, fuck me.
So i gather myself together and head into cook, the entire place is filled and i proceeded to cook a ridiculous amount of orders all night. Like non-stop tickets coming in i had to go seriously zen and just push thru on muscle memory. I thought today could honestly be the day i fail there and fuck it up, but i got by on skin of my teeth...because im that dude.
Just took my shower and got in bed, took a nice heavy dose of G and put on podcast. About to melt into my pillow with my headphones on, it was a success. After tonight and the morning im gonna stop the 1,4-BDO if i can gather the willpower and try to sleep all natural tommorow. This stuff gotta be wearing off by then, fuck man. Memantine is similar to DOPr in its duration its the only other drug i can compare it to in that regard.
The last 36hrs have felt different than ever on it before tho, it sorta is like the comedown feeling after a monster dosage of 3-MeO-PCE. It had a much more traditional dissos feel at this dose. I dont even know if im gonna take 120mgs again, the other day the 80mgs was so much more manageable and i was able to sleep etc. And i wasnt completely wacked still almost two days after dosing.
Feel really nice now tho regardless like super peaceful. Especially now that the G is starting to work its magic as i type this, god bless drugs. What a wacky life i choose to live, huh.