I've found the things that really help me are all the typical things you hear about - physical exercise, meditation, pursuing interests of passion, physical contact, time with friends and loved ones, music, art/experience in general. immersing myself in the here and now world as opposed to my internal world of chemical phantoms. Once I make it past the first week or two, things seem to get drastically easier and instead of faking it along, i begin to enjoy and get into my normal life experience.
it will be that way for a minute as your receptors work back to normal. that's why i mentioned the "faking it" part. It's difficult for the first bit as you re-stablish associations positively, and get your reward system to start functioning in a natural way again. We spend years digging these holes, and then get mad when things aren't back together in a couple of weeks. It definitely requires tolerating some boredom, possibly painful mental space and a lot of anhedonia, ime the end is worth it though, and feeling more natural joy and emotions is priceless.
i titrate everything. imo there is no reason to make things harder on your brain than they need to be.
I figured, thats what im doing, Now im on oxy 100mg a day and its spread out. I literally get a little high from just a 30mg IR and a Xanax. I like this but yesterday I took 45 and was in heaven. SO I feel my tolerance going from 200mg a day plus to this and I still get a little buzz so I guess I'm doing thig this thing right now?
any tips, as I am coming back from vacation today and going to run out but have some fent m30 to hold me over till my next oxy comes, do you think its safe to just take ONE m30 just to hold me over till the post comes with my oxy?
so just suffer it out before just using the thing Im getting off as a for getting sick
it took me quite awhile before I was able to admit my addiction and not till the past couple years have I had physical withdraws from anything. I remember I was driving cross country from NY to CA and I had maybe 5 m30's with me to hep me last. I didn't know what PW we're so I would take a subxone in the morning after doing 1-2 m30's the night before. let me tell you that was a hell I couldn't barer, I was screaming in mental and physical pain and would then take a other m30's in the morning pass out and wake uo and take another sub and then again put into PW. That last time it got so bad I went to the ER and they thought my balls were tangled because I was screaming and puking in pain lol they gave me the strongest anti-nasusa you can get and I was still dry heaving. They kept me for a couple days to do biopsy of ym stomach cause when I get WD my stomach is the main pain I get and the mental part but I always have enough Xanax to kill a horse lol so thats not the bad part. but they did give me morphine to come me down and norcos for the time I was there which helped so incredibly and when I was hydrated and left I was still a little fucked up but nothing like when I had entered the ER days before. I will NEVER in American tel the doctor I was using drugs as they immediately look at you deferetly and the judging feelings come out. I love America but drug abuse and they way they approach it is very Middle Ages but stalest I won't get killed dover a gram of weed like some other countries.
very well stated and yes the problem is breaking the cycle of using with my hobbies like running or other things that I know can't do without the drug because I get so sick from WD I can't do my hobbies because of that. It a sick circle of misery that we live in when we do things like this.
Good point. Those loans are really fun though when you first get them…
Yes. They do.But do the natural chemical rewards ever return after hardwiring your brain with artificial chemical rewards for so long?
It's true that abstinence does get a little bit easier every day in my experience. The first day is always the hardest, second day slightly easier etc... until I fall off the wagon...
